AM Journal

[FunkeyMonkey]

You're also just entering the stages where women should be responding. But a needy woman is a woman who is responding... so I guess you do have that.

Well to be fair the woman I'm seeing is actually a woman that I dated very briefly five years ago. I fucked things up with her then and it ended almost before it started. This always weighed on me for all the years since then.

As it turned out, I ran into her again at a wedding I attended recently. At the wedding I took the opportunity to say some very honest things to her with the intention of releasing some of the emotional baggage I had been hanging on to.

Funny enough she found this to be a huge emotional turn on and we ended up having a crazy fun weekend at this wedding, which was in the middle of buttfuck no where (the mountains).

This turned out to be the wildest, most fun weekend of her life (by her account) and I have been seeing her since.

But then she started getting needy, insecure, and pushy with me. Not unlike the way I probably acted with some women in the past

She has not succeeded in pushing me around and I've handled the neediness very well, but it's been a bit of a turn off for me.

Regardless, the experience I had with her, giving her the best weekend of her life that she will never forget, might, in part, have been a result of the subs.

What's interesting is this is a woman who has always had guys kissing her ass, chasing her around, and acting needy to the point of the men looking totally pathetic and her losing interest. (I know this because I'm friendly with a female friend of her's who informed me of this). There's one guy she dated for three months without having sex with him and then dumped him. The guy begged for mercy to no avail.

So after her initial reaction of being wonder-eyed and surprised at my being vulnerable and saying what I needed to say to her at the wedding, she then proceeded to try and drag me around like a puppy dog as if I was one of those countless other men. I resisted this the whole night and she whined and complained, telling me I was being difficult blah blah blah. This lead to an adventure in the mountains that I won't get into here, but I find it funny that for all her complaining that I was being difficult, she now says it was the best weekend of her life and that it was so fun and wild blah blah blah.

No wonder men are confused!!!

That's why I say I'll do a full 20/20 hindsight at the end, because sometimes it's hard to know what's going on in the present and this story might be relevant to the subs and should be taken into account.

She told me that I am only one of two men, in her whole life, that she has ever dated, who did not follow her around like a puppy dog.