Getting Life Back on Track - LTU 5

[ResJudicata]

Day 12

Good news, I finally got myself to do some writing. Not amazing or a lot of the work I wanted to get done but some more progress and larger development than I’ve seen most of the week.

The bad was right after where I had a stream of some bad luck. My drive to my tabletop dog group consisted of hitting almost all the red lights possible and getting stuck behind people who were going 5-10 mph below the posted speed limit. Then when I got to maybe destination, my soda slipped and spilled over the interior of my car and my headphones. No permanent damage seems to have happened and my headphones seem to work fine but some very weird string of bad luck.

Otherwise a nice rest day where not much seemed to have happened.

(Edit: is anyone else getting a weird glitch on the forum where the text doesn’t seem to appear on their phone? I’m just getting blank sections that I can apparently highlight and copy but the text seems to be appearing white on white or something similar...)

(Second edit: forum seems fixed now. Leaving these behind just for posterity than need)

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Day 14

Not much has happened over the last 2 days. My Sunday gaming which is a mixed bag for me was cancelled but I have stumbled upon more good stories than bad when reading, so I’ll count that as some good luck. I’m still listening to the masked only at the increased volume to see if it’ll actually have an effect like it felt like it might have on the night of day 10. 

I’m not sure what to make of my eating. I’ll have moments where I really feel hungry but feel like my body doesn’t want to eat anymore. The cognitive dissonance bothers me at those moments but I try to ignore it and write it off. I’ll probably want to check my weight as I had been losing weight prior to starting this sub and still need to lose more weight. Nothing else to really report. Quiet couple of days getting my read on.

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Day 23

Been a while since I posted. Not really much to say. I feel like I really need to eat more though. I have also been having some physical problems but I can't tell if that's from not eating enough or whether it's a result of parts of the sub. Or it may just be my lack of exercise catching up to me.

Good news is that I've been able to organize a board game meetup with some of my friends and the board game I wished to play arrived on time. Now I just need to organize myself and get stuff done tomorrow and I'll be great. Hopefully I can get the battery switched out on my iphone, apply to a few more jobs, and get some writing done while I wait for my phone get done.

I also seem a bit more upbeat today. Not sure if that's subs or it's just a good day.

Edit: one minor bit of luck, an item I ordered said it might take up to 2 weeks to process and I ordered it yesterday. Already processed and going through the shipping process.

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Day 28

Well this is weird. I would have sworn I posted something a couple of days ago but I seem to not have done so. There wasn't much to mention other than I realized I had been peeing more and drinking more water and I hypothesized that was connected to the detox part. Also some aches and pains have come back. Although that's probably more lack of exorcise than anything else. I also feel like I've been hornier this last week than I have in a while but that may just be entirely a mental thing. I've gone back to the hybrid this cycle as that seems to have the best effect, I'm just having to be careful with the volume.

Random thought, I wonder with everything packed into one sub if there's an order it's going to execute and what the brain will prioritize or whether it will attempt to execute everything at once?

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Day 29

It’s a rest day and today has been pretty good overall. A small personal project was done with much frustration. It’s weird when you need to hammer something and can’t find one...especially when you’re hammering away a mistake on a crafting project. My hands hate me because of all the Super glue but I think the containers I purchased and put together for a board game I like came out well (Root for the record but a bit off topic).

Now that I’ve got it all put away, I feel suddenly drained of energy. I feel massively tired. I can’t really place why either. Also I have started to have a headache but what’s weird is it’s the back of my head. I’ve never really had headaches there except a couple of times since I’ve started this sub specifically. Not heavy headaches or migraines, thankfully, just a light pressure and ache. Think I’ll do some reading and then go to bed. Hopefully I can mark off some other things I need to accomplish tomorrow. Although my schedule will be a bit weird since i need to get up early in the morning.

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Day 35

I think I'm more positive and certain events are lining up and actually happening. I'm still procrastinating on a couple of my goals but that seems partially because of my many bad habits and latent fear that I still seem to have preventing me taking action. That and I keep forgetting about writing as I distract myself with other entertainment. I really need to force myself to get more of a fixed schedule.

[Shannon]

It's a process. Appreciate your progress, identify your necessary next steps, and work on them with focus, making them small enough that each is easy to achieve by itself.

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Day 39

I'm noticing a build up in irritation tonight. What's weird is it doesn't feel like a legitimate reason but just seems to be a general frustration at multiple sources. Normally this wouldn't bother me but for some reason it is. Hopefully it'll pass. Otherwise, it's about normal for things going on. I haven't noticed any changes or amazing coincidences of luck other than a few decent parking spots here and there.

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Day 44

Well, I heard back from one of the few places I could find with a posted job opening. I have an interview Friday. My Blood Bowl league is also finally coming back to life and I have that game scheduled for Thursday. Only unfortunate part about both is they’re relatively early since my sleep schedule has been non-sense for a long time (2-10am is not conducive to most “normal” jobs or shedules). Hopefully, I can semi-reset my sleep schedule and nothing happens since it’s a longer drive than what I’m used to for the interview.

Otherwise nothing super noticeable about the sub. No dreams that I remember for a long while (I think I had a couple early on in the sub but I tend to forget my dreams quickly in the morning). Tiredness isn’t the bone weary but the normal kind at the end of the day. Also, no super lucky things to my knowledge (other than the Blood Bowl thing. Well, let’s see how my luck plays out with that).

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Day 49

I think my interview went well and they have a position opening up I'd be interested in but I'll have to wait a couple weeks to hear back with regards to that due to bureaucracy and the need to get a local county to confirm a change to their contract for an extra position (something they had already started before I applied).

I have been tired a lot on my two rest days, although I can't tell if that's because I've had to change my sleep schedule to get up early on Thursday and Friday or some other reason. Otherwise, I've been doing alright with normal results for a lot of things. Nothing truly noticeable other than my dog seems to be having breathing troubles.

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Day 53

For some reason I notice I've been feeling really tired on the first rest day of each set. Which probably means it's a good thing I rest on that day as my brain might be overworking itself or I'm just assuming a pattern from coincidence.

Otherwise, I've been pretty normal other than a building annoyance with my aunt that I can't really directly deal with.

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Day 60

It’s been 2 months and I’m still not sure what I’m accomplishing sometimes. Some days I feel better mentally and others, like today, I just feel exhausted even after sleeping a good amount of time. I know the sub is helping but there are days I sometimes question why I’m going through all this effort when I seem to be unable to see any results. I tend to ignore those days.  Well, here’s to another month and I really wish this site wouldn’t o lag and then do weird thing so with autocorrect on my iPhone.

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Day 67

Still trying to update at least once a week. Again, not much to note. I've kind of reached the point where I just listen on the nights I need to listen and forget about the sub. No idea if it's working or not. I think I'm acting a little less depressed but still haven't heard back from that place I interviewed at and they said they'd get back in 2 or 3 weeks. It will have been 3 weeks on Friday. I'll probably call them Monday and double check that they're still considering me and make plans after that.

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Day 73

The days are really starting to blur. I tried calling the place about that job I seemed to have had lined up but the person was out and I left a message. He still hasn't gotten back to me.

Otherwise life just seems to be moving on. I haven't even thought about writing in a long while, which kind of bothers me since that was one of my two goals. Maybe the program is focusing on other aspects but I'm not sure what's happening with me, tbh.