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The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
03-01-2017, 04:01 PM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
(03-01-2017 03:43 PM)Benjamin Wrote:  Like as a fairy attractive guy who is muscular, I barely get any matches on tinder here.

Hmm. Please correct. Tongue
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03-01-2017, 04:07 PM (This post was last modified: 03-01-2017 04:07 PM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
HAHAHAHA whoops.. i'm almost crying from laughter here!

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03-01-2017, 09:46 PM (This post was last modified: 03-02-2017 01:47 AM by Benjamin.)
Post: #303
RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Whoops, messaged 2 girls after I found there's an option for bisexual on okcupid.

And I wondered why one online stopped replying. I realized it's the same girl. She made 2 profiles haha and I said a similar thing. Oh well. I assume it's why she stopped answering, ***** that up spectacularly haha. She looked a fair bit different, only 1 photo in each and glasses in one. Weirdly the bisexual profile she looks more attractive.o

Something definately shifted. But I don't know why certain girls be such massive cunts when it's unwarranted. Just got into an argument with an 18yo idiot who did say on her profile that she had a bad attitude.

Me: (something about building sandcastles at the beach and splashing her with water).
Her: What?
Me: Can't read?
Her: "You're so old. I can read but why did you say that?"
Me: "Cos you mentioned the beach, I usually say whatever random thing comes into my head. Sometimes it's awesome sometimes not haha. Thankyou, with age comes sexiness Tongue"
Her: No with age cones wrinkles and a limp dick
Me: We barely know each other and you're already thinking about my dick, you're moving a bit fast here.
Her: I know you enough to know you're so self absorbed you think I'm trying to move fast. So sorry but the only thing I'm thinking about your dick is how gross and shriveled it is.
Me: It did shrivel up but that was only from looking at your photos and your attitude..
Her: Oh man I thought it was from your lame as come back.
Me: Comeback? No I won't cum on your back young lady.
Her: Come and cum are two different words douche bag. Maybe you should invest in a dictionary.
Her: I don't like gyms, I don't care about health. Deep thought is for inside MY head. I don't joke about things, I think you're old and gross. This will never work.
Me: Douche bag haha, thanks I like that word. Yet you're still replying retard, obviously you're too inmatture anyway.. and probably should call some assistance to get the big stick out of your ass.
Her: Dude I'm still talking because your dumb ass gives me slight amusement
Me: Now you're talking about my ass, perve.
Her: You're such a shit.
Me: Look... thats SIR shit to you missy!
Her: You'll be calling me sir in the end pal.

I half expected it, if a girl says she has a bad attidue she's doubly a fuckhead. But why keep answering just to have a go so much.

I decided i'd just have fun with it and that I wouldn't really want to see her if she has this attitude straight up.

And from B the last few days i've been feeling unaffected by bs and strong. And was at the start, but honestly all that wore me down and i've started to feel a little crap. I should stop but something urged me to keep going. And I assume it was a test because she kept going.

The "you're such a shit" thing tells me it was, she went from all that to "you're such a shit" which is something girls say when you're teasing them and they like it. And it seems to be different, i'll just see where it goes.

But honestly girls like that, if it's like this just talking online then I wouldn't be able to stand being around her in person. But it's an experiment of the new attitude that come through from version B.

EDIT: I don't even know what's going on. After all that she's like "I'm your biggest nightmare" and I said "Should I be curious" and she just goes "I'm joking dude". It's kind of weird after all her abuse and she's STILL responding and actually not talking shit.

I stopped bothering with her, it wasn't any more abuse but just dumb like she's oblivious to flirting and half retarded. I'm still kind of interested in the whole dynamic since she abused me full on then after I just kept going and talking crap back she totally stopped talking kind of normally.

It felt good to be temporarily impervious to her bs, but it wore me down. That stuff is even harder to deal with in real life. Though the girls I end up with never have that attitude or act like that as they wouldn't last long with me. Sometimes I wonder if I have to put up with shit like that from girls who are more attractive, especially if they are younger. Not necessarily, I guess i'm just finding the crazy ones when this stuff happens, her profile was a red flag.

I'm kind of temped to keep going in case it possibly would end up with sex with an 18yo. But I don't enjoy her personality or anything so it would just be forcing it for that.

The other girl was weird, who I messaged her other profile that said the same stuff. Same age, but the photos were different, and she kept saying "oh nice" in both. But denied it when I called her out, and funnily enough the other profile then got deleted. But I was just like "So legit, funny the account with the same description disappeared after I said that. Cya.".

Funny after posting that her other account is deleted too.
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03-02-2017, 01:56 AM (This post was last modified: 03-02-2017 02:00 AM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
I don't know why i'm wanting to post tonight after not caring for a bit.

Basically what i've seen is B was starting to do something, but when I hit pushback from a girl the confidence and being centered started dropping. Though to be fair a girl acting like her I wouldn't have kept talking to in real life.

It feels like i'm being drawn to girls who are ***** crazy to teach me something. I usually wouldn't but this girl mentioned she's a feminist but had this photo with tight shorts and I messaged her (she's 18 too) and you can see the attitude straight through her response which isn't a surprise.

She said she doesn't want lifeguard pickup lines and i'm like "I'm fresh out of lifeguard pickup lines. But i'm curious if you've had to save anyone?

And I like those little shorts Wink"

She replies..

"Well I didn't want them anyway.
Yes.

Thanks."

I don't know if i'm inventing the attitude, but it seems like it. Though she actually did reply which is weird.

It feels like OE is sending me towards girls who will act full on so I can realize that it's okay or something. Because why am I messaging a feminist, just that in her profile proves she's mental. But i'll go with it and see where it ends up.

It makes sense that if I can deal with the crazy ones (and choose not to in the end) that I can deal better with normal girls that I actually like.

I'm honestly surprised she said thanks when I said "nice little shorts" and didn't go on about me objectifying her hahaha.
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03-02-2017, 03:12 AM
Post: #305
RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
I wouldn't even bother giving women validation online, especially if they don't put in effort in the reply to attempt to build some sort of rapport in return. They want you to "try" harder and "chase" them, I say **** that, not worth it. Go for the ones that give you something in return, like a question...or at least a sign of human life, not a robot.
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03-02-2017, 03:56 AM (This post was last modified: 03-02-2017 04:03 AM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Quote:I wouldn't even bother giving women validation online, especially if they don't put in effort in the reply to attempt to build some sort of rapport in return. They want you to "try" harder and "chase" them, I say **** that, not worth it. Go for the ones that give you something in return, like a question...or at least a sign of human life, not a robot.

Yes I agree, usually I do.

But at the moment it kind of feels like i'm being guided to do certain things, first the sending messages saying whatever I want, now messaging girls who I know will most likely act negatively. It's like on E2 where doing stuff like this helped my expression.

These few I have in the back of my head that nothing will happen, but it's mainly to push things and see the responses I get.

So I guess it's for some type of growth in the direction of DMSI. Because I know the feeling and it's similar to E2 of being guided to something then achieving growth from it that helped with normal girls that I liked.

I kind of can't get over how the one abusing me so much is talking to me normally now. I mean she isn't asking stuff herself but the whole vibe changed after I withstood all the crap. It's something I need to get my head around, but it feels like it's one of the realizations I need to have.
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03-02-2017, 02:01 PM (This post was last modified: 03-02-2017 02:08 PM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Last night before I went to bed I had the feeling things had opened up alot in my expression from the last few days.

Then these strong heavy feelings were coming up. Some felt really good, some were just alot of fear in my body.

I was in a twilight zone type feeling and it went on for a while. My mind was fighting either way. I fought for ages against my mind trying to let it go with the old annoying statement.. the fear got stronger and went to a certain point and it was like there was a hardcore fight between who I feel like I am and these new behaviours that i've been doing that are in the direction of DMSI.. then I couldn't stop it anymore and something shifted.

Again I felt like something was lost, but I still wonder if i've been misinterpreting this. I woke up thinking "maybe my baseline is higher" as with AM6 when I felt this kind of "snapback effect" like this, where good feelings built up then I felt then all of a sudden in a moment snap back, usually my baseline was higher.

And today I woke up thinking of some messages I sent thinking "that isn't me" and I was frustrated because I want to be like that.

But my baseline must have increased, because even though i'm feeling a bit like crap this morning, especially since last night to the feminist girl I said "You're just as delightful as someone I expected with shaved hair who is into feminist *****" and she went on a rant about me being way older and perving on her instantly and all this crap.. so along with all that fear that come up last night it affected me more than yesterday. But I still replied, don't even know why as I know it won't go anywhere and blocked her. But I also woke up not caring about messaging these few bitchy girls, like it's a waste of time, which it is past opening up my expression.

And I sent another message back to a girl that was sexual without even really thinking about it. So looks like something has held.

But I also have this bit of anxiety in my solar plexus and feel like crap.
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