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01-05-2017, 08:52 PM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
It's bad when it comes up without me wanting it to every time I start to notice something positive from a subliminal trying to get rid of it. It was fine when I chose to do sedona method and was doing it on what I chose to, but in this case it's not.
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01-05-2017, 09:03 PM (This post was last modified: 01-05-2017 09:06 PM by Benjamin.)
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Just got home from the gym. Only 2 girls there when I first got there, one was with a guy and the other has good body but she's a ***** idiot that I hate (back from when I used to work at the nightclub) so I totally ignored her even when she was doing abs near me. Interestingly though I noticed that when she finished she got up and stood there on her phone with her ass facing me right in my face basically. Like she just coincidentally stopped it there in my field of view and stood there for a while, not sure if it was a coincidence.

She has a nice ass, but I want nothing to do with her so I just looked at it a little haha.

The main thing to report is a shift in how I got along with guys. There is alot of guys I talk to at the gym, and some I just say hi to but never really have talked to. There was 2 of them there today and today after saying hi I just naturally started talking to them which was a good shift.

When I was finishing a woman come in, older and face not that good but a nice ass come in. She was waiting at the desk to be served and I stood behind her because I wanted to buy a protein bar. And she seemed a little nervous and gave me this look but stayed silent then looked away. Then when I talked to her she seemed pretty happy. Then the instructor took her to the treadmill.

It's interesting, possibly last night when I had all those feelings of drive for the gym then it seemed to disappear, even though it's not as strong possibly something 'integrated' a bit. As i'm noticing the girl i've been seeing doesn't seem weird today like she has been since starting DMSI.
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01-06-2017, 02:17 AM (This post was last modified: 01-06-2017 02:40 AM by Benjamin.)
Post: #63
RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Feeling sick again like I felt on the first or second day of DMSI. Again it could be explained that I started taking a new probiotic yesterday. But there's also some anxiety coming up. And something else.

Some weird sadness, and the best I can describe the other feeling it's kind of "I don't even know what I like any more" (specifically with girls).

Along with that thinking about how E2 mainly attracted girls that made me happier and were on the same wavelength, where now all of a sudden on DMSI I have no ***** idea what it's going to attract, don't really know what I like right now for some reason and also feel helpless like i'm not going to be able to attract any girls again.

Obviously some kind of healing. The anxiety is mainly an anxious and uncertain feeling in my chest/solar plexus area.

Shannon gave a few good responses about the girl i've been seeing on the DMSI discussion thread.

Quote:This is an external manifestation of proof that you are changing, Ben. You had her on E2 because she was on "that vibe" and now you're changing your vibe to something different, and she's responding to that according to how well it fits now.

When you start changing radio stations, you start getting static until you find one that "vibes" with your tuner...

Same thing is true for women. That you get results within terms of women is who is vibing on your frequency.

Quote:If you run DMSI and lose the interest of a woman, then...

DMSI has raised you above her, and she is no longer what you are currently vibing with. Now, you're vibing with someone/something higher, better, more advanced.

And remember, DMSI affects women according to how attracted you are, and women love to play this game called "shit testing" when they sense a man is increasing or has increased in value.

High value men pass these tests typically by shutting them down, and/or not putting up with them.

My thoughts about that is it seemed to happen so quick. And at the moment with that confusion it's kind of not knowing what 'level' i'm on right now with girls, a feeling of being stuck between levels.

Looking through tinder I noticed myself looking at different girls than usual and being interested in them, but I can't really describe it any more.. I assume i'll see more of it and make sense of it after a while.

But it rings true, it confuses me why a girl would shit test in that case instead of what she should do work harder to please you if you're increasing in value. Because the truth is if she really starts doing it past the taking forever to reply, like having a go at me and stuff the only effect it will have is to drive me away.

But right now I have no idea how to deal with what she has been doing, though I did have a thought earlier that it seems like she needs some kind of reassurance which is why she's doing it. We were getting into it sexually earlier then she told me "Mmm can't wait to see you tomorrow" and I just replied *kiss* and she hasn't replied and it was like 5 hours ago so that's what made me think she may have needed reassurance, but i'm not usually one to be like "Oh I can't wait to see you too".

So full of confusion, not knowing where I am right now are what is going on. She's still coming tomorrow, so I hope this mood passes or i'll be in a bad mood.

Interesting, I mentioned a girl while on E2 she rang me one night on POF and fears got in the way. Well sometime this week I messaged her again, she took days to reply and I haven't replied 2 days. Well she just sent me a message now saying "Hey there". Combined with the fact she tried to ring me at like 12 at night last time and she's messaging me this late.. maybe she wants some.

I have to try and relax and get over feeling sick and see where it goes. Other than feeling a little sick this time there isn't that same fear attached to it.

She's hinting "I'm going to the beach tomorrow, are you?". Haha i'll be with the othe girl tomorrow otherwise I would.

The other thing is where the last few nights I wanted to just keep working, tonight when all this other stuff is coming up I just don't feel like it. What do I feel like? I have no idea because I just can't focus on any 1 thing for long.
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01-06-2017, 02:45 AM (This post was last modified: 01-06-2017 02:54 AM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Another thing to note is my mentality seems to be going back to my old mentality. On E2 I was enjoying girls more as a person, wanting to talk to them and go places with them and such. Before anyone comments, of course it includes sex, but I also was more naturally just wanting to find out if the girl was suitable for me and someone i'd enjoy.

Well on DMSI i'm back to a mentality I had on AM and have had at other times. For example I was thinking what if the girl on POF invites me over tonight. And honestly the mood i'm in I don't think I could be bothered talking or muster the energy to hold a conversation.. I just don't care. I'd just want to go over there and **** her right then.

This mentality unfortunately seems a detriment, atleast it was in the past. The way I was on E2 where I was attracting girls I enjoy and finding the enjoyment in them, enjoying talking to them and other things and not JUST sex seemed to do better. This "I can't be *****, lets get to sex" doesn't seem to be the best one for success honestly.

I wonder why DMSI is bringing it back though, could it be that it's healing this pattern or that DMSI is tuning me back into this mentality. I have no idea.

Another example is going into meeting a girl or a 'date' thinking about sex seemed to have a negative effect. On E2 I actually went in wanting to learn if they were compatible, especially this current one and I was asking her if she was into certain stuff that i'm into because I wanted someone to share that with and go those places. And that went well.

Right now, say with this POF girl... I don't give a **** about what she's into, I just want to **** her. Unfortunately that attitude in the past only got me occasional results.

****.. she just replied and told me she's going to the beach ALONE tomorrow. And she was asking me if i'm going. Awesome, so she's wanting me to go with her.. pretty obvious hint. Shame about the timing though.

Not often a girl would goto the beach by herself, unless she wasn't really going by herself but was just saying that in the hope i'd be like "cool lets go together".
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01-06-2017, 03:03 AM
Post: #65
RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
You better take her up on that trip to the beach man
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01-06-2017, 03:37 AM (This post was last modified: 01-06-2017 04:14 AM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
I'm seeing this other girl tomorrow whos coming down on the train, otherwise I would. I got her number though. I'm gonna see what she says when I ask what she's doing tonight. Otherwise i'll see her another day.

EDIT: Interesting, we're messaging and I told her i'm a gentleman. Then i'm like "nah i'm evil you should watch out". She's like "depends what kind of evil you bring to the table, I might be encouraging".

And unusually I just come out with "well if on the table is where youd like it..."

I usually wouldn't send anything like that but it just happened. She's like "whoah where is thing going" so I said "You have a dirty mind young lady".

HER: Sorry but I can't be the only one thinking it.

ME: That's because girls are big perves. I'm tempted to expand doing her on the table, but after it just come out (I'm assuming autopilot) I had some "oh what am I doing" feelings come up and I feel weird about it now.

I just went with it and said "True I was talking about doing you on the table". Like the momentary "what am I doing" just relaxed.

From past experience it's not the best idea to do all this stuff before i've had sex with them. But somehow DMSI seemed to guide me to do so.
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01-06-2017, 04:24 AM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
It all depends on the girl, I guess. So maybe DMSI is giving you a good read on this one. Some might get jumpy/avoidant when you go with direct stuff like that (great lead in for the "I'm gonna do you on the table" line, BTW Big Grin), others will love it and jump *you* in response. Wink

Then again, it might be an indication that you're simply assuming that sex is a given... so it's like you've had sex with her already, hence the dirty, dirty talk. Big Grin
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01-06-2017, 03:17 PM (This post was last modified: 01-06-2017 03:48 PM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
I'm not sure, but here's a snippet from some more conversation. I've barely talked to her by the way before this, just a few messages.

I've had girls get a little sexual before, like during WM but this is more.

From a story I told her the subject of vampires come up.

ME: Are you telling me that you're a vampire who's going to suck my...
ME: blood.
HER: Hahaha no i'm not a lesbian (related to something else) and it may not be blood i'll be sucking.
HER: Woooah oh I didn't say that did I!? (Seems she was surprised herself that she come out with it.)
ME: I can handle that. And yes you did.. but don't worry it can be our dirty secret.
HER: Lol my secret is it's classes as my specialty.
ME: Well being such a gentleman how could I deprive you of enjoying your specialty.
HER: You won't know whats hit you.

Anyway, I did my listening for today in bed. Set my alarm for 6am so I could do my loops because i'll be with the other girl all day and most of tomorrow, so i'll have to do tomorrows loops late that day.

It seemed to make time go really slow, and I couldn't really sleep. I felt asleep briefly twice and had 2 dreams. One was a little disturbing and I can't remember the other.
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01-08-2017, 12:13 AM (This post was last modified: 01-08-2017 12:42 AM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
So she come down to see me yesterday, in person all was fine... so don't know what to think about how she's been with messaging.

There was a couple of little things where I wondered, but it could just be coincidental. Like a few things sexually and it seemed she didn't put as much effort into how she dressed. But either of those could just be coincidental. On the other side of that this weekend she packed NO underwear at all so the whole time wasn't wearing any. So that's a good thing on the sexual side, I mentioned it and she said "It's more fun that way".

I noticed I was a little more dominant sexually, and I felt I was expressing myself in different ways. Like I used to ask girls stuff like what attracted them to me, but weirdly during E2 I felt unable to ask those things or I didn't care, I don't know.. but there was something that stopped me. Well yesterday I brought it up and it was interesting. I first kissed her when we were in a shop and sat on a bed and she layed down, I layed down and kissed her. And we were talking about it and she said "I'm glad you did because I already was wanting to kiss you".

The best I can explain it when I was bringing up different questions than I was before and I noticed it even while I was doing so is that I didn't feel any different but that it felt natural doing it like it was normal. It sounds a little strange but it's the best way I can describe the feeling I had at the time. I consciously noticed the difference in what I was doing (e.g the questions) but didn't really consciously feel that different or that it was a struggle.

So here's the other thing. She was weird in messages, but something else different sexually in that usually we would get up, have a shower and i'd eat and we would go somewhere after that. Well today after the shower and eating she wanted sex again which I don't mind at all then she even seemed after that she wanted to stay in bed.

The other cool thing, the POF girl started messaging me yesterday when I was with her. I replied once and asked her how the beach was, she said she didn't go and I didn't reply again. Then today she said "I went to the river" and sent me a photo of her in her bikini. I didn't reply for hours after a few messages until I dropped the other girl off at the train station and she sent another message in the meantime.

Now we've organized to goto the beach friday, and even cooler when I said i'd meet her down the street she said "Ok i'll pick you up". I like it.

And I was talking about distracting her in the car by putting my hand on her thigh and she's like "hahaha maybe keep it g rated in the car, I haven't met you yet" but when I was like "Well i'm not a gentleman *puts hand on your thigh*" she seemed to get all flustered haha. I don't know if I will or not, i'll just go with what comes up that day. Again I wouldn't even usually say that, especially to a girl I haven't met, but I felt inspired to so went with it. It may be autopilot or NSFM, because when i'm saying it i'm like "I usually wouldn't say that and i'm not even sure if I should" but it's kind of just naturally coming out and i'm going with it. At the moment it doesn't totally feel comfortable I guess and sometimes after saying stuff i'm second guessing it a little.

Anyway, out in public it's hard to say if I noticed anything different cos it was just as I usually am with her, just not caring about other people and having fun. I did notice one or two looks from guys who seemed upset at my presence but I don't really care anymore and it's hard to say if it could be attributed to DMSI as it can happen sometimes anyway.

The other thing is I started having all these thoughts that there's no point doing DMSI.. I forget those thoughts now though and being tired from lack of sleep brings on different thoughts like that and makes me feel crap anyway. I think the gist of it was that there is certain ways I don't want to feel and thinking "DMSI won't really move me towards what I want".

Though there's evidence of that earlier in the week with that drive. So of course it's just a part of me trying to reist. Unfortunately that drive isn't obvious right now for the last few days, but i'm hoping the 'baseline' so to speak is higher so that tomorrow I will naturally just keep working on the things I started when the drive kicked in. Usually I don't on weekends because i'm doing stuff and am tired from that and need days off. So i'll see tomorrow.

EDIT: Oh and that guy sent another ***** weird meme picture that said "this is to notify you that our friendship contract for 2016-2017 has been rened. Send back if you accept?".

And her other friend who is also friends with him sent it too, a minute between them so they must have been hanging out at the time. But WTF. I ignored both of them after last time when I replied to him and nothing, and also the other friend who's a lesbian, i've met her once and that was like a month or more ago. What the **** is this shit, if you're actually friends with someone you don't send them that dumb shit.

I'm wondering if they will whinge to her that "Oh Ben didn't reply to our friendship contract" or something. WTF. I should have mentioned it to her today when I seen the messages.
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01-08-2017, 02:29 AM (This post was last modified: 01-08-2017 02:37 AM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
I can see my mindset getting more aggressive. I haven't had any situations in person where I can measure that, but just on my thoughts and what i'm commenting to people. A guy in a weight loss group is asking for advice because he's lost tons of weight and idiots (who are fat and have achieved nothing) from his work are talking shit.

And my first reply was to tell him point out to one of the guys that he ask him if he's insecure that you actually achieved it where he didn't. And theres all these women commenting "oh ignore it and it will go away" you know, turn the other cheek kind of thing. On E2 and mostly in the past I may have thought the same, and I can't say in practice in person yet but I do know that my very first thought was to tell him to confront that person which is a shift in my mindset that come up without hesitation.

Now that I think of it, today I noticed one of the guys who was glaring at me and seemed upset at my presence. I just kept looking at him for longer than usual without thinking then I caught myself doing it. I didn't notice at the time but looking back it seems to match the more aggressive mindset.

And in general tonight I can't focus on anything really. It's kind of like tired, my eyes are sore from tiredness but then I don't feel like going to bed but i'm kind of full of energy and don't want to goto bed. But I also don't know what to do with myself.

EDIT: Come to think of it, the tiredness was affecting me more earlier and it's likely that listening to DMSI and ending a few hours before bed is why I have these physical feelings like i'm tired (sore eyelids you get when tired) but I also feel full of energy. I haven't slept much the last 2 nights either. I also feel since starting DMSI I have more energy in general.
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01-08-2017, 03:15 PM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
(01-08-2017 02:29 AM)Benjamin Wrote:  I can see my mindset getting more aggressive. I haven't had any situations in person where I can measure that, but just on my thoughts and what i'm commenting to people. A guy in a weight loss group is asking for advice because he's lost tons of weight and idiots (who are fat and have achieved nothing) from his work are talking shit.

And my first reply was to tell him point out to one of the guys that he ask him if he's insecure that you actually achieved it where he didn't. And theres all these women commenting "oh ignore it and it will go away" you know, turn the other cheek kind of thing. On E2 and mostly in the past I may have thought the same, and I can't say in practice in person yet but I do know that my very first thought was to tell him to confront that person which is a shift in my mindset that come up without hesitation.

Most people hate change. When someone changes/loses weight/grows-a-pair/becomes MSI, there's going to be contention. Your buddy who lost weight is changing his social status, and being challenged. People will say all sorts of dumb shit to sabotage someone's success. Your aggressive mindset will likely better prepare you to confront those who will challenge you as you change and "beeecccooooome!"
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01-08-2017, 04:54 PM
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Yes I had the same thing when I was losing weight. Even a couple of people in the friendship group that I moved on from tried to find ways to sabotage me. One I even remember actually said something like he was going to sabotage me by making me eat stuff or something WTF.

Funny, I just had a woman trying to have a go at me on the same group because I told somebody that weight loss pills aren't a solution and she's like "Maybe try to be supportive of their journey to get healthy and not how they get there". I can already see from that response she's getting upset that i'm not buying into the myth of it.

And also after her next response i'm getting annoyed that she's passive aggressive and in a roundabout way trying to talk crap and pretend she isn't. Interesting, at this point i'm wondering if it's maybe this being unbalanced for me at the moment and that it needs to even out kind of like on AM.

I think maybe i'm just not going to reply to her right now and come back to it later. But what it is showing that even the way i'm perceiving peoples comments is fairly different. Especially compared to E2.
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01-08-2017, 09:48 PM (This post was last modified: 01-08-2017 10:39 PM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Still don't see any evidence that i'm projecting any sexual aura. And today at the gym was the perfect chance to see that and to be 'powered up'.

When in there a rowing team showed up, mostly girls in tight shorts. First thing is when i'm having these shifts and feeling more confident I tend to say things to people, yeah don't do that. There's a girl there i'm kind of friends with, who goes with her boyfriend and I talk to both of them heaps. She was like "look at the group coming in" and I said I was a bit distracted and straight away even though they were all sexy i'm like "the one in the pink shorts" and she instantly even though she seems to have no i'll will against me starts going "oh she looks about 12, she's probably younger than me" and other *****. I said "So..." as she definately wasn't, and she's still like "she's too young" and I said "well i'm already seeing someone 10 years younger than me" and she kind of went quiet and got a weird look haha.

Then when the girl turned around she's like "ok she looks older than me, you're allowed to go for her". Huh, as if my choice depends on what you say. And I made a joke about pointing at something and flexing my muscles and she's going to her boyfriend "Ben's being creepy" as a joke and he's like "when is he not being creepy". What the ****... I haven't really ever talked to girls in front of them or anything as they haven't been around at the time, so this is just based on some ***** judgement (societal programming) and stupid guilt based programming they are trying to throw at me. The guy is cool but you can tell he's a bit of a pussy when i've told him some stuff how i've dealt with girls ***** me around and he's been like "errr".

So don't talk about it, or even mention it to so called 'well meaning' people even if they seem to be friends because they will come out with their own *****.

With the increased confidence though that just flows out and I want to say something, where usually in the past I would have just looked and said nothing. But lesson learnt, or relearnt I should say that with that the other people bring their own *****. Unless it's someone like my mate who moved to the city who I used to meet girls with.

Anyway, though I don't feel i'm projecting the aura I can say there is some other shifts. So the girl I picked out and mentioned, I was focused on finding an opportunity to talk to her. I briefly said something to a few other girls but didn't care even though they were all damn sexy. Like my mind was "that's the most attractive one to you, who cares about the others" where in the past i'd be like "ahh all of them". I did notice when I said something to other girls I got kind of funny looks from a few guys in the group (jealousy or something but it barely registered, i'll mention that in a minute.)

I finished my workout and went to the toilet and when I come out she was sitting on a bench and I went up and talked to her. I felt a little awkward and talked briefly and left. I definately felt all this pressure and more pressure when another girl was giving me a funny look and come over to her.

But it was good that I was able to filter out the other girls and know the one I want and actually go talk to her instead of trying to talk to all of them like I may have wanted to in the past.

As for the guys in the group. They were physically there of course but basically to me they didn't exist. Like I was focused more on the sexy girls because that is what I care about and I don't give a **** about random guys so I just tuned them out, didn't even acknowledge them and ignored them completely. I didn't talk to any of the girls long enough to really see, but other than just some funny looks they seemed to avoid me when I was doing so.

So I can't say that nothing is happening because instead of shutting down at the sheer amount of sexy girls in that situation I focused on the one I wanted and actually did talk to her so that is an improvement.

But it would have been awesome in a situation like that to be fully projecting the aura to see what would happen. I can't say I know what that feels like because I don't think i've felt any of the aura so far in 3.0.1.

2.0 and 2.4 were more obvious at this point. 2.0 in that I did it one of the nights I did security and had interesting things happen and then when I went to a shopping centre that weekend it was obvious in that I was getting ghosted and I felt something weird. 2.4 on the night I did security was definately obvious in how I had a few girls hitting on me and being more sexual.

3.0.1 definately more subtle, but it'll be interesting to see what happens when it does power up for me.

I've had no increased hunger at all by the way, not sure if that means anything or not. In fact a few times i've had a little less hunger. I have had increased cravings again for protein bars though.

EDIT: Well this is interesting, and the only explanation is whatever i'm projecting from DMSI. On this same weight loss group a woman come in advertising ***** weight loss wraps. And people were having a go at her for advertising, I said a few thing to her and she full on abused them, and was like "atleast I can fit through a door" and stuff but my posts that weren't complimentary at all she 'liked' them and sent zero abuse my way where she abused all the women there replying to her. Has to be something to that.

She struck me as this uptight bitch who has looks and just gives a really bad attitude to everyone, and it was confirmed when she started replying and I hated her straight away. Though she didn't show any of that attitude in her replies to me, and despite her good looks i'd want nothing to do with her and she called the other women ugly and I just said "the only thing ugly here is your attitude" and she liked the post haha.
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01-09-2017, 04:11 AM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
(01-08-2017 09:48 PM)Benjamin Wrote:  Still don't see any evidence that i'm projecting any sexual aura. And today at the gym was the perfect chance to see that and to be 'powered up'.

When in there a rowing team showed up, mostly girls in tight shorts. First thing is when i'm having these shifts and feeling more confident I tend to say things to people, yeah don't do that. There's a girl there i'm kind of friends with, who goes with her boyfriend and I talk to both of them heaps. She was like "look at the group coming in" and I said I was a bit distracted and straight away even though they were all sexy i'm like "the one in the pink shorts" and she instantly even though she seems to have no i'll will against me starts going "oh she looks about 12, she's probably younger than me" and other *****. I said "So..." as she definately wasn't, and she's still like "she's too young" and I said "well i'm already seeing someone 10 years younger than me" and she kind of went quiet and got a weird look haha.

Then when the girl turned around she's like "ok she looks older than me, you're allowed to go for her". Huh, as if my choice depends on what you say. And I made a joke about pointing at something and flexing my muscles and she's going to her boyfriend "Ben's being creepy" as a joke and he's like "when is he not being creepy". What the ****... I haven't really ever talked to girls in front of them or anything as they haven't been around at the time, so this is just based on some ***** judgement (societal programming) and stupid guilt based programming they are trying to throw at me. The guy is cool but you can tell he's a bit of a pussy when i've told him some stuff how i've dealt with girls ***** me around and he's been like "errr".

So don't talk about it, or even mention it to so called 'well meaning' people even if they seem to be friends because they will come out with their own *****.

With the increased confidence though that just flows out and I want to say something, where usually in the past I would have just looked and said nothing. But lesson learnt, or relearnt I should say that with that the other people bring their own *****. Unless it's someone like my mate who moved to the city who I used to meet girls with.

Anyway, though I don't feel i'm projecting the aura I can say there is some other shifts. So the girl I picked out and mentioned, I was focused on finding an opportunity to talk to her. I briefly said something to a few other girls but didn't care even though they were all damn sexy. Like my mind was "that's the most attractive one to you, who cares about the others" where in the past i'd be like "ahh all of them". I did notice when I said something to other girls I got kind of funny looks from a few guys in the group (jealousy or something but it barely registered, i'll mention that in a minute.)

I finished my workout and went to the toilet and when I come out she was sitting on a bench and I went up and talked to her. I felt a little awkward and talked briefly and left. I definately felt all this pressure and more pressure when another girl was giving me a funny look and come over to her.

But it was good that I was able to filter out the other girls and know the one I want and actually go talk to her instead of trying to talk to all of them like I may have wanted to in the past.

As for the guys in the group. They were physically there of course but basically to me they didn't exist. Like I was focused more on the sexy girls because that is what I care about and I don't give a **** about random guys so I just tuned them out, didn't even acknowledge them and ignored them completely. I didn't talk to any of the girls long enough to really see, but other than just some funny looks they seemed to avoid me when I was doing so.

So I can't say that nothing is happening because instead of shutting down at the sheer amount of sexy girls in that situation I focused on the one I wanted and actually did talk to her so that is an improvement.

But it would have been awesome in a situation like that to be fully projecting the aura to see what would happen. I can't say I know what that feels like because I don't think i've felt any of the aura so far in 3.0.1.

2.0 and 2.4 were more obvious at this point. 2.0 in that I did it one of the nights I did security and had interesting things happen and then when I went to a shopping centre that weekend it was obvious in that I was getting ghosted and I felt something weird. 2.4 on the night I did security was definately obvious in how I had a few girls hitting on me and being more sexual.

3.0.1 definately more subtle, but it'll be interesting to see what happens when it does power up for me.

I've had no increased hunger at all by the way, not sure if that means anything or not. In fact a few times i've had a little less hunger. I have had increased cravings again for protein bars though.

EDIT: Well this is interesting, and the only explanation is whatever i'm projecting from DMSI. On this same weight loss group a woman come in advertising ***** weight loss wraps. And people were having a go at her for advertising, I said a few thing to her and she full on abused them, and was like "atleast I can fit through a door" and stuff but my posts that weren't complimentary at all she 'liked' them and sent zero abuse my way where she abused all the women there replying to her. Has to be something to that.

She struck me as this uptight bitch who has looks and just gives a really bad attitude to everyone, and it was confirmed when she started replying and I hated her straight away. Though she didn't show any of that attitude in her replies to me, and despite her good looks i'd want nothing to do with her and she called the other women ugly and I just said "the only thing ugly here is your attitude" and she liked the post haha.


The girl with the bf couldnt stand you looking at other women younger than her and she wanted you to keep giving her the attention she was getting from you.

I have seen this sentence of "she is so young " to be used in today's so called modern society as a shaming technique so that the men do not go for the younger, fresher and tigher poon and instead go for more "age appropriate" and saggy titted and loose beef flaps type of women because it is more acceptable.

More bs being added to an already ***** up world view in which going for fertile women who are sexier and in better shape is abnormal but if ryan gosling goes for eva mendes then that is celebrated like "you go girl" or even that young guy with the old withered and downright average woman; oh yeah that worldview is acceptable but shame on you Ben for desiring the sexy young 18 year old. oh YEah!

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The bf has to agree with the gf because she is the only poon he is probably getting and doesnt want to "ruin" is how I see it.
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01-09-2017, 02:55 PM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Thanks man, I always like reading your view on it.

Quote:The girl with the bf couldnt stand you looking at other women younger than her and she wanted you to keep giving her the attention she was getting from you.

I didn't think of that, but I did find it confusing why she would say that. When I see them she does light up and smile and say hi excitedly, he says hi but more in a just going through the motions way. And she always gives big smiles and stuff when talking to me.

Yes it's ***** how they celebrate the older women with younger guys but as soon as it's the other way around then talk shit. I don't care either way, if i'm free to date younger girls which I am then they can date much older women if they want.

I guess I just have to accept that it's not going to go away and to go for it anyway, and to not mention it to certain people. I don't think I should have mentioned I was seeing a girl 10 years younger than me because it just gives them more ammo, but with what you've said who knows how she will respond to knowing that.
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01-09-2017, 03:04 PM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Recently a 26 y/o woman was telling me that a 21 y/o woman was too young for me. That I should go for someone her age (26 y/o) or older. Like you said... "Huh, as if my choice depends on what you say."

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01-09-2017, 05:21 PM (This post was last modified: 01-09-2017 05:24 PM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Yep it's retarded, I have no ***** idea why she went to the extreme like "she looks 12" when she didn't at all. Well actually I do, that's just part of the guilt thing. But such a dumbass statement is taking it to the extreme.

Interesting she started with that though. Also I just realized i've never made comments on girls around her. And when I said "I'm a little distracted" she looked and said me too, then laughed like "just joking" and when the girl turned around she's like "ok she looked younger from behind" so I was teasing her like "why were you looking at her from behind" haha.

On another note, the focus/drive isn't the same as it was. I'm still continuing some of the work I started when it kicked in on my own stuff but unlike being driven and focused before it's more scatterbrained, not being able to focus and it's not flowing. I really hope it kicks back in like before soon, it would help me with being patient waiting for the sexual results if the drive I was starting to get to work on other things stuck around.

Again i'm having thoughts of "I chose the wrong program, this won't help me be independent or get things done to help me do so.. I should have done AM6".

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01-09-2017, 09:27 PM
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Dude, the girl wants you. I used to have a client who'd tell me that the girl I was going after was "just a baby." The client eventually tried to rape me, literally, when I asked her out. That "baby" is now my wife.
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01-09-2017, 10:24 PM (This post was last modified: 01-09-2017 10:35 PM by Benjamin.)
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Haha now that you mention it that makes sense. She is sexy but I never thought of it because i'm kind of friends with her boyfriend. Well more like someone I talk to at the gym all the time, not really friends. That might explain her weirdness, because if she didn't care then why say that stuff to me.

If she tries to rape me, then I will just enjoy it. Wink
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Atta boy, Ben , that's good *****
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