Fri 14 December
Today is Day 82 of UMOP in total (UMOP + UMOP2) & Day 25 of the New UMOP2 (-10 days missed) = 82:25 (-10)
Day 2 of cycle 5 - (I have restarted the cycle count as per Shannon's advice yesterday).
I dont know if I need to restart the total number of days count but until Shannon says otherwise, ive simply added (-10 days) at the top as a marker for the 10 consecutive days that I have missed.
Therefore factoring this would mean I am at, 72:15 instead.
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I again went to bed very late, around 3 or 4am, I was yawning but as usual once in bed and the lights go off im not in the mood to sleep.
I stayed away playing a game on my phone and checking emails, tinder etc.
I finally fell asleep around 6am I think and let the sub play - I didnt notice it playing nor was I awoken.
I woke around 1.30pm wondering if indeed the sub had played or not, as my sleep was so deep and undisturbed.
I had turned the volume down 1 point and this may have meant a more relaxed listen however I do hope that morning noises and sounds didnt over mask the track.
The main thing I wanted to share was something else and its been on my mind as to how to share it.
When I woke, I as usual, in a sleepy state grabbed my phone and began checking tinder, emails, messages etc.
Im not sure how long into doing this but I believe it was around 30-60mins that I had a memory flash into my mind.
This is a memory I have had in my mind before on random occasions but only this time the feelings/emotions of it were very intense and very uncomfortable.
The memory was of (and to protect people I wont go into too much detail) someone I saw infront of my eyes get hit by their parent during an argument. I was I dont know maybe 8 maybe 13, I just cant say and he the child being hit was maybe 2 years older than me.
Remembering this made me feel an immense emotion today and I just dont know why. I felt it and I was both angry and full of pity too. I just felt shit about it basically.
I only let it linger for 30secs or 1min and then tried to move on from it and successfully did.
I however have had this memory and emotions more so flash in my mind for the past few hours that I have been awake, but with less emotion and less vividness. Actually its only maybe come into my mind around 2-3 times.
I have no idea what this is about nor the relevance of it if any. Its easy to share everything in the hope that everything is connected to UMOP because I have done this over and over again in the past with every sub but nothing has changed when it came to results, so im unsure if this is relevant or not.
(Addendum: I remember for example having dreams - with strong emotions or not I dont recall - when I was on E2 thats why im just unsure if this is clearing or not)
I had to share it and apologies for not being able to go into detail. Thank you
oh and then i went back to my phone and then soon got up and on with my day.
Today is Day 82 of UMOP in total (UMOP + UMOP2) & Day 25 of the New UMOP2 (-10 days missed) = 82:25 (-10)
Day 2 of cycle 5 - (I have restarted the cycle count as per Shannon's advice yesterday).
I dont know if I need to restart the total number of days count but until Shannon says otherwise, ive simply added (-10 days) at the top as a marker for the 10 consecutive days that I have missed.
Therefore factoring this would mean I am at, 72:15 instead.
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I again went to bed very late, around 3 or 4am, I was yawning but as usual once in bed and the lights go off im not in the mood to sleep.
I stayed away playing a game on my phone and checking emails, tinder etc.
I finally fell asleep around 6am I think and let the sub play - I didnt notice it playing nor was I awoken.
I woke around 1.30pm wondering if indeed the sub had played or not, as my sleep was so deep and undisturbed.
I had turned the volume down 1 point and this may have meant a more relaxed listen however I do hope that morning noises and sounds didnt over mask the track.
The main thing I wanted to share was something else and its been on my mind as to how to share it.
When I woke, I as usual, in a sleepy state grabbed my phone and began checking tinder, emails, messages etc.
Im not sure how long into doing this but I believe it was around 30-60mins that I had a memory flash into my mind.
This is a memory I have had in my mind before on random occasions but only this time the feelings/emotions of it were very intense and very uncomfortable.
The memory was of (and to protect people I wont go into too much detail) someone I saw infront of my eyes get hit by their parent during an argument. I was I dont know maybe 8 maybe 13, I just cant say and he the child being hit was maybe 2 years older than me.
Remembering this made me feel an immense emotion today and I just dont know why. I felt it and I was both angry and full of pity too. I just felt shit about it basically.
I only let it linger for 30secs or 1min and then tried to move on from it and successfully did.
I however have had this memory and emotions more so flash in my mind for the past few hours that I have been awake, but with less emotion and less vividness. Actually its only maybe come into my mind around 2-3 times.
I have no idea what this is about nor the relevance of it if any. Its easy to share everything in the hope that everything is connected to UMOP because I have done this over and over again in the past with every sub but nothing has changed when it came to results, so im unsure if this is relevant or not.
(Addendum: I remember for example having dreams - with strong emotions or not I dont recall - when I was on E2 thats why im just unsure if this is clearing or not)
I had to share it and apologies for not being able to go into detail. Thank you
oh and then i went back to my phone and then soon got up and on with my day.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
