03-08-2020, 03:01 PM
(This post was last modified: 03-08-2020, 03:04 PM by EvolvingPhoenix.)
So here's a few things I have found out today, among others:
1) That feeling I had earlier? Yeah, that's all well and good, but then one loses steam real quick. Certain disciplines are needed to control one's energetic field.
2) I have learned about the source of my trauma.
and 3) I am GOING to meet the man who did it. And I have decided what I am going to do about it: When I muster up the courage (and I will need to muster it up to even TALK when I see him) I am going to have to take a cold, hard look at him. And I am going to say: "I love you. I forgive you. Have a nice life"
This will NOT be easy, and it will not be even remotely pleasant. I am NOT looking forward to it, but it MUST be done.
Until then, I am going to have to process what has happened. I will NOT go into detail, because a) I can't remember it and b) It is not something to explain on this site.
But I know what happened. And it was BAD.
Shannon, this is going to take longer than either of us has thought. Probably A LOT longer.
That is all I am going to say. My good mood is gone. I feel terrible. And it's gonna feel A LOT worse to process, and a lot worse when I meet this person.
1) That feeling I had earlier? Yeah, that's all well and good, but then one loses steam real quick. Certain disciplines are needed to control one's energetic field.
2) I have learned about the source of my trauma.
and 3) I am GOING to meet the man who did it. And I have decided what I am going to do about it: When I muster up the courage (and I will need to muster it up to even TALK when I see him) I am going to have to take a cold, hard look at him. And I am going to say: "I love you. I forgive you. Have a nice life"
This will NOT be easy, and it will not be even remotely pleasant. I am NOT looking forward to it, but it MUST be done.
Until then, I am going to have to process what has happened. I will NOT go into detail, because a) I can't remember it and b) It is not something to explain on this site.
But I know what happened. And it was BAD.
Shannon, this is going to take longer than either of us has thought. Probably A LOT longer.
That is all I am going to say. My good mood is gone. I feel terrible. And it's gonna feel A LOT worse to process, and a lot worse when I meet this person.
