AAM7/AM7: Time To Grow Up!

[Shannon]

AAM7/AM7-Stage 0- Month 3-Day 10:

Sigh.., I'm getting annoyed at social media.., I feel like its still controlling me and putting me against other group of people.., wich doesn't fit a future AAM.. (Okay it actually does but I'm getting tired and annoyed of it..,I dont wanna live in fear anymore..).

I do feel more positive walking on the street and get better at solving my problems, like how I was able to buy the entire set and still have enough money for the rest of the month

Also, my therapist recommended me to use: Ozempic in order to lose weight.., does anyone have expirience with this and is this safe?

Because I felt like it was a bad choice when she recommended me to use it, I dont want to burn my bones or other nasty side effects..

It also feels like it would defeat one of the points of AAM7, To do things the hard way...

This is something I wanted to address when you posted it, but I have not had a chance.

You may have a bit of misunderstanding here.  "Doing things the hard way" isn't the goal.  Doing things the RIGHT way is the goal.  Achieving freedom, self respect, self esteem, sense of self worth, self validation, becoming an adult man, instead of the little boy your family appears to prefer you be.

It is not necessarily easy to go from where you are starting from, to an adult man and then an ascended alpha, but you CAN do it.  Some of it will be uncomfortable, some of it will be scary, and some of it will be hard.  You can do it.  You have the potential in you to do and be whatever and whomever you choose to be, and your imagination is the limit.  It is hard because you're so convinced by everyone around you that you're helpless, hopeless, weak, whatever it is they've convinced you of.

I came from that place also.  If I can do it, you can do it.  But it doesn't have to be "the hard way" to be successful.  It will be as hard as you make it.  And by that, I mean, as much as you resist the growth and the process you're trying to achieve and accomplish.  "Being a man" is not easy, but it is doable, and billions of men do it every day.  You can too.

[Shannon]

AAM7/AM7-Stage 0- Month 3-Day 14:

Huh, this is one of these rare moments that I still remember part of my dreams..

It was about me being inside a very uncomfortable house, as in the guy I lived in felt dangerous and for some reason I was thinking about cutting my penis of a few times..

It was weird but after finding out the meaning of thinking about cutting your penis off.

I found out that it was related to AAM7.. since its main theme are helplessness and masculinity and feeling powerless...

so It could be my subconcious trying to resist it and lose?

I'm a little confused by this... "the guy you lived in"?

This dream clearly indicates that you have been exposed to and accepted as true that a man, a masculine man, is dangerous, and that the way to stay safe is to remain passive and in your feminine energy.  (Cutting off your penis.)

What you're seeing is that the program's instructions are beginning to make their way into action, and some part or parts of you are responding with fear of your masculinity based on what they believe to be true (masculinity bad/dangerous).

Masculinity is no more inherently bad or dangerous than femininity.  It's what one does with them that becomes "good" or "bad" or "safe" or "unsafe".  Both are necessary, or they would not exist; and they must be in their proper balance for the individual, and the society that the collective makes up, to be healthy.  

When I started this journey back in 2004 or 2005, I remember having a lot of pushback from my subconscious about this sort of thing because of the beliefs that it had accepted about being a man, masculinity, etc. It was scary and uncomfortable, but I knew it was necessary for me to balance myself as a straight man needs to be balanced.  Straight men are supposed to have more masculine focus than feminine focus.

You are making progress.

[MrGnome]

AAM7/AM7-Stage 0- The End:

Sorry that it has been so long since my last update:

Month 4 was just me being tired alot, Started to hate Netorare hentai, crying about being single and fearing the idea of staying single forever.

I know this is bullshit, since Stage 4 will appearently make me more sexy.

wich is interesting since I got 4 girls into me, in the first 21 years of my life, even though the most weren't that attractive but still..

I also think the hate of Netorare and the fear of staying alone forever

has to do with both: Dealing with that my ex cheated on me with another guy back when I was 19 years old and the fear of being replaced again, once I would find a new lover..

cant say that I'm fully over it but I know its getting worked on and will be removed during the 7 stages left.

I also had this weird dream Yesterday, I dont fully remember it anymore but it had this theme about me being special..

Not in the haha you are autistic way but the true meaning of special and I have no idea where it comes from.

Also thanks for explaining that last dream Shannon, Again sorry that it took so long for me to respond.

Edit:

Now I have to wait till Saterday night before I can start Stage 1 and I'm kinda hyped for it : ).

Double Edit:

The fact that my Father was an ahole didn't help either..

Third Edit:

I just realised how much my self censorship has been reduced, Seriously before this I wouldn't have shared this much on this forum, Out of fear for judgement.

Last Edit: I have also been thinking about a girl, who I thought was a close friend of mine, Only to dump me later when she had a fight with someone else in our friend group back when I was 18.

[Shannon]

I can see that you are developing by the tone of your responses. That is good. Progress.