12-03-2016, 01:35 PM
Day 2
Breathing to: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=5soixb2U6xM
I did my first loops on Thursday night. Hybrid TS MP3 for two loops on headphones.
I was out cold within the first 15 minutes. I had that heavy feeling in my head, and I could feel my state shift, before I had one of the deepest sleeps I've had in a long time.
Friday I went about my day, I woke up with enough energy and I figured that the two loops wasn't so bad. Until about 3PM, when I got hit with a freight train of exhaustion and I was ready to fall asleep under my desk.
In terms of reactions, I definitely noticed women checking me out in a very blatant way. That was different than most other versions of DMSI, in that I am usually ghosted for the first few days.
In terms of work, they have asked me to stay until the end of January and I agreed. I had resigned while I was on 2.5. One day of 3.0.1 and I am staying for an extra month.
On the train ride home I caught eyes several times with an attractive woman. She was with someone and so I made no move. What was interesting about her is that while she was very attractive, she wasn't the kind of woman I would typically go for. But, I had a desire for her. Not an overpowering desire, but definitely something.
Last night I ran the recommended 3 loops. I was out 15 minutes into the first loop again.
I slept really well, and I had an interesting dream. In the dream, I had a few friends that were leaving. They were moving away and I knew I wouldn't see them again. I was probably in my early 20's in the dream. I remember the age because of the way I felt and the way I behaved. Anyway, when they left, I watched them drive away and I felt this intense loneliness.
I was much more sensitive in my 20's. I felt more back then. I was also much more idealistic at that time. And I valued friendship in a different way back then also.
When I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized the stark contrast of my outlook on life now compared to when I was in my early 20's. I don't know when those feelings changed within me. But it was so obvious to me today how different I am now.
For the last two days also I can tell that the healing is working at a rapid pace. Simply based on how I am looking at things.
Also, both yesterday and again today, I would have bouts of extreme exhaustion. Not good for when I need to function and get things done. I need some time to adjust to the sub.
I haven't been as hungry as of late though. That's a good thing.
On a final note. I noticed this towards the last days that I was off of 2.5 and even more pronounced as I started 3.0.1, but I look different. My face has changed some how. I look more concrete in a way. Not literally of course, but I look more solid, together, complete maybe.
Something is definitely happening...
Breathing to: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=5soixb2U6xM
I did my first loops on Thursday night. Hybrid TS MP3 for two loops on headphones.
I was out cold within the first 15 minutes. I had that heavy feeling in my head, and I could feel my state shift, before I had one of the deepest sleeps I've had in a long time.
Friday I went about my day, I woke up with enough energy and I figured that the two loops wasn't so bad. Until about 3PM, when I got hit with a freight train of exhaustion and I was ready to fall asleep under my desk.
In terms of reactions, I definitely noticed women checking me out in a very blatant way. That was different than most other versions of DMSI, in that I am usually ghosted for the first few days.
In terms of work, they have asked me to stay until the end of January and I agreed. I had resigned while I was on 2.5. One day of 3.0.1 and I am staying for an extra month.
On the train ride home I caught eyes several times with an attractive woman. She was with someone and so I made no move. What was interesting about her is that while she was very attractive, she wasn't the kind of woman I would typically go for. But, I had a desire for her. Not an overpowering desire, but definitely something.
Last night I ran the recommended 3 loops. I was out 15 minutes into the first loop again.
I slept really well, and I had an interesting dream. In the dream, I had a few friends that were leaving. They were moving away and I knew I wouldn't see them again. I was probably in my early 20's in the dream. I remember the age because of the way I felt and the way I behaved. Anyway, when they left, I watched them drive away and I felt this intense loneliness.
I was much more sensitive in my 20's. I felt more back then. I was also much more idealistic at that time. And I valued friendship in a different way back then also.
When I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized the stark contrast of my outlook on life now compared to when I was in my early 20's. I don't know when those feelings changed within me. But it was so obvious to me today how different I am now.
For the last two days also I can tell that the healing is working at a rapid pace. Simply based on how I am looking at things.
Also, both yesterday and again today, I would have bouts of extreme exhaustion. Not good for when I need to function and get things done. I need some time to adjust to the sub.
I haven't been as hungry as of late though. That's a good thing.
On a final note. I noticed this towards the last days that I was off of 2.5 and even more pronounced as I started 3.0.1, but I look different. My face has changed some how. I look more concrete in a way. Not literally of course, but I look more solid, together, complete maybe.
Something is definitely happening...
