E2

[surrealapathy]

Thanks for the input on the whole porn thing. So I just realized something today. I needed to take a shower. I have always thought the most logical time to jerk off was right before a shower. So before I take the shower, I tried to watch some porn and jack it. But I realized half way, I wasn't at all turned on. I was just trying to jack off so I can do the "logical" thing and be clean after the shower. I stopped. Well I guess its not something I realized today, kinda always knew. But before I would just keep trying to jack off until I came... However, it just didn't feel right today. The urge to jack off I get when listening to E2 that forces me to stop listening and watch porn is so much stronger and jacking off then actually feels great. I kinda just have to break the cycle. I will not jack off when I need to change clothes or need to take a shower. I will jack off when I feel that actual, real desire to do so. Only jacked off once today, as compared to the 3 times a day for the past week... Idk if its progress or not, but I feel like I'm getting more.. idk the word... aligned with my real desires?... idk