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The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
01-03-2017, 04:03 AM (This post was last modified: 01-03-2017 04:17 AM by Benjamin.)
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So I was sitting around, I put a show on then got bored and turned it off. Same with a movie, and a game.

Then I was like "I want to work". And I went and wrote and published an article.

It's 11pm, my normal bedtime and I want to stay up and work more. This reminds me of Ultra Motivation though not quite as strong as that yet. But i'm liking it. This hasn't happened in a long time. And i'm more interested and enjoying working more than trying to watch something or play a game. What is this demonry!

Again I hesitated posting this cos I don't want to jinx it. But it had to be reported, and it's definately DMSI allowing this new drive.

I may regret this tomorrow but i'm going to stay up an hour extra to work.
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01-03-2017, 06:19 PM (This post was last modified: 01-03-2017 06:24 PM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Walking Sausage (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Got up earlier today and cleaned more of my computer room before I even had a shower then I did more after that. And I usually hate cleaning, some stuff is a bit all over the place because i'm not finished yet but i've got rid of alot of crap.

Also things I never threw out and held onto for no apparent reason, like 2 big boxes full of packing material. 1 when I got my new pc and the other my pc before that which was like 4 or so years ago. For some weird reason I felt like I couldn't throw it out because I could need it, which my dad always said "I can't throw it out I might need it one day" and keeps lots of crap. Also threw out other things I was holding onto for no apparent reason like old gym journals, which are interesting but when I was hesitating I realized that i'd rather look forward to better things than look back at that.

And done more work than in a while on my own business, though I got to a point where i'm feeling weird and confused and not sure where to go next. At one point I got a little depressed which would usually stop me alltogether but I kept working and it passed. Now when I tried to work more my head is hurting a little.

When my loops finish in about 10 minutes i'll goto the gym and i'll feel better after that.

I think some of the depression may be that I feel this girl is fading away more. I have no idea whether it's because I said no to being her boyfriend or that I stopped E2 and am doing DMSI and it's the change in energy and maybe the love energy E2 has was what she was responding to.. I don't know. But I did actually meet her after I did the 2 days of DMSI 2.4 and took the week off, the next weekend was when I met her. So I don't know.

The other thing could be that my deservingness is increasing yet again, which I feel it is subtly and she may be responding to that weirdly. I guess i'll see on the weekend if she comes down which she is meant to.

I also had this cute girl try to add me on facebook, I don't know if it's a spammer or what but she does look familiar. When it first come up the thought of "It may be a DMSI manifestation" come into my mind. But I have no idea. I just added her to see where I would have usually just deleted it. She doesn't look like a spammer and i'm pretty good at identifying them.
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01-03-2017, 08:29 PM (This post was last modified: 01-03-2017 08:45 PM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Walking Sausage (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Very little from girls at the gym, and there was a few attractive ones. Interestingly though the one I was the most attracted to I was drawn to talk to. She didn't even look at me or anything, but I was using the skipping rope and she was there with her friend, i'm like "do you wanna play jumprope girls?" her friend was like "no" grumpily, but the one i'm talking about smiled and laughed then I said something else when I went back past. I can't say I noticed a huge amount except for her smiling and laughing and she didn't stay to talk. But she did seem friendly where the other one didn't even though the other one usually talks to me.

So it was kind of like it drew me towards the one I liked the most. I also enjoyed looking at her ass when she was bent over doing rows, but it didn't seem like she was doing it just for me in this case though somehow where I sat to rest facing the mirror her ass was facing the mirror perfectly so I could see, coincidence or not I don't know. But when I moved to do other things and there was other guys behind she still did it the same way.

As for my workout the best way I can put it is "The Beast Is Back". After going through the motions for ages, especially during E2 where I could barely be bothered at the gym, i'm focused, driven and smashing it again. And i'm going to the bootcamp class tomorrow night most likely for extra. I've not had that urge ever even when I was pretty driven in the gym.

And my journal name was a good laugh, but i'm changing the name that better signifies where DMSI is starting to take me.

I won't lie, I get a little annoyed at not getting the attention from girls. But honestly if I look at what is shifting and the drive i'm starting to get in other areas then something good is happening. I want those changes to build, increase and get stronger.. the drive and focus and inspiration along with the attention from girls when that starts happening more.

Some of this drive in other areas is what i'd hoped for from E2. I'm starting to feel like I made the right choice in DMSI.

(But remind me I said this when I get resistance and am whinging that I shouldn't have done DMSI haha.)

EDIT: Oh and one thing I realized. There was another girl there who i've liked for ages. I talked to her a few times when I was doing security and she was friendly then stopped talking to me and ignored me. I was getting annoyed she wasn't looking or anything and kind of ignored her. But when I left I had the realization that sometimes I don't ignore girls like that because i'm honestly doing something else like working out, but instead I was ignoring her out of fear and insecurity.
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01-04-2017, 04:00 AM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Weird. I dont knkw whether to attribute this to DMSI or E2 or what but it does show how im different.

I messaged an old friend that I dont see much anymore. Asking if he wanted ald monitor as I was cleaning up. I kind of had this feeling of looking forward to seeing him. His reply annoyed me.. not because he didnt want the monitor but because of the fakeness and insincerity of it. It hot me in that moment that was how he always used to talk.. especially when he was kind of giving shit.

I noticed it a little when I seen him ages ago maybe before E2 but this time it was stand out obvious and I hated it. I guess that settles it that ive lost another friend in this process as he didnt reply after it and after I noticed the fakeness I lost interest in seeing him.

Still a little confused about this girl in that shes now taking 3 or 4 hours to answer which she never has until yesterday. Id say some is what is shifting in me from DMSI and part of that is ive told myself it may be over soon but that if shes in the way of me getting to my goals and moving forward it may be better.

But I had another thought as she only reallu started being different yesterday when she was hanging out with the friend who sends dumb shit then doesnt reply that I mentioned and his gf.

First to know their dynamic.. I couldnt believe this shit. Well they have been together like a month. Today he posts a photo of an incredibly shit looking tattoo he got today. She commented and it turns out its of a picture she drew. After a ***** month and its a shit picture.. what a ***** joke.

Anyway with that and since she went more weird yesterday im thinking maybe they are filling her head with dumb shit or the girl is telling her to play stupid games cos I said no to being her bf to get me to chase as there was none of this shit before.

Cant be sure but if I do see her this weekend ill see what I can discover.
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01-04-2017, 05:58 AM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Are you listening to the hybrid track?
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01-04-2017, 09:24 AM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
(01-01-2017 04:55 PM)Benjamin Wrote:  Oh ****, do you remember those "Oh i'm looking for (whoever) please tag him?" with a really ugly photo? Going around recently. It'd be funny to send one of those with his name hahaha.

Weird you mentioned that.

I recently reactivated my Facebook account after 6 months of being off it. I checked my notifications to find I was tagged by a girl in one of those photos. "I'm looking for (myname) he owes me a licky licky".

I was tagged in it (somehow?) 2 weeks ago whilst with a deactivated account, by a really obese girl who cleans the local McDonalds. I just found it so creepy and bizarre. haven't even seen or spoken to her in ages either.
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01-04-2017, 09:30 AM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
What happened to "The Walking Sausage"?

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01-04-2017, 10:24 AM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
(01-04-2017 09:30 AM)Zane Wrote:  What happened to "The Walking Sausage"?

If you'd take the time to read Ben's posts...
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01-04-2017, 03:40 PM (This post was last modified: 01-04-2017 03:43 PM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
All those funny spelling mistakes in the last post, I used my phone to post it in bed.

Quote:Are you listening to the hybrid track?

Yep hybrid ocean surf.

Quote:What happened to "The Walking Sausage"?

I'm still a walking sausage in spirit.

Quote:Weird you mentioned that.

I recently reactivated my Facebook account after 6 months of being off it. I checked my notifications to find I was tagged by a girl in one of those photos. "I'm looking for (myname) he owes me a licky licky".

I was tagged in it (somehow?) 2 weeks ago whilst with a deactivated account, by a really obese girl who cleans the local McDonalds. I just found it so creepy and bizarre. haven't even seen or spoken to her in ages either.

Hahaha usually it's mates doing it for a joke. Maybe she likes you cos it's a little strange. But usually if you're deactivated you won't show up for anyone.
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01-04-2017, 03:52 PM (This post was last modified: 01-04-2017 05:29 PM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
I woke up today and looked out the window, and I was like "Hey something looks different".

And I went and stood out in the sun. Usually I eat breatkfast in front of my computer mindlessly but today I decided I was going to sit outside in the sun and fresh air and eat breakfast. And I also ate less, I don't know if that was that I wasn't distracted and was more paying attention to my body.

Sounds like a small thing, but i've never done that before. Combined with looking out the window and things looking different it seems something shifted.

It seems my theory of the girl being weird hoping i'd chase her may have been true, probably from advice from the housemates girlfriend. I say this because I get the distinct impression that the housemates girlfriend is quite manipulative and dodgy and pretty 'dero' (we will see if you guys know what I mean, it's an Australian term haha)

Because after she took so long to reply yesterday I just didn't reply at all and today I get a message like "Morning sexy".

Oh damn. Could what i'm about to mention be the 'Auto Training' Shannon?

Basically before I was imagining a scenario where she come down on saturday then was trying to control me by being like "no sex unless you'll be my boyfriend" and naturally in my head the scenario ended with me dropping her back off at the train station and saying "sex is not a weapon or a bargaining tool, it's simply for mutual pleasure and if you're going to use it as the first thing then you'll have to find another guy who will put up with that shit". And this was combined with full intention of if she did pull something like that... that it is exactly what i'd do.

Interesting.

Also I had a dream that wasn't intense but it still disturbed me cos it was weird.

A second dream that involved the 'alpha' guy of the friendship group I moved on from during AM6, can't remember specifics of the dream though.

And I also had a wet dream, though I don't remember an actual dream being connected to it. That's a good sign sexual energy is building because I don't have alot of those anymore.

EDIT: ***** headphones seem to be playing up. If the plug moves slightly then it goes quieter and I have to play with it to get the proper volume. So this may be having a negative effect on my listening. I don't know if it's my headphones or the fact they are connected to the ipod because they don't seem to do it when I plug them into my computer speakers.
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01-04-2017, 06:16 PM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Very well could be SATT

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01-04-2017, 09:40 PM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
From a couple of interactions with girls, it seems like they are a little taken aback or confused. Some atleast. In the supermarket, 3 girls were standing at checkouts waiting for customers. I went and said "are you all waiting for customers" and one got all happy like "yeah we are" but the one closest went to her checkout so I went to that one. I said "sorry I don't have 3 items so you can each have one" and the same girl laughed at that happily.

The one that served me seemed weird and quiet and shy.

I also had an urge to goto another town that's close to have a coffee and walk around instead of my town where I usually do. I was drawn to 3 girls in bikinis who were swimming and walked over there, but they seemed to be with a family. Then the rest left and there was 2 of them laying behind the toilet block on their towel. I walked past and said "you aren't going to get a tan that way" and the initial reaction I got seemed like they were going to ignore me, and the look on their face I thought that and I just kept walking (fear) but then one answered and seemed pretty happy and then I noticed some giggles. So I guess in reality it was more them not knowing how to respond and having to compose themselves.

But fear told me "oh i'm being ignored" and made me keep walking. But interestingly they were the only attractive girls by themselves and I was drawn towards them. Well there was a group of 4 others but that was a bit much at once.

It seems old people are the ones responding the most. When I got my coffee an old guy drinking wine started talking to me, asking if I was down on holiday and if I like fishing and such and seemed disappointed when I got my coffee and shook his hand and left. And when I went into a craft type shop the old lady working just started at me seemingly not knowing what to do until I said hi to her...

I didn't bang her though....

Hahaha.. I still don't feel like i'm projecting much different from my perspective but some of the reactions say that I am. But it's more the 'easier' people first for lack of better word like old people and such.
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01-05-2017, 12:32 AM (This post was last modified: 01-05-2017 12:43 AM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
I'm liking this new drive for fitness. Just went to bootcamp class, it's full on. I was so glad when it was over and it's only half an hour. It's basically circuits of things with like 20 seconds rest, which lessens as you go along and a little more rest after each cycle of all of the exercises.

So apart from my normal workouts I plan to do 1 of 3 classes a week to alternate it and keep it fresh. And the classes are pretty full on. And there's girls at them too. Only 2 older woman and a younger one who was unattractive, but i'm not sorely there for that. One of the older women wasn't too bad and was next to me and kept giving me looks as if to say "this is hard" and smiles when I looked over. I talked to her briefly at the end.

And 2 of them are like "you should come to another class".

The main point it's awesome going from "I can't really be ***** with working out" which was most of E2, to getting the drive back plus even more than before.

And on another note, this cleaning i'm doing has reached pretty far. I've mentioned before that I believe the sudden desire to clean means a mental shift, as i've done it several times both during subliminals and during other methods i've done in the past and usually it goes with a mental shift.

But usually it's just cleaning up a little bit. Well on DMSI it's way deeper cleaning so to speak. As well as the other stuff i've thrown out that I never thought I would, today I started on looking through hundreds of old cd's i've burnt, whether it was music cd's or things i've backed up in the past like ebooks and audio and am starting to throw alot of them out, and cutting the ones with possible sensetive information with scissors. Throwing these out is even more unexpected than throwing that other stuff out as I always thought I had to keep them all and they have been piling up for years and I never wanted to get rid of it.

So if i've made shifts in the past and started cleaning, but only been cleaning 'surface' stuff like old notebooks and pieces of paper and this time i'm cleaning much much more, like old cd's and other things i'd never have thought i'd throw out I hope it points to a much deeper and comprehensive clearing/internal shift. And i'd say it does because though there's programming around 'keeping your place clean incase you have girls over for sex' I don't think it's that because my computer room I never take girls into, so instead I believe it does show what the clearing/healing is potentially doing though i'm not fully aware of what it really is.

Not even E2 did this, nowhere near. I'm not sure if I did any cleaning like this during E2 even just 'surface' cleaning as i'm calling it.

EDIT: Oh and on an interesting sidenote. I had an intution to help after the bootcamp workout to have water with lemon and himalayan salt. I've done both seperate and know the benefits, but something urged me to do so. And I searched it up specifically after having it and it turns out i'm onto something. Interesting.
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01-05-2017, 12:39 AM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Hey Ben... guess what. I haven't implemented the direct logistics programming that would point you to "Clean your house/car/office" yet. That is pure Optimus Engine. It's giving you a demo of the difference in power between E2 (the first 5.5G sub) and DMSI 3.0.1 (the latest DMSI sub). Quite a difference indeed. Roll out!

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01-05-2017, 01:20 AM (This post was last modified: 01-05-2017 01:29 AM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Interesting, that's cool.. so it's definately what I thought it was then, more a show of the internal shift as in the past but deeper.

I had so much doubt around doing DMSI and some fear, but i'm very glad I started it now. 2.0 and 2.4 didn't do these things with drive and getting things done and I love this result from 3.0.1

On another note, i'm getting ***** argumentative again similar to AM and some of WM in the later Stages where AM programming is reintroduced, where I wanted to argue with feminists and such. I didn't seek it out this time, a friend on facebook posted something and then started getting accused of being sexist for literally just pointing out something a feminist said and that he made it up. I searched and it was something actually said.

And the woman trying to attack me over it had no argument at all other than being like "ooh quotation marks" when I wrote the word 'sexist' has lost it's meaning when you attribute anything you don't like to it.

Anyway, I wrote responses to her but then decided "I'm wasting my time" and deleted them.

But it's a distinct difference to E2 where I didn't care about arguing or anything to this, but also good I was able to stop myself and not bother in the end cos it was a waste of time unlike AM i'd keep arguing.

And the show of annoyance at that stuff shows that i'm getting more in touch with masculinity again like back on AM. But it seems more refined on DMSI.
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01-05-2017, 02:56 AM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
When you start realizing that it's a waste of time and energy to argue with SJWs, you are making good progress. It means you value your time too much to waste it on stupid shit. Arguing logic to the illogical is always going to fail. They just do not comprehend logic.

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01-05-2017, 04:00 PM (This post was last modified: 01-05-2017 04:01 PM by Benjamin.)
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I feel that last night I hit upon something to derail it a little (a fear or such I guess.)

I mentioned how my mind always tries to use sedona statements to let go of things when I notice positive results. I'm noticing that lessening on DMSI actually, like i'll notice it starting then can stop it.

Well the other thing I was doing was turning the statements around to "can I allow DMSI to work?" instead of a statement of releasing.

Well last night I was feeling really pumped about working out even after doing a full on bootcamp, then it started to try to come up and I changed it to "Can I allow DMSI to work" and still the same seeming release happened as the other statement where how I was feeling kind of disappeared.

Today I woke up really *****, like i'd been run hit by a bus as they say. I feel a little better after being up for a while, but that same drive isn't there. Before the feelings disappeared I was pumped like "I'm getting up earlier to clean and work" and today i'm like "ahh". So i'm assuming that those good feelings were coming up then it hit upon a fear or something. Because i've been having thoughts of "I can't be bothered with all this stuff i've been doing" (work, cleaning, etc).

To be fair similar things happened during AM6 before my mind seemed to be trying to release it. Like I remember driving and feeling really Alpha for a while and having all these thoughts about how i'd react in different situations that way then it all just seemed to disappear in that moment. I did notice back then whenever that happened my 'baseline' seemed to have increased so hopefully that's the case. Though now because of what my mind brings up I don't seem to be able to let the good feelings stay there as long.

I still have the idea of cleaning more in my mind, but i'm not being driven to do so. It's more like "ok I guess i'll do more".
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01-05-2017, 04:30 PM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
I wonder if Shannon can make a suggestion to prevent that Sedona release from occurring bc that's frightening and frustrating.
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01-05-2017, 05:26 PM (This post was last modified: 01-05-2017 05:29 PM by Benjamin.)
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Yes it's very frustrating. It's been happening since sometime in AM6 and I have zero idea why it started coming up or why I haven't been able to stop it. And it's got worse to the point usually whenever I notice any positive emotion or change coming up it tries to do it.

Though as I said it's lessening a bit from DMSI so i'm hoping it can deal with it, and I also feel that way of sabotage is having less effect than it was on other programs which is good. And it may be just the way my mind is manifesting something using a familiar method I used to study.

Anyway, definately being more argumentative and calling out things. Someone posted a video of a woman who was very overweight and who worked out 100 days in a row! She looks so much happier in the video and lost a good amount of weight and I commend her for it.

This idiot comes on who is fat himself, and from his photos just looks like a dero drunk guy and says "who cares, she's still fat" and I called him out on that..

And seriously.. he calls me a "SJW pussy" for that hahahahahaha... too much red pill buddy, again that shows me the damage red pill can do and how it can **** people up. Obviously i'm far from that, and just for me supporting an overweight person who was dedicated to workout 100 days in a row and lose a good amount of weight! WTF.

The main point is, I no longer can sit and ignore things like that. On E2 I didn't bother, but on DMSI i'm just pulled to call people like this out on their crap.

And to tell the truth I like it.
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01-05-2017, 07:56 PM
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RE: The Beast Is Back! (DMSI 3.0.1a)
Can I ask, why is Sedona releasing necessarily a bad thing?
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