Day 1
I don;t want to get toooo hyped about my journal because I want to manage my expectations and not burn myself out by allowing my first few days / week set the standard for my entire experience.
But, in general I feel happier than I have in awhile. Maybe placebo. I seem to be more action oriented: I just kind of... do things. I clean as I go without thinking about it which is weird because I'm normally messy as a result of depression and self sabotage. I feel a shift towards being more organized in my thoughts. "I need to do this first so that I can do x which will give me time to do Y while X is..." you get the idea. That kind of thought process seems to me more emergent and is developing. I'm actually looking forward to going to work tomorrow which is weird for me.
During the day I found myself killing excuses. Me, going to mope around and do something: "wait...hell no. DUDE STOP WTF ok come on, just do it, stop moping. Get the fuck up. Go. Come on. I'm here to win. IM HERE TO WIN" was one of my dialogues to myself today. It souds hype perhaps, but essentially I got mad at myself (a handful of times today) for my usual self sabotaging attitude and in place of the normal mindset were a trail of positive, go getting type affirmations. Cool stuff! There seems to be this winners mindset thing going on, which I see in the product description. I'm here to win today. Go Big or go home. Those kinds of thoughts. I also told my friend about Indigo Mind Labs. I normally think "nah, they'll think im crazy, and I don't want to give away my secrets" but today I thought "....but wait, he can really benefit from this. I want to bring him to the top with me. Fuck it I'll tell him." He supposedly downloaded ASC but we'll see if he follows through. He's a fellow ENTP!
Anyway - I'll TRY not to post for a few days, or perhaps keep my own notes and THEN post once I have a few more trends solidified, as not to hype things up too much. No promises though
OH ALSO I started writing down ideas about how to make money. It seems a lot of things I think about now are "ok how does that work. How do people make money from that" from normal, every day processes and activities. "Where's the money in this."
Cheers
I don;t want to get toooo hyped about my journal because I want to manage my expectations and not burn myself out by allowing my first few days / week set the standard for my entire experience.
But, in general I feel happier than I have in awhile. Maybe placebo. I seem to be more action oriented: I just kind of... do things. I clean as I go without thinking about it which is weird because I'm normally messy as a result of depression and self sabotage. I feel a shift towards being more organized in my thoughts. "I need to do this first so that I can do x which will give me time to do Y while X is..." you get the idea. That kind of thought process seems to me more emergent and is developing. I'm actually looking forward to going to work tomorrow which is weird for me.
During the day I found myself killing excuses. Me, going to mope around and do something: "wait...hell no. DUDE STOP WTF ok come on, just do it, stop moping. Get the fuck up. Go. Come on. I'm here to win. IM HERE TO WIN" was one of my dialogues to myself today. It souds hype perhaps, but essentially I got mad at myself (a handful of times today) for my usual self sabotaging attitude and in place of the normal mindset were a trail of positive, go getting type affirmations. Cool stuff! There seems to be this winners mindset thing going on, which I see in the product description. I'm here to win today. Go Big or go home. Those kinds of thoughts. I also told my friend about Indigo Mind Labs. I normally think "nah, they'll think im crazy, and I don't want to give away my secrets" but today I thought "....but wait, he can really benefit from this. I want to bring him to the top with me. Fuck it I'll tell him." He supposedly downloaded ASC but we'll see if he follows through. He's a fellow ENTP!
Anyway - I'll TRY not to post for a few days, or perhaps keep my own notes and THEN post once I have a few more trends solidified, as not to hype things up too much. No promises though
OH ALSO I started writing down ideas about how to make money. It seems a lot of things I think about now are "ok how does that work. How do people make money from that" from normal, every day processes and activities. "Where's the money in this."
Cheers
