the kind of stuff you're mentioning like the inner turmoil and drive to do stuff + the perceivable insanity that comes along from not being able to do it.... I had the same battles in my head and I think it is that your inner self and independence is starting to coming out. These "resistance" moments were actually my defining points in that they were glimpses of what was to come.
I actually ended up quitting my job at the end of stage 1 of SM3 (3 and a half weeks after finishing my AM6 run), to pursue a passion and an experience I couldn't afford to miss. whereas before AM6, I would have been scared by financial insecurity of leaving and would have held onto the job knowing I'd be on the board of directors if i stayed 10 - 15 years........ but life's too short right?
your life responsibilities are frustrating you because an alpha is independent and fully self supporting, so you're being aligned to the alpha mindset
I know you said the feelings fell away as fast as they came, but they'll probably crop back up. When it comes to taking care of your physical appearance, just do it. like get that hair cut, and visit the mall (if it was to get clothes) if money permits. The confidence boost is pretty awesome
And call up your old friends and just see how things are going. the circle of friends sequence is probably hinting at something here 
. I have no business giving you advice on your future (schooling and job) so I'll leave that to you and your journey with AM6 
dude this is awesome to read man, i wish i knew you more before you started the subs so i could see how much you're growing, because i only have a few posts to go off of
I actually ended up quitting my job at the end of stage 1 of SM3 (3 and a half weeks after finishing my AM6 run), to pursue a passion and an experience I couldn't afford to miss. whereas before AM6, I would have been scared by financial insecurity of leaving and would have held onto the job knowing I'd be on the board of directors if i stayed 10 - 15 years........ but life's too short right?
your life responsibilities are frustrating you because an alpha is independent and fully self supporting, so you're being aligned to the alpha mindset
I know you said the feelings fell away as fast as they came, but they'll probably crop back up. When it comes to taking care of your physical appearance, just do it. like get that hair cut, and visit the mall (if it was to get clothes) if money permits. The confidence boost is pretty awesome
And call up your old friends and just see how things are going. the circle of friends sequence is probably hinting at something here . I have no business giving you advice on your future (schooling and job) so I'll leave that to you and your journey with AM6 dude this is awesome to read man, i wish i knew you more before you started the subs so i could see how much you're growing, because i only have a few posts to go off of
