07-10-2013, 09:58 AM
FACT: Real Men keep Journals. Not Diaries. JOURNALS.
I'm gonna start by stating my current state so as I have a Normal Reading so to speak to measure relative change against.
6"2, Male, Mixed black-white, avg face, short hair, broad shoulders and long legs.
This is me.
Im 19 and i am at medical school.
My reasons for starting AM are probably around my sense of self, I would consider myself a moderate alpha and having played in the school rugby team i was around many fine specimens. the problems arise because I feed of peoples positive energy towards me. So if i have a lot of energy and people are positive towards me then its all good.However i want to have that come from within, This centreing of ego/self-validation has been a huge theme in many journals and this excites me.
I also fear emotional intimacy like the damn plague. So I can be pretty fucking indifferent to chicks.
I often ignore girls who are attracted because i fear success
Pulling the trigger can be a problem (not used to it w/o alcohol. which i have reduced ALOT)
Goals:
-Rock steady self-confidence from within
-Refine my anger response. Instead of passive aggressively taking it then losing my shit.
-independance
-Decisive
-Motivation
-Study like a boss (exams are hard )
Of course lots of chicks. But that is not the primary aim here.
-Need a stable foundation for my future career and business plans (Hello BAMM ahha)
Aiming for Ryan gosling/Idris Elba vibe (+ Ron swansons woodworking skills)
Leroy
I'm gonna start by stating my current state so as I have a Normal Reading so to speak to measure relative change against.
6"2, Male, Mixed black-white, avg face, short hair, broad shoulders and long legs.
This is me.
Im 19 and i am at medical school.
My reasons for starting AM are probably around my sense of self, I would consider myself a moderate alpha and having played in the school rugby team i was around many fine specimens. the problems arise because I feed of peoples positive energy towards me. So if i have a lot of energy and people are positive towards me then its all good.However i want to have that come from within, This centreing of ego/self-validation has been a huge theme in many journals and this excites me.
I also fear emotional intimacy like the damn plague. So I can be pretty fucking indifferent to chicks.
I often ignore girls who are attracted because i fear success
Pulling the trigger can be a problem (not used to it w/o alcohol. which i have reduced ALOT)
Goals:
-Rock steady self-confidence from within
-Refine my anger response. Instead of passive aggressively taking it then losing my shit.
-independance
-Decisive
-Motivation
-Study like a boss (exams are hard )
Of course lots of chicks. But that is not the primary aim here.
-Need a stable foundation for my future career and business plans (Hello BAMM ahha)
Aiming for Ryan gosling/Idris Elba vibe (+ Ron swansons woodworking skills)
Leroy