It's like a pendulum, I am high value, I am low value, high again, low again, and it goes on..
I am not trying to consciously do anything, just going with flow..
I have been trying to stop masturbating, or delaying it once per 2 week/more, since one and a half year and I am failing again and again. I can't make it more than 3/4 days, only once in my life I held it for 2 weeks and that too with the help of hypnosis, the suggestion wore off and I started using subliminal, so can't use hypnosis again. I wish I could.
Unfortunately I didn't go out during that (2 week) period and couldn't notice how it had affected me, basically social skills, and how people are responding to me. The purpose is be BOLD and AGGRESSIVE, and transmute sexual energy to get better awareness of myself and my surroundings.
In short, I want to be the BEAST and aglow in sexual energy which I know will force me to do things I could never even imagine doing it normally.
I must have the discipline to do it now.
I am not trying to consciously do anything, just going with flow..
I have been trying to stop masturbating, or delaying it once per 2 week/more, since one and a half year and I am failing again and again. I can't make it more than 3/4 days, only once in my life I held it for 2 weeks and that too with the help of hypnosis, the suggestion wore off and I started using subliminal, so can't use hypnosis again. I wish I could.
Unfortunately I didn't go out during that (2 week) period and couldn't notice how it had affected me, basically social skills, and how people are responding to me. The purpose is be BOLD and AGGRESSIVE, and transmute sexual energy to get better awareness of myself and my surroundings.
In short, I want to be the BEAST and aglow in sexual energy which I know will force me to do things I could never even imagine doing it normally.
I must have the discipline to do it now.
STRENGTH, above all else..
