Day 5
7 Loops done and during the listening I felt a strange energy realising into my brain that I already experienced in periods of natural altered states before even knowing the existence of this Subliminal World.
A strange sense of serenity arose after the listening time interrupted by anger towards my father, jealousy and something intense that I would define as some kind of masked suffering. Something heavy inside without the conscious intensity that I experienced during times of serious depressions in the past.
Now I'm in a different quiet place, so to speak, which feels like a transition state.
During the day I dropped the plans to go out and test my behaviours and feelings in a big and crowded space.
Self concern & blame don't stick like in the past.
Everytime I experience heavy resistance I reassure myself that's a temporary thing and after the storm I will feel lighter and happier.
Little improvements everyday in different directions, I guess.
7 Loops done and during the listening I felt a strange energy realising into my brain that I already experienced in periods of natural altered states before even knowing the existence of this Subliminal World.
A strange sense of serenity arose after the listening time interrupted by anger towards my father, jealousy and something intense that I would define as some kind of masked suffering. Something heavy inside without the conscious intensity that I experienced during times of serious depressions in the past.
Now I'm in a different quiet place, so to speak, which feels like a transition state.
During the day I dropped the plans to go out and test my behaviours and feelings in a big and crowded space.
Self concern & blame don't stick like in the past.
Everytime I experience heavy resistance I reassure myself that's a temporary thing and after the storm I will feel lighter and happier.
Little improvements everyday in different directions, I guess.
