11-24-2013, 12:15 PM
(This post was last modified: 11-24-2013, 12:23 PM by AlphaScorpio.)
As always K-Train I appreciate your honesty, it does not offend me at all it instead makes me uncomfortable or tends to at first put me in a state of denial. But in a positive way that helps me see my life more clearly, for what it is. I have realized a few things;
1. The reason why I didn't feel AM5 did anything was not because of the program not working or speakers or headphones not being good enough (cause they were) or exposure time etc. It's because I can remember not wanting to get out the comfort zone. I didn't want to rock the boat and I spent SO much energy subconsciously RESISTING and trying everything NOT to create change that could upset me or other people. Hence some depression and feelings of boredom and frustration. It was FEAR that held me back. Damn that really makes sense. Funny I remember consciously thinking "Sure I'd do anything to be alpha and self respected" My subconscious begged to differ.
2.(I've had an underlying sense of this one for a while) My "Friends" are actually people I've known for 4+ years that I depend on and vice versa who I share common issues/beliefs with. Sure I still like them and enjoy hanging round with them, but they don't give me support, very selfish relationships. I hate saying this, but it's mostly true. Whilst I do believe there were moments of genuine true PURE friendship and relationship, most of it has been a mixture of egos.
Again, I really do appreciate your sincere advice, that's real and I can really respect that. I wish I had more people around me who were sincere and honest. You seem to understand where I'm coming from K-train, have you worked through a similar experience previously in your life or maybe you are just very perceptive?
I'm usually a resistant person, I don't like getting told what to do or what to believe, but I'm 100% adamant that I know real when I see it. That's why I'm tired of fake ass people that I seem to encounter a lot. Of course I can't hold a grudge, we're all selfish to some degree for me it's just about seeing it for what it is and moving on to create what I want. Thanks for the inspiration!
1. The reason why I didn't feel AM5 did anything was not because of the program not working or speakers or headphones not being good enough (cause they were) or exposure time etc. It's because I can remember not wanting to get out the comfort zone. I didn't want to rock the boat and I spent SO much energy subconsciously RESISTING and trying everything NOT to create change that could upset me or other people. Hence some depression and feelings of boredom and frustration. It was FEAR that held me back. Damn that really makes sense. Funny I remember consciously thinking "Sure I'd do anything to be alpha and self respected" My subconscious begged to differ.
2.(I've had an underlying sense of this one for a while) My "Friends" are actually people I've known for 4+ years that I depend on and vice versa who I share common issues/beliefs with. Sure I still like them and enjoy hanging round with them, but they don't give me support, very selfish relationships. I hate saying this, but it's mostly true. Whilst I do believe there were moments of genuine true PURE friendship and relationship, most of it has been a mixture of egos.
Again, I really do appreciate your sincere advice, that's real and I can really respect that. I wish I had more people around me who were sincere and honest. You seem to understand where I'm coming from K-train, have you worked through a similar experience previously in your life or maybe you are just very perceptive?
I'm usually a resistant person, I don't like getting told what to do or what to believe, but I'm 100% adamant that I know real when I see it. That's why I'm tired of fake ass people that I seem to encounter a lot. Of course I can't hold a grudge, we're all selfish to some degree for me it's just about seeing it for what it is and moving on to create what I want. Thanks for the inspiration!
