02-04-2014, 07:42 PM
Stage 4, Day 1
Wake up feeling tired; I didn't even realize that I turned off my first alarm. My failsafe alarm kitchen timer wakes me up. This means that I finish my entire morning ritual a little later than usual.
The addendum to my then-current morning ritual is allowing me to check off a couple of the things that I wanted to accomplish in February. And boy, it sure feels good to do them right away.
Right afterwards, I hit the gym hard. My new routines involve me running around like a crazy person, trying to get as many reps as possible in a set amount of time.
I'm now counting calories as I should, and I was successful in hitting the 2400 calories that I am supposed to eat on workout days. It's lower carbs on non-workout days, so funny enough, I had to buy a protein shake for non-workout days (with virtually no carbs), as my current one has nearly 40g per serving.
Anyways, I came back from the gym, cranked out roughly 5 hours of school work, and then went to the grocery store, dropped over 100$ on groceries, and went home.
I modified my acoustic guitar ritual to be much more, as the french say, "convivial"; there are many more small elements that take fewer minutes to perform, so that I'm really not allowed to veer off course. Longer time = more chance at distraction. All these smaller elements will group together and be useful for the time that I alot for practice songs, at the end of my ritual. I'm learning a Chet Atkins' rendition of "Mr. Sandman".
For the first time in a while, I watched porn. I've also been more horny than usual. This means that I've been, well, you know the rest. This may hit me hard in the morning; I can usually tell the difference.
Afterwards, I went through an abbreviated version of my vocalist ritual, cleaned up my appartment, and played some more guitar.
I'm noticing that my voice has been able to hit a very relaxed and pleasant tone on certain songs. My whistle voice (yeah, seriously) has been a bit more versatile these past few days, so I look forward to seeing where that will go. It's at a very beginner stage.
As per women and dating, I watched a video from RSD, and I suddenly got this anxiety inside of me. That I now have to figure out women and dating. I wonder if Stage 4 is programming me.
When I went out, I had some strong eye contact for a few seconds with one women, than my emotions came out of nowhere near the end of it. Very strange.
It's definitely having some effect!
Wake up feeling tired; I didn't even realize that I turned off my first alarm. My failsafe alarm kitchen timer wakes me up. This means that I finish my entire morning ritual a little later than usual.
The addendum to my then-current morning ritual is allowing me to check off a couple of the things that I wanted to accomplish in February. And boy, it sure feels good to do them right away.
Right afterwards, I hit the gym hard. My new routines involve me running around like a crazy person, trying to get as many reps as possible in a set amount of time.
I'm now counting calories as I should, and I was successful in hitting the 2400 calories that I am supposed to eat on workout days. It's lower carbs on non-workout days, so funny enough, I had to buy a protein shake for non-workout days (with virtually no carbs), as my current one has nearly 40g per serving.
Anyways, I came back from the gym, cranked out roughly 5 hours of school work, and then went to the grocery store, dropped over 100$ on groceries, and went home.
I modified my acoustic guitar ritual to be much more, as the french say, "convivial"; there are many more small elements that take fewer minutes to perform, so that I'm really not allowed to veer off course. Longer time = more chance at distraction. All these smaller elements will group together and be useful for the time that I alot for practice songs, at the end of my ritual. I'm learning a Chet Atkins' rendition of "Mr. Sandman".
For the first time in a while, I watched porn. I've also been more horny than usual. This means that I've been, well, you know the rest. This may hit me hard in the morning; I can usually tell the difference.
Afterwards, I went through an abbreviated version of my vocalist ritual, cleaned up my appartment, and played some more guitar.
I'm noticing that my voice has been able to hit a very relaxed and pleasant tone on certain songs. My whistle voice (yeah, seriously) has been a bit more versatile these past few days, so I look forward to seeing where that will go. It's at a very beginner stage.
As per women and dating, I watched a video from RSD, and I suddenly got this anxiety inside of me. That I now have to figure out women and dating. I wonder if Stage 4 is programming me.
When I went out, I had some strong eye contact for a few seconds with one women, than my emotions came out of nowhere near the end of it. Very strange.
It's definitely having some effect!
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