09-12-2013, 01:38 PM
My, my. Interesting indeed.
I'm on day six of ASC. The first five days were pretty uneventful. I did notice that, after listening to the ultrasonic while I slept, I would wake up in the morning feeling like my head was vibrating. I never experienced this with 4G titles, so I figure this was 5G pushing my brain to max processing capacity.
Today was another hot day at work, and I was getting irritable (I know, I know, dis-empowering beliefs that I should never be uncomfortable, and that outside conditions/events control my moods.) I was just beginning my break, and somebody came up and started talking about something I didn't want to talk about in general, and especially not right then in particular (yeah, yeah, unrealistic expectations that people should be perceptive and sensitive, and everything should be convenient for me.) So I grudgingly had a brief conversation, and then continued on with my break.
The minor irritation that I had to begin with, now morphed into frustration, moved on to anger, resentment, blame, feelings of powerlessness. Control issues cropped up, and I started feeling depressed, and had fleeting thoughts of suicide. Throughout this process I am actually feeling these emotions, and observing the associated thought processes. And then...it was over. The whole event lasted maybe twenty or thirty minutes.
It was hell. And it was awesome! I did say in my first post that I was looking for intensity and overwhelm, and I definitely got it.
It seems obvious that 5G does indeed dig deep. The fact that my subconscious was driven to not just influence me in it's normal way, (i.e. I react with irritation, then I'm just irritated for some length of time until I get over it) but to continue to escalate for no apparent reason, indicates that the status quo of my subconscious is definitely being challenged by 5G. And having all of these thoughts/emotions apparently spring from a sub on self-confidence reinforces my reasoning behind suggesting Core Transformation: that things are connected in the subconscious in labyrinthine ways, and difficult to approach directly.
However, I can see that 5G programs dealing with negative emotions might not be appropriate for use by some people. This is potent technology! Just it's capacity to bring these things to the surface amazes me. My plan is to continue on with ASC, and hope that this sort of experience happens again, preferably when I'm at home. If it does, I'll immediately address it with the PSTEC tracks. Normally you want a memory coupled with the emotion when you use PSTEC, as using it on emotions only may cause physical reactions. (I had the physical reaction with OGSF in 4G, and it was bearable.) But it can be used on emotions alone, and I'm hoping this may be the solution to my quandary.
It seems 5G is really forcing the subconscious to bring its' game. I say, game on!
I'm on day six of ASC. The first five days were pretty uneventful. I did notice that, after listening to the ultrasonic while I slept, I would wake up in the morning feeling like my head was vibrating. I never experienced this with 4G titles, so I figure this was 5G pushing my brain to max processing capacity.
Today was another hot day at work, and I was getting irritable (I know, I know, dis-empowering beliefs that I should never be uncomfortable, and that outside conditions/events control my moods.) I was just beginning my break, and somebody came up and started talking about something I didn't want to talk about in general, and especially not right then in particular (yeah, yeah, unrealistic expectations that people should be perceptive and sensitive, and everything should be convenient for me.) So I grudgingly had a brief conversation, and then continued on with my break.
The minor irritation that I had to begin with, now morphed into frustration, moved on to anger, resentment, blame, feelings of powerlessness. Control issues cropped up, and I started feeling depressed, and had fleeting thoughts of suicide. Throughout this process I am actually feeling these emotions, and observing the associated thought processes. And then...it was over. The whole event lasted maybe twenty or thirty minutes.
It was hell. And it was awesome! I did say in my first post that I was looking for intensity and overwhelm, and I definitely got it.
It seems obvious that 5G does indeed dig deep. The fact that my subconscious was driven to not just influence me in it's normal way, (i.e. I react with irritation, then I'm just irritated for some length of time until I get over it) but to continue to escalate for no apparent reason, indicates that the status quo of my subconscious is definitely being challenged by 5G. And having all of these thoughts/emotions apparently spring from a sub on self-confidence reinforces my reasoning behind suggesting Core Transformation: that things are connected in the subconscious in labyrinthine ways, and difficult to approach directly.
However, I can see that 5G programs dealing with negative emotions might not be appropriate for use by some people. This is potent technology! Just it's capacity to bring these things to the surface amazes me. My plan is to continue on with ASC, and hope that this sort of experience happens again, preferably when I'm at home. If it does, I'll immediately address it with the PSTEC tracks. Normally you want a memory coupled with the emotion when you use PSTEC, as using it on emotions only may cause physical reactions. (I had the physical reaction with OGSF in 4G, and it was bearable.) But it can be used on emotions alone, and I'm hoping this may be the solution to my quandary.
It seems 5G is really forcing the subconscious to bring its' game. I say, game on!
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