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03-06-2017, 05:34 PM
Post: #81
RE: alpha 4
Get on DMSI or sex magnet: you have to sever that paranoia, bc it's too emotional and it's keeping you drenched in misery.

Start dealing with girls more and get up to par flirt wise and with how they are and how you respond adequately to their BS. Stop allowing yourself to wallow in that muck. Don't use AM after this run, it's not gonna help you in that dpt.
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03-07-2017, 12:31 PM (This post was last modified: 03-07-2017 12:48 PM by ffaux.)
Post: #82
RE: alpha 4
I have a lot of trauma from past relationships that I'm carrying around. I'm deeply afraid of women hurting me which is undoubtedly at least one source of my resistance to AM6 and self-sabotage with women. I'm afraid of getting intimate with women now, I don't want sex because I don't trust myself to make myself vulnerable that way again. There's too much hurt there and I'm trying to protect myself, that was the reason for wanting to be a player in the first place.

I went on a date last night and I'm going on another tonight so at least I'm getting out there but I find myself resisting doing the things that make women attracted and instead have as my game plan the things that put me in the friend zone. Last night for example we talked about politics which will be the reason I won't see her again. I know not to do that, I know to talk about relationships and sex instead but 1. I don't care enough about the outcome and 2. I resist being sexually forward (touching, conversation, etc.)

I feel positive about AM6. I always end up that way when I see what it's trying to do and the way forward.
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03-08-2017, 02:32 AM (This post was last modified: 03-08-2017 03:01 AM by ffaux.)
Post: #83
RE: alpha 4
Bombed a date. I remember why I pretended to be someone else now. I'm really uncool. Just making dating mistake after dating mistake talking about shit that makes me unattractive. I was enjoying the conversation but I just am not an exciting person and in the end she said let's leave. This is so much easier when you **** first and then find out if you're compatible.

I feel like I've become a chump again lol. I just don't have the energy to bring this fake energy to the table to get laid.

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Wait whaaaaaaaaaaat?? She just texted me saying she had fun!! This alpha male shit works! I can be myself :o
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03-08-2017, 03:02 PM
Post: #84
RE: alpha 4
Quote:she said let's leave.

Sounds to me like she meant so you could be alone Wink
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03-10-2017, 01:54 PM
Post: #85
RE: alpha 4
I had a major breakthrough in the early hours of the morning last night as I woke up from my sleep. I've been struggling to let go of my ex and my old friends because I want their approval. When I broke up with my ex she and my friends treated me like I was a bad person so I pushed them all away. Ever since then I've been questioning my own identity, almost self-destructing on multiple occasions and at one point almost turned to drugs, all just to cope with the dissonance between how I see myself (as a good person) and how my ex and my old friends were treating me (as a bad person). So I've silently been wanting their confirmation that I'm a good person and have silently been wanting their approval and therefore unable to let them go.

I have to let them go now. They have moved on so I have to set them free in my own heart and know who I am within myself and not seek validation and confirmation of my character outside of myself. But god damn this has been some heavy shit.
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03-15-2017, 04:58 PM
Post: #86
RE: alpha 4
Stage 4
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03-16-2017, 04:00 PM
Post: #87
RE: alpha 4
No wonder it is taking AM6 so long to change me. So much approval seeking!
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03-18-2017, 08:15 PM (This post was last modified: 03-18-2017 09:51 PM by ffaux.)
Post: #88
RE: alpha 4
I have to confront my feelings of failure. If I look at any aspect of my life I'm not successful anywhere. There is potential and thanks to AM6 I'm now on the path of putting the work in where potential paves the way so things won't stay this way but right now things are grim and accepting it is a hard pill to swallow. Lots of trying to protect my ego by denying it.

Denial is a constant theme for me.

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I want to be admired, by women and people in general. It drives my behaviour. Presumably this is more approval seeking by me.
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03-20-2017, 02:46 PM
Post: #89
RE: alpha 4
I feel so lonely because I learned that I have no real friends when I broke down over my ex. No one was there for me to put an arm over my shoulder and make me feel alright, to make me feel loved, when I was hurting and crying over my ex. None of my friends reached out to me or checked up on me; I was completely alone with my grief and no one wanted to know if I was alright. I could have turned to my mom but who is going to be there for me when my mom is gone?
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03-21-2017, 04:41 PM
Post: #90
RE: alpha 4
(03-21-2017 03:30 PM)Shannon Wrote:  
(03-21-2017 02:47 PM)ffaux Wrote:  It seems like every SM3 journal talks about the user thinking "Why do I care about women/sex? I have other more important priorities in life". I haven't yet seen an AM6 journal reflect the same sentiment and I haven't experienced it myself. 1. Are we talking about the same outcome/effect as I've just specified it when you say that it is included? AM6 doesn't seem to have this effect. 2. What causes this effect in the user in SM3? 3. Is AM6 designed to have this effect? 4. Why might it be that no one running AM6 has reported this effect?

The "Why do I care about women/sex? I have other more important priorities in life" response is a subconscious diversionary tactic designed to distract the user from and prevent achieving the goals of the program concerning sex and achieving it. AM6 doesn't have it because it is focused primarily on self improvement and growth. Neither is designed to have that effect; in AM6 it is a natural side effect of inward focus and growth to stop worrying about women and sex, but this is different because it's not a form of self sabotage.
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03-21-2017, 09:32 PM
Post: #91
RE: alpha 4
This article is important. Honest exposition of hypergamy by a female.

http://dailym.ai/2nEm3R2
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03-22-2017, 10:07 PM
Post: #92
RE: alpha 4
(03-21-2017 09:32 PM)ffaux Wrote:  This article is important. Honest exposition of hypergamy by a female.

http://dailym.ai/2nEm3R2

Dude if one is more attractive one will have more attractive option that's for both man and woman alike. but it's up to you test and see if they're substantial.

Girls are fickle. Hypergamy or not.
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