01-09-2015, 06:07 PM
Perseus Rising
Am6 Stage 2
last post I wrote about the intensifying aspects in stage 2 and 95 percent of what I experienced was startling, and enjoyable .but there were the rare days when this stage seem to accentuate all divisions and tensions in me , who I was , who I am and who I'm becoming .
To feel the breaking down of old patterns ,false constructs and conditioning is no easy thing, I can normally tell when the subs meeting stiff resistance , because you wake up feeling like you've been in a cage fight ,with flu like symptoms that never manifest in to an actual cold , just toxins being released. its an idea to keep well hydrated during these phases.
There were times I felt a profound sense of grief,like I was in mourning for myself,or at least the passing of certain aspects of myself, the white knight, the nice guy ect,, as this happens your entering uncharted waters, and as always with the unknown , we want to turn back ,retreat into the familiar even though you know its was a negative, co dependent , limiting, debilitating relationship ,like Odysseus during his passage you are going to hear those voices,
I know I did and I didn't want to be seduced by the momentum of old ways.
alluring as she ( Elle) is, there are elements of her nature that damage happiness, so much so that the derailing of happiness becomes the happiness itself, it never will change, and she doesn't have to, because she doesn't want to, and as she doesn't want to, there is no need to
but I have , I am and I will because
"I never saved anything for the swim back"
stay strong
Am6 Stage 2
last post I wrote about the intensifying aspects in stage 2 and 95 percent of what I experienced was startling, and enjoyable .but there were the rare days when this stage seem to accentuate all divisions and tensions in me , who I was , who I am and who I'm becoming .
To feel the breaking down of old patterns ,false constructs and conditioning is no easy thing, I can normally tell when the subs meeting stiff resistance , because you wake up feeling like you've been in a cage fight ,with flu like symptoms that never manifest in to an actual cold , just toxins being released. its an idea to keep well hydrated during these phases.
There were times I felt a profound sense of grief,like I was in mourning for myself,or at least the passing of certain aspects of myself, the white knight, the nice guy ect,, as this happens your entering uncharted waters, and as always with the unknown , we want to turn back ,retreat into the familiar even though you know its was a negative, co dependent , limiting, debilitating relationship ,like Odysseus during his passage you are going to hear those voices,
I know I did and I didn't want to be seduced by the momentum of old ways.
alluring as she ( Elle) is, there are elements of her nature that damage happiness, so much so that the derailing of happiness becomes the happiness itself, it never will change, and she doesn't have to, because she doesn't want to, and as she doesn't want to, there is no need to
but I have , I am and I will because
"I never saved anything for the swim back"
stay strong
