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DMSI 3.01A - Back To The Grind
01-10-2017, 11:38 AM (This post was last modified: 01-10-2017 11:38 AM by Bookstacks DC737.)
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RE: DMSI 3.01A - Back To The Grind
Last night was my first night not taking sleep medication.

The 3 hours of Muay Thai and some of the supplements I take took care of providing me a restful sleep. Definitely ready to get off this stupid medication and experience DMSI at it's fullest power.

Dream:

My dream was me in a very dark and warm area of my unconscious and I was laying down for a session of Undoing (Google it, it's awesome) and the guy who previously ran my sessions was telling me to slow everything down. Something about my Kundalini producing mini-orgasms and slowly building into a huge wave of orgasm. How that energy was moving up my spine and clearing me of any blocks and stuck patterns. Felt completely warm, comfortable and aware.

So I'm guessing the dream has something to do with the euphoria effects of DMSI, which I haven't experienced in quite a while due to my meds.
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01-10-2017, 05:44 PM
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RE: DMSI 3.01A - Back To The Grind
Getting ready for my kickboxing class.

Ran 3 loops of A, almost completely un-interrupted (thanks Pops Wink )

The medication I was on was effecting DMSI especially by lowering my cognitive processing speeds. Whenever I'd finish my loops I always felt "backed up" in a sense, not to mention the fact that this medication was contributing heavily to Erectile Dysfunction Dodgy

Not so today.

Ran the loops today which sent me into a frenzy of trying to finish a project and in and out of sexy daydreams. Took a 30 minute nap where I was half conscious after the loops finished. Woke up with a lot of energy.

Afterwards I sent messages to all 11 of my Tinder Matches that I haven't spoken to. Some combination of "what's up" and a random GIF. My internet speeds have been slowed down so I literally have no idea what images I've sent, I just sent them Tongue
Much better than the week of agonizing I had over what I should say. There's always more and more women in these college towns, so it's an eternal f*ck it.

I also got to cleaning. My apartment isn't particularly messy, and it's certainly much cleaner than before 3.01, but I had become a bit lazy recently in maintaining it.

Also I have to set a reminder to text S and keep what we have going in between being able to see each other. I've all but ignored her since our last date.

All good stuff, means I'm executing at least some of the script.

I'm really looking forward to how being off medication will effect the autopilot and my kickboxing class today. Yesterday was really cool with the autopilot functioning as I learned and helping along that process. Today can only get better!
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01-10-2017, 08:23 PM
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RE: DMSI 3.01A - Back To The Grind
Yeah in a weird way I think dimsee is pushing me to not use modafinil as much as I was. I think it contributes an unusual tax to my brain processing on 3.0.1, despite being used for mental clarity.

Seems I feel much better (on dimsee) when I don't modulate my neurotransmitters with meds....

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01-10-2017, 08:45 PM (This post was last modified: 01-10-2017 09:55 PM by Bookstacks DC737.)
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RE: DMSI 3.01A - Back To The Grind
There's a difference between having energy and being happy. The thought came at me very clearly that I'm not particularly happy today - but I have a lot of energy. I think the two got associated mostly because being depressed robs one of energy.

Kickboxing class was Okay. The healing takes precedence with A so there wasn't that ease I felt with B. Or it could be a number of things, who knows.

Edit: dimsee, dimsee, dimsee Tongue

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Another one literally texted me as I typed this edit.

Edit2: okay this is actually really fun for me. This used to be very stressful.

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01-10-2017, 11:57 PM
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RE: DMSI 3.01A - Back To The Grind
Went for a run tonight for cardio/just pushing myself.

Friend texted me as I came back home, offered me a position marketing the business he's creating.

Not like "Head of Marketing," but more that he's working many hours at the company he's at, and he's aware that split attention isn't the best, so he asked me for a helping hand.

I've had an interest in copy and marketing for a while so this gives me something tangible I can actually work towards and put on a resume.

The business is already involved with a venture accelerator and his university's business department, so this would be very "real."

Being a close friend and having a novel product are both fuel for the fire, and I'm excited to see where I can take myself with the help of DMSI Smile

I'm supposed to go and apply for an internship tomorrow for a job at a pharmacy that I can transition into a job as a Pharmacy Technician. It's what many in the medical field do to work their way through college as it pays about 1.5x or more what normal college jobs do. Happy for that opportunity as well.

I've had poor luck with jobs as a result of my personality and mental health, so there's always hesitation when seeking employment, but I'm going to make the best of whatever I get.

Also, I'm running DMSI. Imagine if this was a business/success sub?
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01-11-2017, 03:42 PM (This post was last modified: 01-11-2017 03:44 PM by Bookstacks DC737.)
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RE: DMSI 3.01A - Back To The Grind
Slept Terribly last night. Was in that half-dream/half-real state that DMSI tends to put me in.

My mood picked up later that morning and then just continued to rise and rise and rise until I felt a lot of Euphoria. I turned that energy into productivity for studying and now it's turning into rage.

Something about refusing to be an object for other people's emotions, and the other side of that.

As I continue to increase in attractiveness and execute the script, one of the main conflicts is being like my dad.

I'm talking to more and more women and their relative value to me is super low. I have very little energy and emotion invested in any one person.

It seems to put my unconscious on guard against any sort of manipulative behavior coming from me, or me receiving any sort of behavior like that. As my value rises I suppose it's fear that I may begin manipulating others, which is unfounded, but it's there.

Actually, me being able to concretely say I won't manipulate others is a pretty big sign of change. I wasn't standing up for my values in this way earlier. I just thought the past would easily become the future, and that was as much as my potential would be...

Also. I just executed the script. She (different girl than the post above) asked me first, and in later texts I asked her if she lived in the dorms. She suggested I come over in like a ***** hour haha. Only thing is, she's not that attractive, but personality wise we vibe, so I'm going to assume it's the sniper. Script.Executed. Cool

I'm starting to think I can move things along much faster than I am now.

And I'm talking to a bisexual chick right now.
One of my goals for 2017 is to have a FFM 3-way. And my neighbor who I mentioned in the very first few posts keeps appearing to me in a very manifest-y way.

Full sails ahead boys!

Edit: AT&T is being lame. I'll upload some pictures later.
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01-11-2017, 10:54 PM (This post was last modified: 01-12-2017 12:54 AM by Benjamin.)
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RE: DMSI 3.01A - Back To The Grind
This one is all data.

Went on a “date” with G2 (it’s quite funny to me that we’ve gotten as far as having to follow letters with numbers). She showed me around her university. Then I met some of her dorm mates. Then we went into her dorm and made out and she ended up giving me a bj before she had to go to class.

A rather iconic moment for me was when I hugged her goodbye on the way to my car, with my phone in my right hand, and as I pulled away I pulled out my phone and set up another date with a different girl.

At this point I think the majority of DMSI’s effects are just appealing to my inner 14 year old Tongue

The date:

The date wasn’t anything too special. I didn’t really say or do anything besides be myself, tease her a little, and just be present. There are some really relevant bits that I’ve become aware of though.

One is that women close the distance between us very quickly during DMSI. You have distances reserved for family, friends, and intimate partners, and during DMSI women tend to cross into that intimate partner space in less than a minute. This comes with rubbing their boobs on my body, or continually bumping into me like we’re a pair of magnets. This happened with S last week as well as G2.

The date today was 101% autopilot. There was even a moment when we walked from a dark area of the campus into her dorm building and the change of perspective made me realize that I was doing absolutely nothing. Like, me, or what I think of as me, was watching everything take place without being involved, but I felt 100% safe and comfortable with the autopilot. When we had safely made it into her dorm room (read: achieved the goal) and we watched a little Netflix, “me” came out again for little spurts during our make out time, but I wasn’t really aware of all that, just going along with the sensations.

With both S and G2 there came times where they both began telling me they were sexually available.

With G2 today it was when she described her first semester at college and all the parties she went to, and how amazing all of it was. Then later when we went to her dorm, she immediately put Netflix on her laptop. Netflix and Chill, remember?

With S it was a while into our date where she mentioned how she loved being drunk and just having no filter, and being able to go along with whatever experience she was having. She was telling me she was adventurous and could have a good time.

My next question for S was why she had swiped right on me on Tinder. She referred to a part of my description where I wrote “non-adventurous women need not apply,” and she liked that because she was looking for some more adventure in her life.

Then she asked me why I swiped right on her profile. I told her it was because I liked her face, and she seemed to be really cool. She got a laugh out of that and soon after I invited her to my place. At my place it was fairly warm but she began taking off her layers of clothing (she’s from the mountain so she came layered up) and we just sat in my room and chilled for a while.

Out of nowhere she begins telling me about how her friend is allowing her to sleep over at her house, and she believes the reason why is because her friend’s room mate is a very obvious flirt (?). I didn’t really understand why she blurted that out at the time, but now it’s hitting me square in the face and it kind of hurts Tongue

I was being very shy during our date, and that may have triggered the outburst. After a while I felt comfortable enough to make out with her and invited her over to my bed.

With both S and G2 I noticed I had a very pronounced effect on them both.

Today it was G2 begging me to come over.
Then the sheer look of pleasure on her face as we made out.
She wanted me to go to her class with her.
She also invited me to stay the night if I wanted to.
She asked me if I would come back after her class was over and I told her I couldn’t. So she invited me to my first college party (whoop whoop!) this friday.

With S it was mostly the fact that she drove nearly 2 hours through traffic and snow to come and see me, and brought me food as well. She had mentioned that the only thing she hated about being up in the mountain was that she was part of a small town and everyone knew everyone’s business. That totally didn’t matter when she let me put a series of hickeys on her neck.

Now with L (I date her on Saturday) she’s becoming extremely close to me through text and wanting to talk all the time.

With both of these dates it took me a while to open my heart enough to allow both of these interactions to proceed.

With G2, there was just a moment where I felt that I had to go all the way in, and that meant being vulnerable enough to get hurt, and I just let go.

With S I just told her I actually wasn’t very experienced with any of this stuff and that allowed me to relax and become comfortable. She said she thought she was being poolsharked because there was no way I could possibly be inexperienced and her face showed it quite clearly.

Guess I’m better than I thought Tongue

Onward

Party with G2 on Friday.
Icecream with L, Saturday morning.
Then probably hangout with D (the bisexual chick) that afternoon?

I’ve been getting little feelings about S as well. She said her schedule was rather busy and I left it at that (“keep me updated.”) but I don’t think she’s out of the game just yet. She was certainly my favorite out of this new cast of women. Plus, I never got to go snowboarding with her.

I have 2 more women who I’ve established a connection with that I still have to text, god damn.

I think especially now I'm going to stop ***** and trying to **** my neighbors lol. There's no need for it. I may actually have to start friendzoning women at this point, never thought I'd say those words Confused

Sources:
I’ve consciously made an effort to stop reading PUA material but I did absorb two things that I used in both dates above:
David Snyder’s 7 Stages of Attraction (women closing distance very quickly)
and Captain Jack’s Sexualized Compliments (“I like your face” with S, something similar with G2).

If you’d like more info, feel free to post below.
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01-12-2017, 02:55 AM
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RE: DMSI 3.01A - Back To The Grind
Holy shit Big Grin, I saw the post from the testimonial

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01-12-2017, 10:34 AM
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RE: DMSI 3.01A - Back To The Grind
(01-12-2017 02:55 AM)Alpha360 Wrote:  Holy shit Big Grin, I saw the post from the testimonial

Yeah. Most of this is the result of getting off my antidepressants. The results were certainly there before, as most of these women had matched me on Tinder while I was taking my medication, but I had no desire to interact.

I'll even have to see about lowering my Wellbutrin, which is a more energizing antidepressant, but I can tell it interferes with DMSI. It's currently useful in making me productive, but I could certainly get by on a much lower dose, especially now that I'm doing hours of physical activity every day.
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01-12-2017, 05:34 PM
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RE: DMSI 3.01A - Back To The Grind
Some further data from yesterday:

There was the weirdest cognitive dissonance yesterday. It happened when I got home and saw one of my neighbors coming down the stairs and this absolute feeling of neediness was stirred up at the highest level. The same level of neediness I had when I had no friends or confidence. It occured again when I went to Kickboxing with the only girl that was there that night.

The flipside to both of these experiences is that the first one occurred after G2 begged me to come over. Then the second one was after my makeout session with her. Just seemed odd for these feelings to come about when I had no reason to be needy at all.

Today:
Did EMDR therapy today. Mainly on the subject of rebellion and being "The Razor" as chaosvrgn calls it.

We worked on anger towards authority and being given instructions, and then the trail of memories and emotions took me down to fear of hurting those I love by fully being myself, so feeling that I need to hide parts of myself to make these relationships work.

The EMDR session was 100% autopilot as well. I have a hunch that DMSI is using EMDR to further its progress. Mostly around my innate stubbornness to receiving instruction (read: executing the program without sabotaging myself) and allow myself to be at my sexiest on all levels, not just perception. Like in areas of conversation, projecting emotions and leading women.

When I got home and turned on DMSI I experienced a very strong feeling of being sexy and attractive. I thought I was sexy before in the mirror, but that perception seems to have only gotten stronger. Woah.

I went into the half-asleep/half-awake state that DMSI triggers and got a [Sexually graphic comment - unsuitable language. Moderators take note] from Kim Kardashian on the beach. Cool Cool
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01-12-2017, 07:11 PM
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Is that you in the avatar? !

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01-12-2017, 07:19 PM
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(01-12-2017 07:11 PM)eternity Wrote:  Is that you in the avatar? !

I feel inside how he looks almost 24/7 lol.
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01-12-2017, 08:11 PM
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(01-12-2017 07:19 PM)Bookstacks DC737 Wrote:  
(01-12-2017 07:11 PM)eternity Wrote:  Is that you in the avatar? !

I feel inside how he looks almost 24/7 lol.

I feel you 100%. I'm likewise with my avatar 24/7. This sub is unlocking a freedom inside that e2 can't even touch :0

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01-12-2017, 08:17 PM
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(01-12-2017 08:11 PM)eternity Wrote:  
(01-12-2017 07:19 PM)Bookstacks DC737 Wrote:  
(01-12-2017 07:11 PM)eternity Wrote:  Is that you in the avatar? !

I feel inside how he looks almost 24/7 lol.

I feel you 100%. I'm likewise with my avatar 24/7. This sub is unlocking a freedom inside that e2 can't even touch :0

Yeah honestly the feeling of freedom that I have and the knowledge that I'm creating myself is far more important to me than pussy. Pussy is just a way of keeping track of what's going on.
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01-12-2017, 08:27 PM (This post was last modified: 01-12-2017 08:29 PM by Darkness.)
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Tell me ma if you gon s*** it or not - killa cam (dip set)
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01-12-2017, 11:24 PM
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Saw G2 tonight. She was literally begging me to stay the night. Kicked all of her room mates out and while I was quite tempted, I decided to follow the rules of my program and get back by curfew. I really have to move the duck out of here Dodgy

I was also feeling awful tonight until I took some 5HTP, which makes sense as my neurotransmitters are probably wonky coming off the medication.

And I've made it a mental priority to get a second date with S. I had such a good time last time and things feel very incomplete if I don't see her again.

And oh yeah, I went to go see G2 in my PJs tonight because **** it lol. I have still not ever gotten road head but I think that's going to change quite quickly.

My short list of goals for the year are as follows:

FFM 3-way
Milf
Sugar Momma
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01-12-2017, 11:45 PM
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I fuckin with all those
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01-13-2017, 10:56 AM
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RE: DMSI 3.01A - Back To The Grind
Okay so I'm off all medication right now. Of course, some of the stuff has built up in my blood, and there are after effects/withdrawal, but no medication in my system right now.

Observations:

I went to a little meeting with all my neighbors about apartment maintenance.

Everyone kind of just sat around as the handyman showed us how to stop leaks and things of that nature. I got up to see better and to actually learn and it seems that energy transferred to everyone else. Then the aura activated.

This one girl especially just began following me and participating more in the meeting like I did. She came into my intimate space as well.

Two women had their feet pointed towards me for most of the 30 minutes we were in there, and a rather shy chick stared at my crotch for a good ten minutes, then I looked at her, she looked away and then went right back to staring. Love you too, ma.

It's really going to be hard to stick to the whole #DontFuckYourNeighbors2017 thing I wanted to do lol.

Insights

The biggest thing I've observed so far is boredom. People are absolutely bored out of their minds and they're always looking for something to fill in that gap. You don't have to be the most attractive or anything, so long as you give women hope that through you, they can experience some excitement.

The second thing is that leading has a lot less to do with being dominant than I thought. Leading is also just about giving people the opportunity to shine. Extracting people from that habitual space of interacting with people and forcing them to dig a little deeper, think a little more and express themselves fully - rather than whatever character they choose to be during daily life.

It's also why I'm looking forward to the sexual mastery module of 3.1 along with all the other modules. I want to bring people out of their shell when they're around me. As I continue to become more and more free, I want to spread that to everyone around me.

The Aura

I feel the aura just absolutely burning off my skin right now. It seems that even the Wellbutrin, which is known to increase sex drive, interferes with the programming.
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01-13-2017, 04:34 PM
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RE: DMSI 3.01A - Back To The Grind
I got a whiff of an emotional storm brewing inside of me.

It has something to do with commitment, and "having" to commit to a person to gain access to sex.

With G2, I've just been going along with whatever she's been doing or saying, just completely stuck in some sort of weird relationship-y box.

Then comes the resentment towards the other person, and the possessiveness and then the hiding away or sabotaging things because of fear.

I'm okay with becoming close with someone, and living life with my heart open, but I don't want a relationship, nor do I want to head down that road, and I haven't quite made that clear to myself or anyone else.

So it seems that I'm developing the values and beliefs that will best serve me in this area, rather than just doing "stuff," or rehearsing what I've been conditioned to do.

It's certainly interesting to watch this progression.

Always more and more healing to be done, and when you think you're healed something else comes up that you couldn't anticipate. But you get closer and closer with each step, so there's always that forward progression to look forward to.

And the euphoria part of the script activated and what was a dull and lifeless day seems to be back in my possession.
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01-13-2017, 04:47 PM
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RE: DMSI 3.01A - Back To The Grind
Quote:#DontFuckYourNeighbors2017

Hahaha i'd laugh if this become a thing on twitter. Big Grin
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