(09-12-2020, 12:11 PM)CatMan Wrote: Sounds like you're doing really well on this. I'm happy for you man, all the best to you!
Thanks Catman.
LTU5 showed me how important it is to tackle core issues and build from there. In my opinion, it was a little ambitious for the scripting technology of the time, but LTU6 is a different story and was a no-brainer for me.
(09-12-2020, 12:11 PM)CatMan Wrote: Sounds like you're doing really well on this. I'm happy for you man, all the best to you!
Thanks Catman.
LTU5 showed me how important it is to tackle core issues and build from there. In my opinion, it was a little ambitious for the scripting technology of the time, but LTU6 is a different story and was a no-brainer for me.
OF has been a big step forward it seems so far too for my brother and I. From OF on, it seems things may have finally turned a corner here. Bodes well for the next DMSI and UMS and onward. Exciting prospects going forward.
I wish you awesome success on this sub man, it seems like a winner.
(09-12-2020, 12:11 PM)CatMan Wrote: Sounds like you're doing really well on this. I'm happy for you man, all the best to you!
Thanks Catman.
LTU5 showed me how important it is to tackle core issues and build from there. In my opinion, it was a little ambitious for the scripting technology of the time, but LTU6 is a different story and was a no-brainer for me.
OF has been a big step forward it seems so far too for my brother and I. From OF on, it seems things may have finally turned a corner here. Bodes well for the next DMSI and UMS and onward. Exciting prospects going forward.
I wish you awesome success on this sub man, it seems like a winner.
The technology has definitely taken a leap forward, but I have a feeling Shannon will be pulling even more out his bag of tricks. When he begins mining Beast I think those creative juices will be on fire. He's having fears and blockages removed just like we are, and I believe that's going clear the way for some serious upcoming progress in his work.
Tonight will be my first ASRB2 break. Stage 2 has a different "feel" to it than Stage 1. For me, Stage 1 was more nurturing and almost felt like it was embracing or cradling me. There were times that I woke up feeling like I was in a warm, soothing cocoon. That's gone. Stage 2 is pushing me. It's gentle, but it's pushing me.
Last night, I was really tired after a day of home maintenance in the heat. In spite if that, my wife and I had a fun, flirty evening that ended with some spicy fun in the bedroom. My relationship with my wife might be the most obvious area that is being "tuned up" for me. In addition to being more appreciative of my wife and more loving toward her, I'm not as tired and cranky as I've been over the course of the past year due to work stress and other issues. I'm also healing from emotional wounds inflicted by girls during my teenage years. I've come to realize that I've unwittingly projected things onto my wife that had absolutely nothing to do with her. That projection came from a total lack of insight, a total lack of maturity, and a total lack of fairness toward her. As part of this emotional healing, I've also come to realize that those who've inflicted pain upon me likely had no idea how deeply they could hurt someone. So, in addition to my love life/sex life improvements, I'm letting go of grudges that I've apparently been toting around for over 20 years. Neato!
My shoulder pain has returned. That began about a week before starting Stage 2. I ended up ordering an old joint supplement that has helped me in the past.
I seem to be more sensitive to caffeine. One cup of coffee feels like two. It doesn't take much to get me going.
Yesterday, I felt that a shift had taken place but couldn't put my finger on exactly what that shift was. Today it has begun to come into focus. There's an underlying, no-nonsense part of me that's gaining ground. I've seen evidence of it multiple times over the past 24+ hours. This part of me is prone to forward progress and despises distractions. This part of me wants to get to the point and forget the small talk. This part of me is determined, aggressive, and ready to get sh*t done.
I believe UM/OP is in this stage and it's working. I really dig it, although I'm going to have to learn to keep the aggression in check. I'm not feeling very tolerant.
I hope Shannon takes a long hard look at adding whatever motivating script that's in this stage to AM7 (presumably UM/OP)... and possibly any other sub that benefits by getting the user off their ass.
This week's motivation was amazing. It's on the level of motivation I used to experience when I had bad anxiety. Back then, it was fear that drove me. For me, one downside of overcoming fear over the past few years is that it has largely removed my primary source of motivation. Well, it looks like Shannon has figured out how reset the motivation minus the anxiety. This week has been raw determination. I've been going to work early and staying late to whittle down the mountain of tasks I have on my plate. I'm getting there. Thankfully, the weekend has come because I'm ready to sleep in for a couple of days. The motivation is awesome, but I've put a drain on the battery and need to recharge.
Another thing I've noticed is that during downtime, I'm more relaxed and social. I mentioned belly laughter one day during Stage 1. I'm doing that regularly now. I didn't realize it until I busted out laughing about something at work. Then tracing back through the events of the week, I realized that deep laughter had been the norm for at least the past seven days or so. In fact, one night last weekend I declined the opportunity to consume a few adult beverages like I usually do. I didn't 'feel' like drinking, but I enjoyed myself every bit as much as if I had...and the belly laughter was part of that enjoyment.
One of the things I've been pondering about LTU6 is its subtlety. I often don't notice things until I'm looking back. So, sometimes I'm experiencing progress but I neglect to report it because I don't notice it at the time.
Lat night was my the first night of my ASRB2 break for my second cycle of stage 2. I needed it. I really wore myself out mentally over the past week. There are things I need to do today, but I'll most likely take it easy...one thing at a time and at my own pace.
Something I've observed over the past week or so is that I've been experiencing a pretty significant reduction in appetite. To give some context, from ~2011 through ~2016, I was into fitness pretty hardcore. Discovering intermittent fasting changed the game for me. I dropped 40lbs of mostly fat and in my late 30s I was leaner and more muscular than I was at 18. The method I used was that I would cycle my calories downward to unhealthy levels then gorge myself on my cheat day (beer, fajitas, & ice cream were favorites of mine). During the week, while I was starving, I was pushing myself through a high intensity calisthenics routine that pushed my body to the brink of what it could handle. My "success" came from a combination of body dismorphic obsession and the fact that I could use meal timing to engage in the gluttony that I craved. This gluttony issue is something I've wrestled with for as long as I can remember. I'm not sure what it stems from, but LTU6 seems to be getting a handle on it. I hope that this is indicative of long term change.
As a side note, I was looking through my profile/control panel to locate my journal this morning and realized that there's a reputation feature. I just wanted to say thanks to you guys for the positive comments and encouragement in the background. I'm very thankful for you all and I feel very fortunate to be a part of this online community.
Another thing that just occurred to me is that I'm becoming increasingly interested in adaptogenic herbs. I've put myself through years of physical, mental, and emotional stress so I've probably harmed myself on levels that I'm consciously oblivious to. It seems reasonable that LTU6 is guiding me toward adaptogens to aid in any recovery efforts.
Although I don't always detect it as it's happening, there's a definite restructuring going on within me.
I'm feeling much better today after sleeping late for the past two days. One downside to Stage 2 for me is that my sleep doesn't seem to be as deep and restful as it was during Stage 1. I think that maybe it revs me up to the point that I have a hard time coming down. This past week, I pushed myself until I crashed. Keep in mind that I have a natural tendency to go all out when I set my mind to something, so the program isn't to blame. It's all in how I'm interpreting and executing the instructions. I'm pretty confident that this is something that will work itself out over time as I overcome some of my self-destructive tendencies.
I noticed something last week that I forgot to mention in my posts. One of my coworkers is probably the most negative person I've ever met. He used stop by my office regularly and gripe about one thing or another. He still does that with other people, but he mostly avoids me. At first, I thought I pissed him off (I usually shut his bullsh*t down). Then it clicked...DRS. I've known him for a long time. This is the fist that I've ever seen this change in behavior.
(09-20-2020, 06:36 AM)NOMAD Wrote: Stage 2, Day 11
I noticed something last week that I forgot to mention in my posts. One of my coworkers is probably the most negative person I've ever met. He used stop by my office regularly and gripe about one thing or another. He still does that with other people, but he mostly avoids me. At first, I thought I pissed him off (I usually shut his bullsh*t down). Then it clicked...DRS. I've known him for a long time. This is the fist that I've ever seen this change in behavior.
Yep, it sounds like DRS indeed
Signed: the no. 1 DRS fan
P.S. I miss the power of stand-alone DRS a bit, DRS in LTU works fine but the standalone version was magic. So magic it almost killed someone (literally)
I understand that I am now sharing my energy with a bunch more titles, titles I need, so I am not complaining, just missing the superpowers.
