DMSI 5.1 (FRM + DRS v2) Journalings and Musings

[Have at ye]

Man, I've still got PTSD symptomps after the mobbing morons last year. I get flashbacks and intrusive thoughts, and I'm becoming angry/aggressive whenever I think back on them. It's gradually going away, though. Cord cutting helps. Added another great thingy to my energetic stuffies and it's great for this (it's a thing for improving/regaining resillience).

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Had some tremendously wonky dreams today. Some of it FRM-related, some of it cord-cutting related, but also with aspects of DMSIng. Making progress on healing.

Got likes from some serious people on my singing video, apart from family and friends.

Watchning dude-bro's wife's bare bottom is on for Thursday, I'm totally getting seated at the VIP table, ha ha. I've never been to a burlesque show before, should be fun.

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Had a very interesting dream today about that crazy ex of mine. Maybe it was because she's stalked me on LinkedIn, of all places, lewl.

My healing regimen is pretty demanding, especially if used more than once per day, and I'm doing so because I wanna heal faster.

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Got a singing engagement for September/October, an international one to boot, based on my audition recordings.

Whoop-ee!

[4Kingdoms]

Got a singing engagement for September/October, an international one to boot, based on my audition recordings.

Whoop-ee!

Congratulations!! Prepare yourself for international groupies!!

[Have at ye]

Thanks!

You're reading my mind. The plan is: DMSI 6G now, then OSC 6.5G, then depending on the timing some more PRA or back to DMSI 6.(5) G for rehearsals and performances.

My plan could be summed up with the following song (WARINING: it's NSFW ):

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fYZp4yqHT6A

Think Locally, F- Globally by Gogol Bordello

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Man, slept 12+ hours and had dreams most wonky. Wonky sensations are also wonkying it up in the "core trauma" areas (like, all of them at the same time).

Listening to my loops for today. Gonna go watch dude-bro's wife's bubble butt in erotica action today, maybe that'll cheer me up some. ;D

You know, it's kinda difficutlt to be hot'n'bothered when you're constantly relieving stressful situations in yo head, be it consciously or otherwise.

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I must say, dude-bro's wife has a most impressive bottom and knows how to use it. It was fun! I'll be going some more to the burlesque shows, why not.

Also, I believe I must have been executing DMSI because I got really hot in the face, and not just because I had boobies and butts in my face for two hours straight. And one of the ladies in the audience (a most impressive one) gave me a beaming smile an' all that, and then dude-bro told me she's a burlesque dancer as well. I'd love to see that one perform, oh boy.

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What a wonky dream bonanza again.

It's like the program's working me through all my complex trauma at the same time, with some sexual stuff thrown in for good measure, lewl. And these wonky dreams are so convincing I had to wake myself up several times because I was worried I went psycho again and my perception of reality got skewed (it didn't, these were dreams, lewl).

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Had slightly less wonky dreams tonight, but had 'em anyway.

I was feeling depressed all day yesterday. The goth rock show improved my mood some, it was very good. One goth queen from the audience gave me "the look" but none proceeded to seduce me into hot goth lovin', I am disappoint.

I was planning to go to another show tonight, but I think I'll just chill and go do some singing practice instead. I have several events tomorrow anyway.

Re-arranged my energetic stuffies a bit.

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Darn it, as far as the traumatic neurosis nonsense is concerned, I guess there's no other way to go about but straight through it. It's extremely tiresome, but I believe I'm making progress so I'll keep at it.

Apparently, in order to execute DMSI I need to fix it, no other way around it. Oyyy.

I'm feelin' tired and slightly depressed, but better than yesterday. Got some singing practice in. A dude I worked with once intends to give me a call on Monday, I smell a job offer coming.

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Very interesting dreams tonight. Slightly on the wonky side. Lots of interesting insight after I woke up and processed it a bit.

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I had a very nice day, had some cashier hitting on me even (one I don't find attractive, but still) but now I'm tired and depressed and somewhat tearful even.

Gonna have to renew my passport and do some formal stuff to take part in that international project as it's *just* outside the EU (guess where, lewlz). Hopefully the organizers will be fine with the additional hoops.

[4Kingdoms]

Gonna have to renew my passport and do some formal stuff to take part in that international project as it's *just* outside the EU (guess where, lewlz). Hopefully the organizers will be fine with the additional hoops.

When you "go international," someone interrupts you. You can respond like these chaps. https://www.youtube.com/shorts/8QzYXFCnZ_Y