02-07-2017, 11:32 AM
I had to interrupt DMSI to use MHS 5G for a few days, which may or may not have affected my latest experiences.
Right before I had to use MHS, I was getting more aggressive, cocky and confident every day. Then that sub switch (and then back again) likely stopped my momentum.
Right now, I'm experiencing deep disinterest in women. I can appreciate they're pretty, I can intellectually conclude they're sexy... but I don't get turned on. Probably another change in taste such as the ones I mentioned before, except this one is all-encompassing. Either that or it's the burnout from changing subs too often, lol.
In social situations I enjoy talking to males a lot more, because that's what's making me grow at this moment. I feel the need to be challenged by other males right now. Not necessarily challenged in the traditional sense - but I seem to evolve better when receiving (and giving) masculine energy.
Overall, it's fairly obvious to me I'm still healing and adapting to my new self. I think I can handle ver. B right now without too much resistance actually, and I'm almost sure that's what it would take for me to become aggressive again, this time with some crazy story to report.
My goal for this sub is healing first, though, so no ver. B for me just yet. Not until 1-2 months of v3.1A.
Right before I had to use MHS, I was getting more aggressive, cocky and confident every day. Then that sub switch (and then back again) likely stopped my momentum.
Right now, I'm experiencing deep disinterest in women. I can appreciate they're pretty, I can intellectually conclude they're sexy... but I don't get turned on. Probably another change in taste such as the ones I mentioned before, except this one is all-encompassing. Either that or it's the burnout from changing subs too often, lol.
In social situations I enjoy talking to males a lot more, because that's what's making me grow at this moment. I feel the need to be challenged by other males right now. Not necessarily challenged in the traditional sense - but I seem to evolve better when receiving (and giving) masculine energy.
Overall, it's fairly obvious to me I'm still healing and adapting to my new self. I think I can handle ver. B right now without too much resistance actually, and I'm almost sure that's what it would take for me to become aggressive again, this time with some crazy story to report.
My goal for this sub is healing first, though, so no ver. B for me just yet. Not until 1-2 months of v3.1A.
