09-12-2010, 03:53 PM
Well I'm back from my trip which was shorter than expected but I didn't get to listen to the subs as much as I wanted so I'm doubling up this week.
However I do notice that I am more confident during this time of resistance but I'm also feeling even more aloof now and I'm just saying fuck it. I think the neediness is very close if not gone already. I've gotten good results from these subs so far and now it is effortless for me to gain respect from anyone and girls feel quite comfortable in my presence because I believe the warmth of my heart is starting to show more on the surface and I'm continuing to project feeling from my eyes like lasers into women's and it's something I can really feel and I enjoy. However last night I did have a panic attack for about 2 hours and it revolved around my self worth and respect for my own mind and health but this probably also was caused by the intense lack of sleep I had for the past 4 days. It didn't have much to do with women but I slept it off in the car goin home. I did have one of those maybe 4 weeks ago during the first week of stage 2 but since I'm starting stage 3 in the next week I don't think I'll be having any more of those. Things are slowly looking up
However I do notice that I am more confident during this time of resistance but I'm also feeling even more aloof now and I'm just saying fuck it. I think the neediness is very close if not gone already. I've gotten good results from these subs so far and now it is effortless for me to gain respect from anyone and girls feel quite comfortable in my presence because I believe the warmth of my heart is starting to show more on the surface and I'm continuing to project feeling from my eyes like lasers into women's and it's something I can really feel and I enjoy. However last night I did have a panic attack for about 2 hours and it revolved around my self worth and respect for my own mind and health but this probably also was caused by the intense lack of sleep I had for the past 4 days. It didn't have much to do with women but I slept it off in the car goin home. I did have one of those maybe 4 weeks ago during the first week of stage 2 but since I'm starting stage 3 in the next week I don't think I'll be having any more of those. Things are slowly looking up
