05-17-2019, 10:44 PM
(05-17-2019, 04:46 PM)CatMan Wrote: Sigh...look...again...I see no value in this continued mud slinging, and don't want to get banned for continuing this as it's unproductive. In the end, results are all that matters with the program. Period.
Short version of my post:
-*I'm* warping the narrative and *I'm* attacking you..
Yet you have called me a liar, with zero evidence. Have now called me a "manipulator", which is bizarre, and also, completely without evidence. I'm a guy that simply wants to be able to finally attract women and be "normal". To get back the decency, respect, caring and value I give out.
-I twisted nothing. You called me dishonest, that's what a liar is. Now I'm a "manipulator". Deeply offensive to me on both fronts, as I am anything but. I have dedicated myself to a life of honesty and decency with others, even when I haven't gotten that in return and it'd be easy to turn and "be an a hole".
-I have no idea if my arm being broken due to the actions of a devious girl years ago is the key moment to this or not. Beforehand, I still struggled with girls and had a few bad situations, not as bad though, but maybe they carry a lot of weight in mind due to them being "older" memories. I have no idea how my mind interpreted that situation going forward. It may be the key moment, or it could be something I don't recall or don't think as much of, or what have you, who knows.
-"you're famous in some circles for that". Huh?! What "circles" are those? I'm known for being "dishonest" by people, am I?! What people exactly?! What did I do to any of these "circles", exactly?! Did you just say you're somehow connected to a group that talks shit about IML customers?! How would you know this information otherwise?! Did I read that correctly?! This really concerned me to read as a customer, who places my trust and faith and money here. I'm HOPING this is misunderstood and can be explained...
-I'm mystified why I get such vitriol compared to others, for merely reporting when you ask me to, give me nothing but shit when I do, then complain when I don't report anymore as a result of all the bs. I can't report about what isn't happening...because...you know...I AM NOT A LIAR.
Look...Shannon...I know you have a lot on your plate. I don't know if I'm an emotional punching bag here. I am starting to sense I am. I don't recall you EVER throwing insults like this. I hope you get through this seemingly awful time soon.
Look:
I'm reading every week about women and the mind, to understand them, and myself more, as I said .
I'm putting myself out there with attractive women every week as I said.
I'm trying to make sure the past is not the future.
I continue to "put myself out there" with said women, either by spending time interacting with them one on one, or by even asking a few of them out when I've really wanted to. Didn't end up happening. However, I'm doing everything I realistically can to help this process along.
Until recently, as you know, I was probably the most dedicated DMSI listener, most went to other programs over time. I've recently switched to E3 until the next release, thinking it was a better use of time, unfortunately, even though I HATE the idea of "giving up" on DMSI, at least for now. I've liked what EHPRA V1 and V2 have done for me in the past, programs I have recommended to those around me who needed them. Now, I've done the same with E3, and so far have enough for a report post I think, even though I'm hesitant after all this shit, to be honest. I was feeling good with E3 so far, this exchange kinda dampered it and wrecked my mood the past while. I'll try to put together a post, I'm a glutton for punishment, I guess, lol...
So...I resent the implication I'm "doing nothing to change".
I am NOT a "liar".
I am NOT a "manipulator".
I am NOT "doing nothing to change".
Now...please...I am BEYOND done with this.
Really.
Seriously.
Totally done with this.
In every way I can possibly describe.
I was about to suggest you try a different sub like E3 or LTU, but then read that you've already started listening to E3, so I'm glad to hear that.
If I was in your shoes, I would continue to listen to E3 for at least 6 months or more, to help heal the hurt and fears you have from bad experiences with women in your past and maybe other emotional traumas that might be holding you back, then maybe try the final version of DMSI later once you're more healed up and ready for it.
