08-16-2016, 10:22 PM
Started this subliminal program almost a week. Noticed a few things.
I kinda don't really talk to my brother but for the first time, I asked him how his day was. It was kinda really weird cuz I would never say something like that to him, but I didn't really think about that. Just saw him and said it.
I get angry at almost everything my mom says. But these few days I felt like I got the choice to either be angry or just let it go. Didn't let go most of the time, but I felt like I had a choice.
I'm nervous around most people and I have a tendency to collapse and tense my body and my voice goes a bit softer and higher. At one point, I think I noticed that my body was uncomfortable and locked up and just opened up my shoulders and relaxed a bit but kinda just fell back into the habit. I will try to focus on that the next time I talk. I don't see people very often, though. I'm taking a gap year, well, hopefully I will go to college next year.
I'm trying to study some stuff on my own, to prepare for college, but hasn't been going so well. I just waste most my time on the internet and just kinda lounging around all day. Didn't do too well in high school.
Gonna try to update this journal as much as possible, but not much goes on in my life so idk
I kinda don't really talk to my brother but for the first time, I asked him how his day was. It was kinda really weird cuz I would never say something like that to him, but I didn't really think about that. Just saw him and said it.
I get angry at almost everything my mom says. But these few days I felt like I got the choice to either be angry or just let it go. Didn't let go most of the time, but I felt like I had a choice.
I'm nervous around most people and I have a tendency to collapse and tense my body and my voice goes a bit softer and higher. At one point, I think I noticed that my body was uncomfortable and locked up and just opened up my shoulders and relaxed a bit but kinda just fell back into the habit. I will try to focus on that the next time I talk. I don't see people very often, though. I'm taking a gap year, well, hopefully I will go to college next year.
I'm trying to study some stuff on my own, to prepare for college, but hasn't been going so well. I just waste most my time on the internet and just kinda lounging around all day. Didn't do too well in high school.
Gonna try to update this journal as much as possible, but not much goes on in my life so idk