05-17-2014, 03:38 AM
(This post was last modified: 05-17-2014, 03:43 AM by rayrocanaldo.)
(05-17-2014, 01:10 AM)lokko Wrote: day 78: I had a speeding ticket, and hired this woman that I knew through a friend, she's 34..she asked for $500 to beat the ticket. I took her out to eat, and I swear to you I could understand her subliminal messages. She was trying to make me fall for her by saying things that most "friend zone" guys would agree on with her or just laugh it off, but I told her directly and called her out on stuff. She kept shit testing me, I seen right through her, I never caught on to this stuff before but I swear to you it was like a light of clearity when I realized what she was doing. Anyhow after long talk, she's going to handle my speeding ticket for free. I think she expects to chase her though cause she mentions how guys stalk her etc...(she's overweight and much older then me) I don't know what who she thought she was fooling. I felt way more relaxed when I was talking to her btw. Usually I'd cringe at things I said if they were straight to the point or truthfully. I didn't budge. Anyways I don't want nothing with her, maybe an occasional friendship here and there.
I came home and started playing video games. I SWEAR I WANT TO LET GO OF THIS GAME. It's taking away at my life. IT FRUSTRATES ME, it makes me so angry but yet I still play it everyday. I'm going to uninstall it. I feel like my hours (which is minimum 6 hours a day on this game) could go to better use. It's just addicting, but as I write this, I am going to uninstall this game. Finally get rid of it. THIS IS GOING TO BE A GOOD CHANGE.
I feel the same way about video games. I have a ps3 at home and I want to sell it although it's been a while since I played it because my controlllers are broken. But, even if I sell it, I am stilll wasting time on other things like internet, facebook, etc...Which means it won't serve me to get rid of my ps3. As soon as I get rid of my all my fears & negativity THEN I can or not get rid of my ps3 but before that would be an exercise in futility I believe because I still have the mental causes of fooling around.
