11-09-2018, 03:47 AM
Hey man, I think you're stuck in a loop here. I recognize this because I went through the same thing. E2 helps, but when it hits really core fears it's like the undo button on the computer. It all just goes rushing back in. The doubts, the shame, the emotional trauma you thought was cleared, etc. It's bad too because sometimes you think you're better and then one little upset comes along and blows everything up. It's like a small window that opens for all the insecurities to come flooding back in.
I'd actually encourage you to get on USLM3. Even if success isn't your goal, but I think it is. It's very flexible and I think having a solid set of goals would set your mind in the right direction. Think of it this way. E2 is taking the approach of emptying your cup, but it's constantly getting refilled so it's a long battle. USLM3 is stopping that pattern of refilling the cup and instilling new positives. Eventually that's what holds dominance in your mind and the emotional upsets become a thing of the past. I know it's hard to imagine how life long traumas or emotional pain could fade into the background, but they only hold as much power as they are given. That's controversial to most people because we are constantly told we have to experience emotional upsets, go into the pain to heal it, etc. We simply just were not given a better way, but it's there now.
Our minds are habit seeking. Emotional pain could very well be just strong habits built up in our minds. Not something that needs to be "released" so much as having the attention and focus shifted towards what we want.
I've been on USLM3 for 3 days now and I haven't fallen into that ruminating thinking where I'm swallowed up by my emotions. That place, that rumination, is the fear. It gives you an excuse not to keep moving forward. If you're struggling with emotional pain then it's a sort of distraction from doing what you really want to do in your life. I think it would really help you out in this regard too.
I'd actually encourage you to get on USLM3. Even if success isn't your goal, but I think it is. It's very flexible and I think having a solid set of goals would set your mind in the right direction. Think of it this way. E2 is taking the approach of emptying your cup, but it's constantly getting refilled so it's a long battle. USLM3 is stopping that pattern of refilling the cup and instilling new positives. Eventually that's what holds dominance in your mind and the emotional upsets become a thing of the past. I know it's hard to imagine how life long traumas or emotional pain could fade into the background, but they only hold as much power as they are given. That's controversial to most people because we are constantly told we have to experience emotional upsets, go into the pain to heal it, etc. We simply just were not given a better way, but it's there now.
Our minds are habit seeking. Emotional pain could very well be just strong habits built up in our minds. Not something that needs to be "released" so much as having the attention and focus shifted towards what we want.
I've been on USLM3 for 3 days now and I haven't fallen into that ruminating thinking where I'm swallowed up by my emotions. That place, that rumination, is the fear. It gives you an excuse not to keep moving forward. If you're struggling with emotional pain then it's a sort of distraction from doing what you really want to do in your life. I think it would really help you out in this regard too.
INFP
