09-14-2014, 08:49 PM
Stage 4 Day 10:
Today is the day I realized how powerful AM5 is, and what changes it has been doing. Before I started LTU and AM5 I was already self aware but this takes it to the next level. I've noticed on how I am communicating with everyone, how people are attracted to me, and when they don't like me, it's not them, it's me that's doing it. UNCONSCIOUSLY.
Today I was at a Family BBQ and I was very observant(My natural side) and then AM5 effects came into play, I was more free to talk to everyone, I wasn't on bad terms with anyone, and even if I was in the past, I left it in the past. Some resistance came up with one of my uncles but I mean even that was eventually brushed off. I noticed because I am more open to everyone, and even when they "Insult me" or attempt me, I don't see it as in insult, I see it as hey, this person knows me, and wants to make a joke, and I reply without attacking them back. I didn't find a need to attack them because even though I was "open" I am STRONG in my core, that it feels natural for them to be "attacking me" because I realized, if they are attacking me, what they are subconsciously doing is checking to see if I have anything against them, and if I do, I verbally insult them back. But I had nothing held against them, so they were much nicer and liked me better because of that. Remember all this is going on is in the subconscious level, I'm aware, they are not. Well I don't know if they are but I get the vibe that I'm more "deep" into thinking then they are. Back in the day, I used to hate that I was a "Deep thinker" or "Analyzer" and thought about everything but now I seem to be able to process information faster and not have to sit there and deep think and just come up with replies or answers. I've let go of lots of Fear, worry, anxiety, that I feel like I am in the "now" and open to conversations and etc. If it was before, I'd try to stay back and act cool, calm and collected, but now I'm more outgoing/social and at the sametime able to keep my "Skills" I call it now, of deep thinking and etc without being bummed out about it, cause I use it to my advantage.
MLS is great! I am recalling information more vividly, faster and able to solve problems better, my grades in school are going really well so far. Anything I put my mind to, in terms of reading the textbook and so on, I am able to remember them better. I"m aabout a week into MLS.
Also in this stage, I've been waking up with this empty and sad feeling in my stomach..I find that I am in need to turn on depressing music to make me feel better which is weird..but I've always done so..I guess it helps me connect to what my body/mind is trying to tell me.
Today is the day I realized how powerful AM5 is, and what changes it has been doing. Before I started LTU and AM5 I was already self aware but this takes it to the next level. I've noticed on how I am communicating with everyone, how people are attracted to me, and when they don't like me, it's not them, it's me that's doing it. UNCONSCIOUSLY.
Today I was at a Family BBQ and I was very observant(My natural side) and then AM5 effects came into play, I was more free to talk to everyone, I wasn't on bad terms with anyone, and even if I was in the past, I left it in the past. Some resistance came up with one of my uncles but I mean even that was eventually brushed off. I noticed because I am more open to everyone, and even when they "Insult me" or attempt me, I don't see it as in insult, I see it as hey, this person knows me, and wants to make a joke, and I reply without attacking them back. I didn't find a need to attack them because even though I was "open" I am STRONG in my core, that it feels natural for them to be "attacking me" because I realized, if they are attacking me, what they are subconsciously doing is checking to see if I have anything against them, and if I do, I verbally insult them back. But I had nothing held against them, so they were much nicer and liked me better because of that. Remember all this is going on is in the subconscious level, I'm aware, they are not. Well I don't know if they are but I get the vibe that I'm more "deep" into thinking then they are. Back in the day, I used to hate that I was a "Deep thinker" or "Analyzer" and thought about everything but now I seem to be able to process information faster and not have to sit there and deep think and just come up with replies or answers. I've let go of lots of Fear, worry, anxiety, that I feel like I am in the "now" and open to conversations and etc. If it was before, I'd try to stay back and act cool, calm and collected, but now I'm more outgoing/social and at the sametime able to keep my "Skills" I call it now, of deep thinking and etc without being bummed out about it, cause I use it to my advantage.
MLS is great! I am recalling information more vividly, faster and able to solve problems better, my grades in school are going really well so far. Anything I put my mind to, in terms of reading the textbook and so on, I am able to remember them better. I"m aabout a week into MLS.
Also in this stage, I've been waking up with this empty and sad feeling in my stomach..I find that I am in need to turn on depressing music to make me feel better which is weird..but I've always done so..I guess it helps me connect to what my body/mind is trying to tell me.
