DMSI 3.1 and MLS exploration - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood

[Shannon]

I figured the answer would be along those lines.

I guess the bottom line is, I'll have to see it in action in person, when/if that happens. I was always wondering how me listening to a sub, makes a girl I'm attracted to approach me for sex. I guess I fail to see how those dots get connected, from me listening to a sub and checking her out or already being attracted to her, to her somehow making a move due to the same sub.

In time if it works, it won't matter, indeed. But, I was always unsure how that all works, which probably made it harder to get behind.

Why not just relax then? Being skeptical because you don't have all the dots to connect and making it harder to get behind is just another way to make it harder for yourself to get the results. If DMSI works, you don't need to be invested in believing it will or does work, just like you don't need to be invested in trying to defeat it if it doesn't work.

Just be neutral, and let the program do its thing. You don't need to do anything else with regards to the program itself.

We don't always have all the answers to see how or why something works. That doesn't make it work less when it does, or more when it doesn't.

Oh I get that concept.

I've probably been acutely sensitive to why things won't work with women and more focused on that, due to the past and beliefs formed from it. Never mind the decades of different crap I've tried over the years, further clouding things. So certainty seems to be important, or doubt is created, or doubt is the natural state due to the past and beliefs formed through it, I don't know.

I am far better at being detached than versions ago, that's for sure. Although, as I've said in my journal, I don't know if that's the sub making me less needy etc. or if it's a sense of brewing futility. I guess it may take actually seeing a girl give me a clear real signal this is legit working, to truly open up to it once and for all. Anything less will just allow that doubt to fester again due to everything up to this. That will probably be a few versions away if even then, I've already accepted I will be one of the last to see the program work in reality.

Based on what went into ASS/ART in 3.1, I would say the detachment is a sign that it is working for you, but what it is working on is a huge task and it will take time. Appreciate the (what must seem to you like) small gains and we will keep going.

[eternity]

I'm having a resistance headache right now.... so I'm gonna try to write and ramble as much as I can to see if it releases the resistance.

I did a full body massage for her and showed her where all the chakra's are on her body...

She said she has heart chakra and sacral chakra activity quite often. Sacral chakra activity happens when I'm talking to her, especially more so when I do so in a particular tone of voice.

y'know.. i don't have a pull to eat healthy like i did during 3.0. I just want to eat anything and everything. it'll only be a matter of time before it catches up to me. I better do something about that.

I'm feeling reduced motivation and increased laziness lately. At times, I get completely repulsed by the idea of working out or doing anything physical. I have a feeling this is pretty hefty resistance of the "no! I DON'T WANNA! AND YOU CAN'T MAKE ME! SO I'MA SIT HERE AND DO NOTHING!" variety of resistance. Possibly resistance to the US programming, which would make sense since I resisted BASE pretty damn heavily too.

My little sister also didn't want to spend the night out of town this next saturday, so instead of having an overnight out of town trip with the beautiful woman friend of mine (and her two kids), it's just going to be a day trip. Which I guess is all fine and dandy because the chance of my friend and I hooking up with 3 kids in the same hotel room would have been near impossible XD. But it's okay. BTW I don't know if there was a logistics module in this version, but if there was, this could have been a (half ass) success of the logistics module because she made ALL the plans for our trip. All she said was to come out there, and split the cost with her. I called it halfassed because idk why she would have picked a weekend where her kids were with her too. Unless she was trying to give plausible deniability that "nothing will happen between us" because she's got a boyfriend. And for the record, I don't give 2 shits about this boyfriend, nor her relationship with him because a) I don't know who he is and b) he's in califuqqinfornia

I can't think of what else to write.. but the headache still hasn't passed. and it's pretty painful to try to think of things to write while i have this headache and staring at a comp screen... so i'm going to bed now, and i'm not going to listen to the loops tonight. hopefully this headache passes. I'll listen to my loops tomorrow morning;.

[eternity]

i forgot my tablet at home -_- it's the device i usually use for subs. So I had to download 3.1A on my phone today. I then added 3.1a twice to a new playlist. I played the playlist. Found out that 40 min later, the playback stopped for some reason. So I tried it again... When I looked an hour later, the playback was stopped again......

I try this two more times until I realized that only 12 minutes of version A was downloaded on my phone. So I had been raping myself by listening to the first 12 minutes a total of 8 FREAKING TIMES. I was so pissed. if I wasn't walking outside in public, I might have thrown my phone far away.

After lunch, I downloaded the 3.1 to my work computer, and made a playlist of 2 loops. I've listened to the first 12 minutes of 3.1A 9 times already. LOL. But this time I'll aat least get the rest of the subliminal input too >_>

The universe seemed to have conspired against me today.

y u gotta do htis dimsee? -_-

Am i fuqqed?

[Shannon]

Just fix it and keep going. That's the best you can do. But you need full loops. This will of course create some disruption, but nothing you can do about it now.

[eternity]

I survived both loops XD

I used ultrasonic on speakers at moderate volume instead of super low on hybrid as I usually do.

I think I might have broken through some resistance I'd been experiencing over the past 18 hours. Not sure if I can pin point what was accomplished or cleared but it just feels like something has changed.

I'm surprised it's already been 20 days on 3.1. Time seems to have flown really freaking fast. Things are starting to shift...... I am planning to meet a member of this forum on Wednesday night. That will be cool to see how 2 people running dimsee would affect each other

[kalmah0804]

You're both going to get sloppy xD

[eternity]

Hahaha we shall see. Gotta figure out where we are gonna go hang out. Maybe go to the mall or something and see if we affect the hotties hahaha

[kalmah0804]

Expecting to see this on TV after you've made all those girls wet

[eternity]

I'm having feelings of insecurity crop up

I don't know what it is but it feels really shitty. Futility and hopelessness. This would be the first time I feel this on 3.1....

Sigh. Hoping it passes soon.

[CatMan]

I'm having feelings of insecurity crop up

I don't know what it is but it feels really shitty. Futility and hopelessness. This would be the first time I feel this on 3.1....

Sigh. Hoping it passes soon.

Man, I know that feeling...trust me.

Hope your storm passes soon for you.

[eternity]

Yeah carman, I know it will get better. It usually does. I just talked with my sister about the crazy experience in India and it made me appreciate that what I am feeling now is nothing compared to what I experienced over there O_O

I have an urge to either blast my loops tomorrow or take a break for a few days. Can't tell which one would be better. I definitely want to experiment somehow. It's probably self sabotage speaking tho.

[kalmah0804]

Yeah carman, I know it will get better. It usually does. I just talked with my sister about the crazy experience in India and it made me appreciate that what I am feeling now is nothing compared to what I experienced over there O_O

I have an urge to either blast my loops tomorrow or take a break for a few days. Can't tell which one would be better. I definitely want to experiment somehow. It's probably self sabotage speaking tho.

Plz no. Plz :'(

[eternity]

I can't stand the exhaustion. It's been hell for me. Ended up taking stimulants 3 times over the past 7 days, despite 3.0 having taught me well that I didn't need stims.

I really am considering taking a break from running the sub, and just starting B on day 31. I technically would have run A until that day because of p5, right?

[Raz]

It's really astounding how different the reactions of different people are with this sub. 3.01 was absolutely draining for me, completely like you describe it for 3.1. This version on the other hand is really tame in that regard for me and the last two days I had something like an energy boost.

The level of volume made all the difference for me. Maybe your exhaustion now is still an after effect or recovery from your messed up exposure the other day?