12-30-2016, 08:21 PM
Day 29
Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQcQDbpDH_o
Before I get into my post, I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy, Healthy, and Safe New Year! I wish everyone a successful and prosperous 2017.
2016 had many, many ups and downs for me, however, one of the highlights of this year was discovering DMSI and being a small contributing member of this community. Thank You to everyone for that.
A lot has happened over the past 11 days.
First, I am still using version A, however over the last few days I switched from the hybrid to the regular TS track. I found late last week that my hearing was becoming extremely sensitive and I was beginning to develop pains around my right ear. I switched over to the regular TS track, and after a few days, my ear and hearing felt more normal.
As a side note, the regular TS version's shielding is much more effective. I've also been much more tired in the past few days. I can only assume this is because I am using a less powerful version, hence the healing is happening slower than it would on the hybrid. But, it is still better shielded from my conscience. I don't feel as emotionally yo-yo'd as I did with the hybrid.
Speaking of A, I decided that I am going to stay exclusively with A. I have no desire or interest in switching back to B. This is the first version of DMSI where I can say that I really appreciate the healing aspects. That, and I realized that the A version has all of the same features as the B version, with a healing component added on. It's like asking what you prefer more, a half glass of water or a full glass. Which is more likely to quench your thirst?
I've also come to terms with a lot of things in my life. Over the past week I heard back from the girl I wrote about in my previous journal. She had replied to my last e-mail. I didn't read her reply, instead I just deleted it. I said what I had to say, I closed that chapter. I wasn't going to look back. That felt really good. It felt liberating. Most importantly, it felt right. That was a relationship that I should have buried a long time ago, and yet I never could. Even though I always felt it was wrong.
I couldn't, primarily because of the fact that she looked so much like my old girl. But this past week I came to terms with the fact that my old girl has been dead for 23 years now. And this girl, no matter how much she looked like her, wasn't her.
By finally finishing that off, I not only ended a toxic relationship, but I also finally let go of my past as well. Since, after some time, the two women became intertwined in my own mind.
I also realized after trying to reach out to my friend, and not hearing back from him, it wasn't worth it. That's another relationship that I knew wasn't really good for me in the long term. Holding onto something just because we grew up together as kids stopped making sense to me. Misplaced loyalties are just that, misplaced.
I've had some pretty amazing successes this past week also. The startup that I am a part of, just closed 800k in seed funding. That was a huge step forward for us.
I have also been invited to join a Board of Advisors for another company that is currently building a new management consulting practice around risk for fortune 500 companies. That's actually something fun.
I have a few other projects rearing up also, so 2017 seems to be a big year already. And a more focused year for me as well.
In terms of women, that's been interesting as well. I literally have zero interest in them these days apart from the few women that I enjoy socially. But, again, I enjoy them now simply for the social aspect.
Truth be told, I just have no interest in adding another notch in my lay chart. I've lived long enough and slept with enough women in my life, where I don't feel like I missed anything out in that area.
These days, shockingly enough, I've been thinking that before I get into something with a woman, I'd prefer it to be something steady. Not so much a girlfriend, but, maybe something in line with companionship.
Last night I had drinks with the friend who I last saw while I was still testing DMSI V1. And the last time I saw her we had a really emotionally charged night. Last night we had dinner and some wine, and we just enjoyed each others company.
She's one of the few women that I know who is an only child, much like myself, so she understands me in a way that most of the women that I had dated in the past don't. And I found that I enjoyed that about our interactions.
I'm sure at some point in the near future, she and I will become intimately involved. I have no doubt about that. It's inevitable. But, I am enjoying the journey more than the destination.
I also had gotten together with a group of friends tonight as well, to celebrate the new year preemptively, and one of the girls in our group has always been really feisty with me. She basically shit tests me all the time. In the past it would have gotten to the point where I would actually get annoyed and pissed. Today, I just went with it because I actually found it funny and I didn't care. At one point though I did ask her, in front of the group, why she loves to hate me so much.
Her answer actually really surprised me. She said she only acts that way with me because she's totally comfortable with me. She doesn't usually talk to people and is generally pretty guarded with everyone else. She then said, now you learned something about me.
I realized how much I liked her in that moment. She teases in a really goofy way, but, again, I would always take it seriously. When she said what she did in front of the entire group of us, I think everyone at the table was surprised.
And then for the rest of the night, the two of us bantered with each other. Primarily because I just let go and had a good time, and neither of us took what the other said seriously.
But, it was the fact that she felt comfortable, which made me realize how effective DMSI really is.
I think if you want a girl to let go and give you everything she has, she has to first feel comfortable around you. She has to feel safe.
It was clear that she feels safe with me. That was actually really cool.
On a final note, I don't really pay attention to IOI's or anything else these days. Truth be told, I approach DMSI with a set it and forget it attitude.
Since I have let go of any outcomes, the entire journey has just become much more fun and enjoyable.
I'm looking forward to seeing DMSI's full potential throughout 2017.
Until next year...
Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQcQDbpDH_o
Before I get into my post, I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy, Healthy, and Safe New Year! I wish everyone a successful and prosperous 2017.
2016 had many, many ups and downs for me, however, one of the highlights of this year was discovering DMSI and being a small contributing member of this community. Thank You to everyone for that.
A lot has happened over the past 11 days.
First, I am still using version A, however over the last few days I switched from the hybrid to the regular TS track. I found late last week that my hearing was becoming extremely sensitive and I was beginning to develop pains around my right ear. I switched over to the regular TS track, and after a few days, my ear and hearing felt more normal.
As a side note, the regular TS version's shielding is much more effective. I've also been much more tired in the past few days. I can only assume this is because I am using a less powerful version, hence the healing is happening slower than it would on the hybrid. But, it is still better shielded from my conscience. I don't feel as emotionally yo-yo'd as I did with the hybrid.
Speaking of A, I decided that I am going to stay exclusively with A. I have no desire or interest in switching back to B. This is the first version of DMSI where I can say that I really appreciate the healing aspects. That, and I realized that the A version has all of the same features as the B version, with a healing component added on. It's like asking what you prefer more, a half glass of water or a full glass. Which is more likely to quench your thirst?
I've also come to terms with a lot of things in my life. Over the past week I heard back from the girl I wrote about in my previous journal. She had replied to my last e-mail. I didn't read her reply, instead I just deleted it. I said what I had to say, I closed that chapter. I wasn't going to look back. That felt really good. It felt liberating. Most importantly, it felt right. That was a relationship that I should have buried a long time ago, and yet I never could. Even though I always felt it was wrong.
I couldn't, primarily because of the fact that she looked so much like my old girl. But this past week I came to terms with the fact that my old girl has been dead for 23 years now. And this girl, no matter how much she looked like her, wasn't her.
By finally finishing that off, I not only ended a toxic relationship, but I also finally let go of my past as well. Since, after some time, the two women became intertwined in my own mind.
I also realized after trying to reach out to my friend, and not hearing back from him, it wasn't worth it. That's another relationship that I knew wasn't really good for me in the long term. Holding onto something just because we grew up together as kids stopped making sense to me. Misplaced loyalties are just that, misplaced.
I've had some pretty amazing successes this past week also. The startup that I am a part of, just closed 800k in seed funding. That was a huge step forward for us.
I have also been invited to join a Board of Advisors for another company that is currently building a new management consulting practice around risk for fortune 500 companies. That's actually something fun.
I have a few other projects rearing up also, so 2017 seems to be a big year already. And a more focused year for me as well.
In terms of women, that's been interesting as well. I literally have zero interest in them these days apart from the few women that I enjoy socially. But, again, I enjoy them now simply for the social aspect.
Truth be told, I just have no interest in adding another notch in my lay chart. I've lived long enough and slept with enough women in my life, where I don't feel like I missed anything out in that area.
These days, shockingly enough, I've been thinking that before I get into something with a woman, I'd prefer it to be something steady. Not so much a girlfriend, but, maybe something in line with companionship.
Last night I had drinks with the friend who I last saw while I was still testing DMSI V1. And the last time I saw her we had a really emotionally charged night. Last night we had dinner and some wine, and we just enjoyed each others company.
She's one of the few women that I know who is an only child, much like myself, so she understands me in a way that most of the women that I had dated in the past don't. And I found that I enjoyed that about our interactions.
I'm sure at some point in the near future, she and I will become intimately involved. I have no doubt about that. It's inevitable. But, I am enjoying the journey more than the destination.
I also had gotten together with a group of friends tonight as well, to celebrate the new year preemptively, and one of the girls in our group has always been really feisty with me. She basically shit tests me all the time. In the past it would have gotten to the point where I would actually get annoyed and pissed. Today, I just went with it because I actually found it funny and I didn't care. At one point though I did ask her, in front of the group, why she loves to hate me so much.
Her answer actually really surprised me. She said she only acts that way with me because she's totally comfortable with me. She doesn't usually talk to people and is generally pretty guarded with everyone else. She then said, now you learned something about me.
I realized how much I liked her in that moment. She teases in a really goofy way, but, again, I would always take it seriously. When she said what she did in front of the entire group of us, I think everyone at the table was surprised.
And then for the rest of the night, the two of us bantered with each other. Primarily because I just let go and had a good time, and neither of us took what the other said seriously.
But, it was the fact that she felt comfortable, which made me realize how effective DMSI really is.
I think if you want a girl to let go and give you everything she has, she has to first feel comfortable around you. She has to feel safe.
It was clear that she feels safe with me. That was actually really cool.
On a final note, I don't really pay attention to IOI's or anything else these days. Truth be told, I approach DMSI with a set it and forget it attitude.
Since I have let go of any outcomes, the entire journey has just become much more fun and enjoyable.
I'm looking forward to seeing DMSI's full potential throughout 2017.
Until next year...
