DMSI 3.2b/a - dissonance

[dissonance]

So past 2-3 days I've been much more self aware of my self. Been messaging girls on different apps, and my message style is soooo much less needy than before. Also, for the first time ever since I started working at my current job (1.5 years), i subtly flirted with a co-worker through touch. This cute columbian girl (codename Alej) gave me some physical contact and i gave it to her back with a shoulder touch when saying thank you. NEVER was i even close to being confident to do that yet during work. But that time, it was like an almost irresistable pull for me to do it, because we were standing pretty close in proximity, a few inches, and i could feel my intense sexual desire for her. Also, interactions with another different coworker (codename Mich)have been really good and I've been able to be much more comfortable in my own shoes.

Also, I've been getting more "likes" on my online dating app.

I'm seriously so glad and excited DMSI 3.2 is finally out. This one seems powerful.

[dissonance]

Also, my mindset is now that of "I truly believe I am a sexy mofo who can and will attract the girls that I want" Whereas before I did not truly believe it. Now I do. What the fuck is going on Shannon? I never imagined Inception would become a real thing!

[dissonance]

I just got three new tinder likes within the past day so far. And now I'm messaging one.


Me: Hey Hoe . What are you lookin for thru this app? **[Her name is Chloe and her tinder profile says "the C and L are silent" so I played with it]
her: just some fun i guess lol
me: "just some fun i guess lol"
me: just say it
her: I'm dtf
me: you want my hard aching cock inside you while i grasp your tits with one hand and massage your clit with the other lettin you hear my soft moans up close into your ears.
me: somethin along those lines
her: oh my god yes

[dissonance]

My not give a fuck about what other people think is surprisingly at an all-time high, peaking in the past 2-3 days. I don't feel inferior to the coworkers who intimidated me in the past. On the contrary, it seems like they've noticed my change in attitude and that my true self has returned (when I first started working this job, I was doin alright in my confidence etc; but then i went downhill when i started gaming again). This is all from version B obviously and I'm guessing from the TID after Shannon decided only B would be released first.

I wonder at what point is healing & clearing enough to allow the B-version to ram through any resistance and cause you to face those fears and let go of them faster than healing the root cause of that fear is.

On a side note, I'm actually seriously considering paying an escort for a session or a FBM session (for a few reasons) which I've never would have SERIOUSLY considered doing. But now I am. Interesting.

[dissonance]

So, as I was sitting on the toilet tonight, I was pondering what the reason 3.2B is causing such big changes and progress. I came to the thought of what if that technology that pulls the you from the future into the you in the now, is causing more "healing" than the simple healing and clearing modules could? Like for example, healing and clearing is going to the root of your current negative beliefs and healing/clearing them. But, what if your reality is that of where you are actually sexually irresistible and have an abundant sex life that is ideal to you? Would you still have those negative beliefs? Probably not, right? So what if healing and clearing is actually not needed, and the pulling of the psyche of the future self into the now is like a time machine for your subconscious, and overrides any clearing and healing? (Or any other super crazy tech that is more effective in transforming the mind/ego/subconscious than clearing and healing)

It was hard to put what I was trying to contemplate into words. Also, I could be wrong, and maybe when DMSI 3.2A comes out, results will be even better? I have no idea, but if my thoughts explained above could be a helpful analysis, then I'll put it here for Shannon and all to think about.

Shannon, what are your thoughts?

[dissonance]

I was socializing at work and insanely comfortable in my own shoes. I felt like my old personality and free-ness was back. There's this cute hostess who works here, and i walked over and said "how much would you pay me for a chair?" (they have to stand the entire shift). I never NEVER would have said that before. I was also much less inhibited in my mannerisms and tone of voice and etc today with every one of my co-workers, including the manager.

It's as if there was more healing done in the past 3 days than the entire 3.1a

What if 3.1a's hearing and clearing is like trying to fly from Earth to Jupiter via normal spacecraft and barraging through meteor fields and stuff, but 3.2b's tech is like taking a wormhole from Earth straight to Jupiter?

[dissonance]

Had little responses from tinder matches, and lots of unattractive tinder likes (i have tinder gold). Maybe this somehow lowered my self-esteem, because my vibe was all fucked up today. I wasn't dominant and alpha-like and my mood was lower.

What if there's a way for future versions where any failures or shortcomings in achieving the goal or achieving what you want in general, will not lower your self-image? Like maybe the tech where your future self that is already successful in the goal pulled in to the now; have a statement or something that makes it so that failure or shortcomings dont bring you down.

Also, Chloe from the earlier post, ended up going silent. There is another girl who i think may be potential for a hookup but we'll see.

[dissonance]

Had some intense sexting with this girl from tinder today, a little 18 year old minx. She says she wants to meet next weekend and have sex all weekend and not leave the house, and that she will do ANYTHING want in bed. But i told her i cant host cuz i have no privacy here. So she said we can use her dorm cuz her roommate is usually out all day. Let's see what happens.

[dissonance]

The only thing that is holding me back from being utterly and one-hundred-fucking percent down to go through with it is the fear of ejaculating prematurely, and embarrassing myself. But I guess I can deal with that by telling her to make me cum with her tongue and mouth first, right? I've only had sex once in my life so far and that was october 2017, so this is the main issue. Plus I'm on no-fap, so I'm gonna be ALL PUMPED AND READY to explode I'm sure you know what I mean.

From you guys' experience, once you cum the first "round" can you last much longer and longer every consecutive round of sex for that day?

[Jake2015]

Yes after the first cum you can and usually do last longer with the 2nd, whether youre with a female or whether youre fapping.

The key to stopping yourself when with a female is what I do which I dont try to do but I do is focus on her and her needs rather than focusing on cumming.

Many times im just watching the female try to make me cum and im looking at her objectively rather than thinking wow I should cum lol When i then imagine myself cumming the way I do when i fap then I come.

its more psychological than physical so just relax and dont worry if you cum fast or not, cos most girls will wait for you to get ready for round 2 for you and 1 for her lol

[dissonance]

Someone PMed me asking a question, so I thought i'd post part of the answer here:



Initial convo with with 18 yr old minx from tinder:

Me: You're a sexy little minx aren't you?
Minx: haha thanks ur not so bad urself
Me: Much appreciated so what you studyin at ____?'
Minx: kinesiology
Me: sounds interesting. down to kick it sometime and show me how much of a naughty little minx you are?
Minx: wanna tell me what we'd do
Me: first i'd savor every inch of your tight little body with my lips tongue and hands. Then when you're lying there squirming and begging for my hard aching cock, i'd slide it nice and slow into your tight dripping wet pussy.
Me: Afterwards, I'd let you feel me inside you from behind while grasping your tits with one hand and massaging your clit with the other, lettin you feel my lips on your neck and hear me whisper up close into your ears, "Say fuck me, daddy."
Minx: oh my god more more
Me: Tell me what you'd do if you caught me alone and naked and playing with myself
Minx: ur talking about my dream situation here
Minx: i come in and see a huge fucking jock stud sitting there playing w himself
Minx: and it's u
Minx: and holy shit u r the hottest guy i've ever seen
Minx: so i just start licking ur body
Minx: i start licking ur chest and ur huge biceps
Minx: until i get down to ur hard cock
Minx: and i just take that full thing in my mouth
Minx: and u grab my hair and start face fucking me as hard as u can
Minx: and i'm tearing up bc ur so fucking big
Minx: i'm choking u rip ur cock out of ur mouth and shove it straight into my ass
Minx: and i'm just screaming so loud bc there's no lube and it hurts so bad
Minx: u shove ur entire length into my virgin pussy
Minx: and ur not wearing a condom so i can feel u raw
Minx: and u just fuck me so hard as i scream and scream bc i want u to stop it hurts so bad
Minx: but im here to please u and do anything that u want
Minx: and u cum right inside of me and we go as many times as u want
Minx: and do everything that u want
Minx: and u fuck me as hard as u can
Minx: how does that sound


(much more; too much to type out and post here)
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Before she went off with that detailed little "story" she was responding slow, like hours between messages, but when she read my big block of sext, she gave me that suspenseful message-by-message story lol it was such a turn on.

[dissonance]

I can't wait to see what the sexual performance modules do. How have you guys' experience with it so far? What changes do you see in your sex?

[AlphaScorpio]

Fuck yeah dude minx ftw

[dissonance]

Lol yep. I'm a scorpio too btw. Cheers