09-05-2013, 09:09 AM
These are two basic reasons I started using Alpha Male:-
1. Gain Respect and Stop being treated and feeling like a doormat.
2. Be more Social, the person people love to be with. Being straight, I want be the center of attraction at will.
I have noticed that the person who is more Alpha is the one who talks more and is usually the center of attraction. Who usually play games with people and love to tease them. I don't want be that person but I want be like that person, I hope you are understanding what I am trying to say here.
Here's my experiences - Week 1
DAY 2 - THE ALPHA MALE
Yesterday, day 1, after like half an hour of listening I slightly felt more MANLY. Suggestions all revolving around my head when I was asleep - in my own voice - the only one I can remember is the last one, i.e. I am an/the Alpha Male.
I started setting boundaries as to which behavior I accept and which not - done with a friend today, and I think I'll do it with other people as well when I go out, day after tomorrow, let's see what happens, it's just my assumption.
Becoming a person who do not take spoken words lightly, do what he says and expect others to do what they say, and when he/they say he/they'll do it. Again, all of this I am taking lightly at this moment, and not backing it up completely, because, maybe it's just a transition or a phase, I mean it's been only 2 days, too early to conclude something.
And, less jealousy, being actually appreciative of the people who are successful in general term/who are living life larger than oneself and trying to learn or take something of value out of them.
This was my thought process for the day.
DAY 4 - ANGRY
Foolish people doing foolish things, why? Is it any good to be the sheep? Follow? And not think for yourself and then they expect you to do the same things and judge you upon that, fuck off, I don't want any of it.
The problem is not treating a person with open heart, open arms and with sunshine, rather I want to be alone and DO without wasting my energy, but am I able to do that? Am I honest with myself? Am I disciplined rather than pleasure seeking? Am I being a Man?
Day 6 - HARD
Negatives
Feeling depressed, wanting to run away, mocked, unworthy, 'no one likes me', needy, hesitant, lack of confidence, anxiety, 'I care what people say' and what not. when I was walking down an empty street I literally imagined people pointing people at me and mocking me.
Positives
Want to exercise and learn to dance, more focus on my physical appearance, and little bit more motivated and disciplined to set up goals and follow them.
DAY 7 - IT'S GETTING WORSE
Feeling like a complete loser, worthy of nothing, all my confidence I gained from month use of ASC is completely gone. I don't want to talk to anybody, people are treating me even badly now like I do not even exist, may be it's because I am not wanting to talk. Feeling more like a doormat. Feeling like crying.
Does it hit that hard the first time?
Am I expecting what I should not expect from the sub?
Or
Am I setting the right goals for the sub?
I hope things get better.
Peace Out.
1. Gain Respect and Stop being treated and feeling like a doormat.
2. Be more Social, the person people love to be with. Being straight, I want be the center of attraction at will.
I have noticed that the person who is more Alpha is the one who talks more and is usually the center of attraction. Who usually play games with people and love to tease them. I don't want be that person but I want be like that person, I hope you are understanding what I am trying to say here.
Here's my experiences - Week 1
DAY 2 - THE ALPHA MALE
Yesterday, day 1, after like half an hour of listening I slightly felt more MANLY. Suggestions all revolving around my head when I was asleep - in my own voice - the only one I can remember is the last one, i.e. I am an/the Alpha Male.
I started setting boundaries as to which behavior I accept and which not - done with a friend today, and I think I'll do it with other people as well when I go out, day after tomorrow, let's see what happens, it's just my assumption.
Becoming a person who do not take spoken words lightly, do what he says and expect others to do what they say, and when he/they say he/they'll do it. Again, all of this I am taking lightly at this moment, and not backing it up completely, because, maybe it's just a transition or a phase, I mean it's been only 2 days, too early to conclude something.
And, less jealousy, being actually appreciative of the people who are successful in general term/who are living life larger than oneself and trying to learn or take something of value out of them.
This was my thought process for the day.
DAY 4 - ANGRY
Foolish people doing foolish things, why? Is it any good to be the sheep? Follow? And not think for yourself and then they expect you to do the same things and judge you upon that, fuck off, I don't want any of it.
The problem is not treating a person with open heart, open arms and with sunshine, rather I want to be alone and DO without wasting my energy, but am I able to do that? Am I honest with myself? Am I disciplined rather than pleasure seeking? Am I being a Man?
Day 6 - HARD
Negatives
Feeling depressed, wanting to run away, mocked, unworthy, 'no one likes me', needy, hesitant, lack of confidence, anxiety, 'I care what people say' and what not. when I was walking down an empty street I literally imagined people pointing people at me and mocking me.
Positives
Want to exercise and learn to dance, more focus on my physical appearance, and little bit more motivated and disciplined to set up goals and follow them.
DAY 7 - IT'S GETTING WORSE
Feeling like a complete loser, worthy of nothing, all my confidence I gained from month use of ASC is completely gone. I don't want to talk to anybody, people are treating me even badly now like I do not even exist, may be it's because I am not wanting to talk. Feeling more like a doormat. Feeling like crying.
Does it hit that hard the first time?
Am I expecting what I should not expect from the sub?
Or
Am I setting the right goals for the sub?
I hope things get better.
Peace Out.
STRENGTH, above all else..