04-21-2018, 12:00 PM
Accidentally broke my cycle because of my fatigue. The fatigue is mostly from a new "forced" job (more like forced labor. that I recently started. (Not voluntary at all. I literally mean "forced")
Since I have this "forced" job (5 days a week), I am now even more restricted in finding and going potentially good social venues.
Well, I had a slightest hope that this job may turn out to be a great social venue, but after a week of work, I very soon realized that I better look somewhere. The only thing that may work would be such that some hot and lonely foreign girl walks in for some paperwork related issues. Unfortunately, I heard that no foreigner walks into the office. (That record actually broke last Friday, as a Filipino guy walked in to send a fax, and I happened to be the only one who could speak English. So who knows, maybe a hot and lonely, and perhaps desperate to speaking English girl will show up, and maybe it will become something very interesting.)
Otherwise, I need to work very very hard in finding a good venue for the weekend, but I highly doubt there are good social venues that are accessible at the moment. With my current situation and with my current title, my choice would work extremely highly against me.
The funny feeling is this. Now that I think about it, it feels that situation and environment has almost always been against me in terms of getting a girl. Right now, it isn't changed. (It could still be that I am perceiving this a bit strongly, but I can assure that the situation and environment has not been friendly.)
I am tied to this forced job until April 8th 2020. At least the good news is that, this shackle that has been affecting me for at least 6~7 years will be gone by then.
I feel that I'm still not complete in getting the girls I want. I know that I still have things to improve. Yet, I also have a feeling that no matter what I do, or how much I try. It's not going to work until that cursed job under the title of "obligation" will be gone, no matter what I do. And this is annoying.
Is DMSI really strong enough to overcome these? I believe that this version of DMSI is the most promises and most impacts. Yet, I still don't think it's strong enough to overcome these, as it feels that I also need much of manifestation. Unfortunately, I haven't seen much of manifestation (except that one girl and her friend at a restaurant/bar when I was back in school in the US.).
I really am not enjoying this situation. So much time is going to be lost and wasted, at least in terms of girl issues.
Since I have this "forced" job (5 days a week), I am now even more restricted in finding and going potentially good social venues.
Well, I had a slightest hope that this job may turn out to be a great social venue, but after a week of work, I very soon realized that I better look somewhere. The only thing that may work would be such that some hot and lonely foreign girl walks in for some paperwork related issues. Unfortunately, I heard that no foreigner walks into the office. (That record actually broke last Friday, as a Filipino guy walked in to send a fax, and I happened to be the only one who could speak English. So who knows, maybe a hot and lonely, and perhaps desperate to speaking English girl will show up, and maybe it will become something very interesting.)
Otherwise, I need to work very very hard in finding a good venue for the weekend, but I highly doubt there are good social venues that are accessible at the moment. With my current situation and with my current title, my choice would work extremely highly against me.
The funny feeling is this. Now that I think about it, it feels that situation and environment has almost always been against me in terms of getting a girl. Right now, it isn't changed. (It could still be that I am perceiving this a bit strongly, but I can assure that the situation and environment has not been friendly.)
I am tied to this forced job until April 8th 2020. At least the good news is that, this shackle that has been affecting me for at least 6~7 years will be gone by then.
I feel that I'm still not complete in getting the girls I want. I know that I still have things to improve. Yet, I also have a feeling that no matter what I do, or how much I try. It's not going to work until that cursed job under the title of "obligation" will be gone, no matter what I do. And this is annoying.
Is DMSI really strong enough to overcome these? I believe that this version of DMSI is the most promises and most impacts. Yet, I still don't think it's strong enough to overcome these, as it feels that I also need much of manifestation. Unfortunately, I haven't seen much of manifestation (except that one girl and her friend at a restaurant/bar when I was back in school in the US.).
I really am not enjoying this situation. So much time is going to be lost and wasted, at least in terms of girl issues.
