06-12-2013, 03:26 PM
I once had depressing thoughts while dating my EX.
The reason was because deep down, or hell even superficially, I knew that she wasn't right for me. She didn't understand my humor, and felt insulted by it and I felt the same way about hers. The only reason I was in it (which I hate to admit but I must come to terms with) was because I am lonely and she was a VERY attractive young lady who gave me attention and sex.
So for most of AM5.0, I was depressed while using it. As soon as I split with her by stage 6, I was sad that I had lost someone with whom I had spent so much time with, but the decision had to be made and I felt liberated among other things once it happened. I did end up sleeping with her a few more times post breakup, but that has since ended because once again, my mind is telling me that she is not right for me so I must stay away from her until I have moved on completely (and only then could we possibly be friends with each other). I was depressed during the post breakup period because I was still in contact with her and I know it has to end.
Do your best to stay away from whoever this girl is that is toxic to you. It's the only way you'll grow, but for me even though I didn't, I still grew and learned that it's not an easy decision and sooner than later it will be made.
The reason was because deep down, or hell even superficially, I knew that she wasn't right for me. She didn't understand my humor, and felt insulted by it and I felt the same way about hers. The only reason I was in it (which I hate to admit but I must come to terms with) was because I am lonely and she was a VERY attractive young lady who gave me attention and sex.
So for most of AM5.0, I was depressed while using it. As soon as I split with her by stage 6, I was sad that I had lost someone with whom I had spent so much time with, but the decision had to be made and I felt liberated among other things once it happened. I did end up sleeping with her a few more times post breakup, but that has since ended because once again, my mind is telling me that she is not right for me so I must stay away from her until I have moved on completely (and only then could we possibly be friends with each other). I was depressed during the post breakup period because I was still in contact with her and I know it has to end.
Do your best to stay away from whoever this girl is that is toxic to you. It's the only way you'll grow, but for me even though I didn't, I still grew and learned that it's not an easy decision and sooner than later it will be made.
