11-03-2020, 06:41 AM
(11-03-2020, 06:01 AM)Jake2015 Wrote: Tuesday 3 November - Day 5 of Cycle 1
Thank you ALL of you above that replied. I dont want to reply to each and every single one of you individually as the thread will get overrun but I really appreciate the words and support.
What has confused me and I really hope 1 of you can explain to me is her words where she said clearly to me "its a break, i am not ending this im just asking for a break from everything".
Yes I did say that if she wants a break well to me a break is no different to ending things as that is how I have always seen it. Yes we arent officially a couple, not officially bf/gf yet we always got on and talked about the future be it marriage or how it would be when we are together as a couple etc. Yes I did most of that however she was enjoying it too when the flow we had was there. The fact that its been disrupted is due to her ex being on the scene (which she told me she is only talking and messaging him for 5mins here or there - shes on the phone to me alot more and for alot longer) but also a guy that claimed to be her friend but clearly wants more and tried to fuck with my head and thus what I have with this girl so in essence allowing other people enter what we have has disrupted our flow for sure.
The point im trying to make is that I was shocked when she said she wanted a break but I was ready to simply let go and walk and never look back. (I had always told her in the past that im not ever going to be her friend, i dont have that desire to be her friend when I have such feelings for her and so I will walk away and yes disappear and yes then there will be no contact from me ever.)
She then said im not ending it i just need a break from everything and I think its all these external factors that may have overwhelmed her perhaps.
So if shes saying to me at the end of our phone call "im having this break but its not me ending it or ending anything" what does it mean?
I said ok what else could I say, she then said "i will be thinking of you" - I remained silent cos again I was confused why say that to me? what does that even mean?
and then she said bye and I said bye.
Now I am not chasing her, im not contacting her and im really really missing her sure and thinking about her but what I would like is for her to miss me to think about me to have me in her mind.
So any of you make sense of this for me?
I am hoping that OF even through my old S7 edge phone does the job for me.
Im hitting the gym even though its covid and cooking food which takes forever but making sure im focused on losing weight which is my goal.
I am also going to try and focus on me more during this "break" anyway.
thanks
Let me translate you womenese:
" i need a break"- there is some other dude thats get me wetter and i wanna see how it goes with him.
"i love you"- you provide me what i need (emotionally,sexually,socially) right now, this might change soon.
