12-08-2016, 09:00 AM
Day 7
Currently listening to: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dQLngV189IU
I have this sudden rage. I don't even know what the fuck I'm angry about, which is only making me angrier. And yet, i can't feel my anger. I literally cannot feel it because of the masking effect. But it's there, boiling under the surface. And every time I want to glimpse it, it just gets masked deeper.
On the one hand I appreciate what the masking is doing for me, on the other hand I feel like all that rage is fighting a futile battle, because I can't even fully feel it.
I don't know whether I should appreciate it or be angrier. I feel fucked up. God dammit.
Currently listening to: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dQLngV189IU
I have this sudden rage. I don't even know what the fuck I'm angry about, which is only making me angrier. And yet, i can't feel my anger. I literally cannot feel it because of the masking effect. But it's there, boiling under the surface. And every time I want to glimpse it, it just gets masked deeper.
On the one hand I appreciate what the masking is doing for me, on the other hand I feel like all that rage is fighting a futile battle, because I can't even fully feel it.
I don't know whether I should appreciate it or be angrier. I feel fucked up. God dammit.
