12-14-2018, 03:18 PM
Couple of things from SASRB days.
First, my irritability was high. I'd be fine one second, and then a simple stressor would get me to react with something really smart ass, or pure anger. Now back running loops, that tendency is gone again. I was like that all through prior DMSI runs, and then it disappeared with USLM3.
The other thing was I noticed on prior versions of DMSI, I would come up with hypothetical "reasons" I would tell someone who'd sleep with/seduce a married guy w/ children if I were to actually cheat - to save face, who knows. Justifications, whatever. Now I realize that someone who were to actively try to seduce me would likely be aware of my status, and already have justified it to themselves. Therefore my reasons/story/justifications were actually just things I was reasoning with...myself over. Whether it was me trying to get myself to comply w/ the program instructions, or what, idk, but now it suddenly doesn't matter to me. I don't owe an explanation, b/c it doesn't matter. It's like, well you're clearly ok with it, so...what do my reasons matter?
That being said, still no plans on stepping out.
First, my irritability was high. I'd be fine one second, and then a simple stressor would get me to react with something really smart ass, or pure anger. Now back running loops, that tendency is gone again. I was like that all through prior DMSI runs, and then it disappeared with USLM3.
The other thing was I noticed on prior versions of DMSI, I would come up with hypothetical "reasons" I would tell someone who'd sleep with/seduce a married guy w/ children if I were to actually cheat - to save face, who knows. Justifications, whatever. Now I realize that someone who were to actively try to seduce me would likely be aware of my status, and already have justified it to themselves. Therefore my reasons/story/justifications were actually just things I was reasoning with...myself over. Whether it was me trying to get myself to comply w/ the program instructions, or what, idk, but now it suddenly doesn't matter to me. I don't owe an explanation, b/c it doesn't matter. It's like, well you're clearly ok with it, so...what do my reasons matter?
That being said, still no plans on stepping out.
