07-21-2011, 12:45 AM
I love affirmations, but right now I am going to try my own thing. Instead of chanting sentences, or talking to myself in the mirror, I am going to confront them and change them in one fell swoop, with on-going upkeep. I find getting out and doing what I desire or participating in some activity is far more beneficial at least for me.
In spite of everything that happened this week... I found it to be a great learning experience. I have been undergoing change at an exponential rate. It is freaking ridiculous. I think that is partially due to me being a hermit for several weeks. If things keep up like this, I will have a Ph.D. in life.
Time to share my learning experiences. I started talking to my co-workers more frequently, which was good for my social life. Smoked marijuana and had a freaky bad trip. Never again. I wasted too much time not doing anything, while being in a state of unending pleasure filled nightmare. And for some reason I thought it was wrong to go see a movie by myself, so I did it anyway. I love going with friends and girl friends, but going by myself was actually a great experience (=
I then followed up with much thinking and meditation on how to get my life in order. I did find a couple ways, but those only scratched the surface. Funny how some ideas hit you when you least expect it. I had a book that is due in about 12 hours. I only read a couple of pages, but I want to siphon as much information I can from it as possible. One of the morals of this story was, "As a sage you don't live in the world, the world lives in you." This was so profound to me. An ephiany finally emerging from the depths of my mind.
Much of my life has been to please others, seek their approval, sacarfice my own satisfaction to let others revel in what I was doing, being outcasted and mocked for being different while letting people walk all over me. This made me insecure beyond a shadow of a doubt. My solutions is to accept everything that has happened, then change it to what I want
I am ready for the internal world I desire to become my exterior reality. I am effin' excited!! I've never felt this motivated about my future. Instead of hoping one day the chips will fall perfectly into place, I am shifting everything to my whim. I am doing much of what I want, slight indulgence, but I am happy.
I am looking forward to everything that is to come. (=
In spite of everything that happened this week... I found it to be a great learning experience. I have been undergoing change at an exponential rate. It is freaking ridiculous. I think that is partially due to me being a hermit for several weeks. If things keep up like this, I will have a Ph.D. in life.
Time to share my learning experiences. I started talking to my co-workers more frequently, which was good for my social life. Smoked marijuana and had a freaky bad trip. Never again. I wasted too much time not doing anything, while being in a state of unending pleasure filled nightmare. And for some reason I thought it was wrong to go see a movie by myself, so I did it anyway. I love going with friends and girl friends, but going by myself was actually a great experience (=
I then followed up with much thinking and meditation on how to get my life in order. I did find a couple ways, but those only scratched the surface. Funny how some ideas hit you when you least expect it. I had a book that is due in about 12 hours. I only read a couple of pages, but I want to siphon as much information I can from it as possible. One of the morals of this story was, "As a sage you don't live in the world, the world lives in you." This was so profound to me. An ephiany finally emerging from the depths of my mind.
Much of my life has been to please others, seek their approval, sacarfice my own satisfaction to let others revel in what I was doing, being outcasted and mocked for being different while letting people walk all over me. This made me insecure beyond a shadow of a doubt. My solutions is to accept everything that has happened, then change it to what I want
I am ready for the internal world I desire to become my exterior reality. I am effin' excited!! I've never felt this motivated about my future. Instead of hoping one day the chips will fall perfectly into place, I am shifting everything to my whim. I am doing much of what I want, slight indulgence, but I am happy.I am looking forward to everything that is to come. (=
Live your life the way YOU desire
