AM6 Run-3

[tolgaocal80]

stage 3 day 29

I bought SM today,
I spend my life with frustuating and dreaming what if I do this or this?, for some reasons relationship part on my life is empty. when it comes to male-female dynamics I was always be ashamed of sexuality, and time passed.
now it is time to learn and practice sexuality.
WM would be good choice either but I also want to start business and I have no time for extra time-wasting on long-relationships, some users reported WM made them more emotional and soft towards women, I will not deal with this anymore. Emotions are the worst enemy when you deal with women,(or general life)

Before using SM I will do one more run of AM and 6 months of stage 7, total 1 year.
this 3rd run was not very good for me because I listened it with ultrasonic, us really don't work on me or I am resisting it too much, next run will be oceansurf.

[tolgaocal80]

stage 4 day 1

again a time travelling dream, this time I went 2008 my old neighborhood,
I was feeling like I went there because I was gonna change my past but once I was in 2008, I knew somehow it isn't gonna happen, nobody change the past or time, we just lived and it passed.

[tolgaocal80]

stage 5 day 5

the effects of stage 5 came to surface again, women around me (all of them) look at me like I am a alien, really there is a high-class man attitude on me. acctually I didn't notice any kind of visible effects of AM until stage 5 with ultrasonic track, next time will be only masked

and I want to share, my college lessons get better and better,

I am really getting relax with my college situation, after I gratuated and as soon as I get a job , I will be put more and more money on self-developing materials, subs, gym, courses etc.

[tolgaocal80]

stage 5 day 23

seen a few dreams last couple of days, I couldn't see what are their meanings, some of them were sexual but not about sex, different scenarios about sexualism.

[tolgaocal80]

stage 6 day 5

that shit, is boring man.. Idk want to do today. I had a job meeting online, I think I didn't make it.
I had answered most of the questions they ask, but I couldn't make them understand me clearly, etc.

you know what fuck the human mind. it is not a gift it is a curse., I can't let it understand what I want, or what it must do.
if I don't know how to talk to my mind than who da fuck knows?

I want to write to many things but my poor english is not allowing me to do.

[Yous]

I would recommend you OFv2 next, maybe is the most important sub to run.

[tolgaocal80]

I would recommend you OFv2 next, maybe is the most important sub to run.

yeah, I agree that, but I really cant afford it for now
but also I had a online meeting with a boss, I'll go for face-to-face talking, I will be paid less because of I am an intern right now.
it that happens next sub might be OF.
I really feel the feeling of fear, it is there.

stage 6 day 6
I had cold water shower today and it wasn't too bad, I'll try to make it a habit

[JustAnotherLeader]

Hey man, it was a pleasure to read about your journey.

Did you read the books recommended in AM6 instructions?

[tolgaocal80]

thanks, I would be glad if it helps

Yes I read the recommended books a few times, they are very basic and helps with basic concepts