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01-07-2017, 06:20 AM
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RE: alpha 4
(12-28-2016 03:07 PM)ffaux Wrote:  
(12-28-2016 05:50 AM)kingcobra Wrote:  I looked through that list and this looks mostly like self esteem issues, you might want to focus on that a bit more as well. There should be no real self validation going on with any of this stuff, that has to come from within, and until it does, these problems will remain.

I see what you're saying. What do you suggest?

When our buckets are empty, we have to fill it up with something so we leave it on our doorstep to collect what water may come, which will be of various quantities and qualities but it never amounts to much other than some pretty muddy water.

The more water collecting matters to you, and the greater the need to collect it, the worse off you will be. You need to find yourself first, and then and only then will these other tempting things come to you.

Now when someone has significant needs like that shopping list indicates, there is usually a number of things that one needs to work on, but the work has to be internally focused not externally. There are several programs that may help, the best way to approach this is perhaps to have one look upon what is available and use one's intuition, but there are a few choices that we could probably say would help, the self esteem one obviously, life tune up, love and appreciate yourself, forgive yourself, happiness and joy, deep gratitude, emotional pain relief, a few others perhaps along the same lines of looking to ground oneself and love oneself more.

This may take some real time but things worthwhile often do. Once one deepens one's self love enough then and only then should you look to focus on others loving you more, so to speak. You have to make yourself more worthy first and I don't think that this is a step you can ever skip, and as they say, if you build it they will come Smile
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01-08-2017, 03:16 AM
Post: #22
RE: alpha 4
Stage 2
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01-08-2017, 02:19 PM
Post: #23
RE: alpha 4
Had a dream about my ex last night. Think I'm finally starting to get over it.
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01-10-2017, 08:24 PM
Post: #24
RE: alpha 4
I'm still driven by feelings of loneliness. Whenever I feel loneliness I try to medicate it by using my phone; checking tinder, messaging family or friends, checking this forum, etc.
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01-11-2017, 12:00 PM
Post: #25
RE: alpha 4
Have you been addicted to porn or something similiar like another addiction?
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01-12-2017, 04:24 AM
Post: #26
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(01-11-2017 12:00 PM)Different Heaven Wrote:  Have you been addicted to porn or something similiar like another addiction?

I was addicted to the internet and computer games for a while.
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01-12-2017, 04:24 PM (This post was last modified: 01-12-2017 09:14 PM by ffaux.)
Post: #27
RE: alpha 4
I have identified the feeling of sadness in the pit of my stomach as remorse. Still not sure what about.

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I'm starting to come to terms with just how sheltered my life has been and how much I've avoided being exposed to potentially traumatising experiences thus far. I think this is definitely some effect of AM. How can I be a man if I can't face the realities of life?
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01-13-2017, 08:22 PM (This post was last modified: 01-14-2017 12:21 PM by ffaux.)
Post: #28
RE: alpha 4
So much feeling of loneliness.

I get attached so easily.

I have a really difficult time letting go of the past. This explains the strange feelings of sadness and remorse.

I struggle with loss.
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01-13-2017, 08:56 PM
Post: #29
RE: alpha 4
Life is a bitch... make sure that bitch beautiful - Lil wanye west
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01-14-2017, 04:47 PM
Post: #30
RE: alpha 4
How do you stop caring about someone you cared about so that you can let go of the past?
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01-14-2017, 10:49 PM
Post: #31
RE: alpha 4
Allow it, man. Feeling is just feeling.

I feel something behind the word "let go" you use. I think you are struggling to run away from it. Let it, I mean, the past come up, through you, because it won't affect you anymore.

The sub will win.
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01-15-2017, 11:56 AM
Post: #32
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I don't trust women.
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01-15-2017, 12:59 PM
Post: #33
RE: alpha 4
I've been interpreting "mindfulness" and "being present" as "feel it, then advance." Seems to work for me so far. How about acknowledging that the feeling exists and is identified then continue on with your day?

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01-15-2017, 01:19 PM
Post: #34
RE: alpha 4
(01-14-2017 10:49 PM)Renaissance_of_Juan Wrote:  Allow it, man. Feeling is just feeling.

I feel something behind the word "let go" you use. I think you are struggling to run away from it. Let it, I mean, the past come up, through you, because it won't affect you anymore.

(01-15-2017 12:59 PM)apollolux Wrote:  I've been interpreting "mindfulness" and "being present" as "feel it, then advance." Seems to work for me so far. How about acknowledging that the feeling exists and is identified then continue on with your day?

Your advice is sound. I've been using the release technique to acknowledge and release the energy that comes with the feeling but the sadness is still overwhelming when it comes. And I just don't know how to let go of the past, I've never really done it, I still feel attached to all of my exes. I think this experience that I'm going through is trying to make sense of statements instructing me to let go of the past; it hurts because I'm unwilling and because I don't know how.
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01-15-2017, 03:36 PM (This post was last modified: 01-16-2017 11:10 AM by ffaux.)
Post: #35
RE: alpha 4
I wish I was more content with my situation with women during AM6 so I don't expend so much energy seeking validation and approval. It would be great if it was suspended so that I could just focus on my personal growth without this constant neediness.

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Just realised I have a very strong urge to meet new people, particularly women. This explains the loneliness, tinder, etc. Or maybe it's vice versa and the loneliness is driving this behaviour. Either way, I experienced this (albeit milder) last round too.
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01-17-2017, 11:38 AM
Post: #36
RE: alpha 4
I feel like I've been deconstructed, like my past runs of AM6 served to clear away my denial about everything from who I am to the true meaning of what I'm experiencing (e.g. maintaining the false belief that I am more attractive than I really am) all of which has served the purpose of protecting a very fragile ego. I am highly convinced that the resistance that has prevented AM6 from working is due to this denial and ego protection. It's like I've needed to first admit the truth to myself before the change will take place.

This is something I've observed in my dad too when trying to get him to run subliminal programs.
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Yesterday, 04:23 PM (This post was last modified: Yesterday 07:56 PM by ffaux.)
Post: #37
RE: alpha 4
It's such a weird and uncomfortable feeling to realise that your beliefs have changed but not know to what.

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I'm feeling super depressed about being unsuccessful with girls. I could use a hug.
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Post: #38
RE: alpha 4
(Yesterday 04:23 PM)ffaux Wrote:  I'm feeling super depressed about being unsuccessful with girls. I could use a hug.

How about a flying kiss instead?

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Today, 11:47 AM (This post was last modified: Today 11:50 AM by ffaux.)
Post: #39
RE: alpha 4
Haha thanks bae.

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I'm afraid of expressing my anger. I feel like a little bitch because of it. I get walked all over and I don't stand my ground because I back down when I feel angry.
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