03-08-2020, 09:20 AM
(This post was last modified: 03-08-2020, 09:36 AM by EvolvingPhoenix.)
Day 4 of bloom. God, day 4? I am ALWAYS surprised by how little time has gone by!
I am today feeling... immensely powerful. I dunno how to explain it. I'm excited really. Grinning!
I don't know really how to explain it other than that there's this sense I am starting to become aware of some hidden power I have been suppressing this whole time, almost like it NEEDED to be suppressed.
I think I am discovering my Will!
I feel like I am building up and I am on the verge of reaching that point where if I'm not careful, I might explode, not in anger, but as a force!
Best way I can explain it.
Thanks Shannon. Something is changing, and it is getting ready to blow shit up!
And as I become less fearful, the sense that I need to be careful is starting to fall away. I do not know. I am still holding back...
But I am revving up. This is exciting!
Better contact my latest mentor for guidance before things get out of hand.
Still, I got some mundane shit to take care of. Class assignment due Tuesday. Group work. Don't wanna be THAT group member. You know the kind. The slacker. It's just... God. I feel like I could... I dunno.
I feel a bit of worry, as though if I don't get some help, my Will is going to be UNLEASHED upon the planet. I dunno if I or anybody else could handle that.
It's like some sort of giant magical cork is about to pop out of the center of a giant volcano and the whole world is going to get covered in lava.
I can't explain the feeling. It's like something exciting is about to happen fast, and a part of me is scared what. But since I am healing, my fear is so minimal compared to what it used to be, and now it's turning into excitement and anticipation!
It's partially because I am starting to realize that this whole time, the only thing that has stopped me was me, and I'm kinda feeling like that was up until now probably a good thing, for myself and for others. That is the part of me that still feels apprehensive.
There is a counter voice to all this excitement: "Uh-oh"
I am today feeling... immensely powerful. I dunno how to explain it. I'm excited really. Grinning!
I don't know really how to explain it other than that there's this sense I am starting to become aware of some hidden power I have been suppressing this whole time, almost like it NEEDED to be suppressed.
I think I am discovering my Will!
I feel like I am building up and I am on the verge of reaching that point where if I'm not careful, I might explode, not in anger, but as a force!
Best way I can explain it.
Thanks Shannon. Something is changing, and it is getting ready to blow shit up!
And as I become less fearful, the sense that I need to be careful is starting to fall away. I do not know. I am still holding back...
But I am revving up. This is exciting!
Better contact my latest mentor for guidance before things get out of hand.
Still, I got some mundane shit to take care of. Class assignment due Tuesday. Group work. Don't wanna be THAT group member. You know the kind. The slacker. It's just... God. I feel like I could... I dunno.
I feel a bit of worry, as though if I don't get some help, my Will is going to be UNLEASHED upon the planet. I dunno if I or anybody else could handle that.
It's like some sort of giant magical cork is about to pop out of the center of a giant volcano and the whole world is going to get covered in lava.
I can't explain the feeling. It's like something exciting is about to happen fast, and a part of me is scared what. But since I am healing, my fear is so minimal compared to what it used to be, and now it's turning into excitement and anticipation!
It's partially because I am starting to realize that this whole time, the only thing that has stopped me was me, and I'm kinda feeling like that was up until now probably a good thing, for myself and for others. That is the part of me that still feels apprehensive.
There is a counter voice to all this excitement: "Uh-oh"
