05-16-2011, 12:46 PM
This has been an interesting ride. The highs brought me great satisfactions, while the lows gave me direction. I am a day away from being a high school grad on the brink of summer! The past two weeks have been deep, thought provoking reflection. I feel like I have lost my way of the mainstream path, and opening the door of the unknown.
My biggest issue in life is feeling inferior. Oh if I buy this, I will finally be on a level playing ground. I never want to reveal weakness or open up to anyone. Not even my best friends, girl friends, nor my parents. The last time I genuinely opened up to anyone was four years ago. Minimum. I put up this massive, impenetrable wall that few can break though. Or get away from the person before they have the chance. I am a self-suppressing extrovert at the moment. Around good friends, I am the life of the party. Around strangers, call me a ghost. This is my top priority for the next few weeks. I plan on tearing down all these walls I built in the past. My plan is use soothing music and mirror affirmations. If any of you have ideas or tips that have worked in the past, feel free to chime in.
I need to reconnect with nature, stat. Too much computer, TV, and video games is making me wanting to rip my hair out. Even writing this now. But I am taking two vacations soon. One canoeing trip and a week in Key West! I am excited to leave the MidWest. I believe and celebrate one season, summer. Winter, Fall, and Spring are great, but only on my terms. Time to go from glowing white to a sexy tan hahah
I am going to take full advantage of this summer. I am going to make staying inside foreign. I am considering buying a Hammock and sleeping outside. Put my tunes under a tarp. Presto.
I have big plans ahead. One of which I call Jeff's Comfort Zone Challenge. I'll list a few:
-Learn to skateboard
-Ride a horse
-Do a front and backflip (one of my biggest fears)
-Sky dive [most ecstatic to try!
]
-Zip line into a pool
Just to list a few.
Getting a job to fund all these activities is part one, I'll keep this thread posted when I do.
My biggest issue in life is feeling inferior. Oh if I buy this, I will finally be on a level playing ground. I never want to reveal weakness or open up to anyone. Not even my best friends, girl friends, nor my parents. The last time I genuinely opened up to anyone was four years ago. Minimum. I put up this massive, impenetrable wall that few can break though. Or get away from the person before they have the chance. I am a self-suppressing extrovert at the moment. Around good friends, I am the life of the party. Around strangers, call me a ghost. This is my top priority for the next few weeks. I plan on tearing down all these walls I built in the past. My plan is use soothing music and mirror affirmations. If any of you have ideas or tips that have worked in the past, feel free to chime in.
I need to reconnect with nature, stat. Too much computer, TV, and video games is making me wanting to rip my hair out. Even writing this now. But I am taking two vacations soon. One canoeing trip and a week in Key West! I am excited to leave the MidWest. I believe and celebrate one season, summer. Winter, Fall, and Spring are great, but only on my terms. Time to go from glowing white to a sexy tan hahah
I am going to take full advantage of this summer. I am going to make staying inside foreign. I am considering buying a Hammock and sleeping outside. Put my tunes under a tarp. Presto. I have big plans ahead. One of which I call Jeff's Comfort Zone Challenge. I'll list a few:
-Learn to skateboard
-Ride a horse
-Do a front and backflip (one of my biggest fears)
-Sky dive [most ecstatic to try!
]-Zip line into a pool
Just to list a few.
Getting a job to fund all these activities is part one, I'll keep this thread posted when I do.
Live your life the way YOU desire
