Alpha Male Training (2nd Run) [AM 5.0]

[Shannon]

The feelings I have for her is unlike anything I ever experienced before, it is so overwhelmingly strong, and I can't understand why I have feelings like this towards her.

At first I wasn't interested in her at all, the thought of us being together never crossed my mind, but as time goes by the feelings starts to appear and it just grows and grows out of control, until I'm just totally crazy about her.

I don't know if it is just a chemical reaction or not, I've read an article about it that says it is because of serotonin in the brain and what not, but if I compared it to taking MDMA pills which triggers serotonin release in large amount, this is a whole different feelings and way more overwhelming compared to any chemicals I have taken in my life. So I don't really know how to explain it.

There are people in the world who represent what we need. Them, their energy, whatever, and it is overwhelmingly attractive until we have what we needed or we separate ourselves sufficiently. That does not mean they're good for us, unless perhaps to teach us something through the pain. I have had to break my heart and walk away from some pretty amazing women, because they weren't good for me. Think of it as a life lesson, and find the gift that it holds for you.

As for your difficulty with AM5 run #2, I'd say you have some things to deal with that absolutely terrify you at a deep level. Trying to push through those things while at the same time subconsciously fighting it isn't going to be easy. I am living proof that it can be done.