09-30-2019, 12:57 PM
on my day 3... i got a bit of energy overwhelming and was a bit frustrating.
I was too sexually charged and I wanted to like release all these tensions from masturbation or sex.
option one was much easier of course it was Sunday night lol. but i didnt want to do it. My habit is i either have sex with someone or i masturbate only once or twice a week for physical health reasons so it doesn't build up forever lol.
It was incredibly hard for me to focus on anything else all day which is something i don't like. I managed to push through without watching porn or masturbate after hours of battling with my mind and used that energy to focus more on myself and direct it to a goal in a sense.
Anyways fast forward to today day 4. i don't feel the frustration much anymore. Now the energy is still high but feels more grounded... overall i would say i feel a lot more decent now.
I was too sexually charged and I wanted to like release all these tensions from masturbation or sex.
option one was much easier of course it was Sunday night lol. but i didnt want to do it. My habit is i either have sex with someone or i masturbate only once or twice a week for physical health reasons so it doesn't build up forever lol.
It was incredibly hard for me to focus on anything else all day which is something i don't like. I managed to push through without watching porn or masturbate after hours of battling with my mind and used that energy to focus more on myself and direct it to a goal in a sense.
Anyways fast forward to today day 4. i don't feel the frustration much anymore. Now the energy is still high but feels more grounded... overall i would say i feel a lot more decent now.
I am strong because I've been weak. I am fearless because I've been afraid. I am wise, because I've been foolish.
