08-22-2010, 10:41 AM
Well looks like stage 2 is hitting hard. this morning I woke up and my whole face and head hurt.. it's been like that the last couple of days but it's alright I just know it's working hard. I went to church today and I had some anxiety and as much as I tried to relax there was still a tiny bit of anxiety. I then ate with my buddy's in laws and it was his wife's mom, dad, brother, brother's gf, and my buddy. We all had a great lunch and I was very grateful for it and I was very polite and socialized alittle. I did feel a little resistance in socializing with the brother gf and my buddy's wife but It wasn't that bad. There was some silent awkwardness at the table but I didn't let it bother me cuz they are a quiet family.. however they didn't ask me any questions or really include me on conversation. Last time I was over I was the one doing most of the socializing anyways so they may have expected me to speak up some more but all I did was enjoy the food. I think that's perfectly fine... you know, you gotta enjoy something if someone else put so much effort into making it good. I just indulged in eating that scrumptious food and wish now I ate some more.
Either way I do feel anti social still but not around the people I know well.. such as work... it's not a problem but anywhere else I'm pretty reserved which isn't much different than before. I'm sure this will soon turn around withint he next month or two.
Either way I do feel anti social still but not around the people I know well.. such as work... it's not a problem but anywhere else I'm pretty reserved which isn't much different than before. I'm sure this will soon turn around withint he next month or two.
