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01-11-2017, 01:41 AM
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(01-10-2017 03:14 PM)chaosvrgn Wrote:  This happened before when I first started running AM6 for the first time. I broke my brand new phone. I knocked the mirror off my Mustang and I broke back window by putting the convertible top down while there was shit there. My mind was screaming for me to quit AM6. Just as it's screaming at me to quit DMSI. I'm close...

Yo I'm glad you're bringing up the subject because a lot of shit like this is happening to me since I'm running DMSI !

I fell down the stairs, broke my car key, hurted myself while climbing and all of this in less than 1 week !

Also this night I had a lot of dreams and also some hardcore nightmares (Woke up 3-4 times while taking that huge breath that wake you up) so I guess the healing is now taking place at a deep level for me too!

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01-11-2017, 06:27 AM
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RE: F*CKIN' DMSI!!!! (a DMSI v3.0.1b Tale)
(01-10-2017 02:54 PM)chaosvrgn Wrote:  
(01-10-2017 12:39 PM)mat422 Wrote:  "The razor" definitely seems like an INTP thing. What's interesting to me though is why you felt a need to repress this part of yourself. Would you say it was more fear based or just a general concern for the well being of others when you release it? I know some INTPs have a tendency to go off the deep end with this stuff and get so lost in the cold calculating logic part they lose a bit of their humanity and then have to regain that emotional balance again. Some of them are so far gone that they've taken to the security of being able to map out and predict the behavior of others as opposed to connecting on a human level. But that's really unhealthy INTP behavior. Anyway from the sound of it it seems like you're well developed at this point to integrate it back into your psyche.

The thing is, you're doing exactly what everyone else does. You're implying that we lack the ability to connect to another person "on a human level." But what does that even mean? If you're a sensor, your way of connecting with another person is vastly different than the way I connect to them as an intuitive. Whose to say which is more "human" than another?

The issue lies with the fact that there are far more sensors than there are intuitives, so much that the sensor manner of interacting with the world is often considered "the default," while we are considered "others." Thus, the fact that there's so many and because the sensors can't understand the way we think, they try to label as flawed, cold human beings. That there's something wrong with us that they need to fix.

This forces us to repress our natural state of being and try to operate as a sensor, which puts us under A LOT of stress because it's completely incompatible with how we think. And THAT'S when you see the really self-destructive and unhealthy INTP behavior come out.

I have had the misfortune of having two ISTJ bosses. I've literally avoided taking jobs that would probably assist with my plans of being a millionaire within 4 years simply because I typed my potential manager as an ISTJ. That's how incompatible we often are. ISTJ's don't live in the world of abstract like an INTP does. Our minds work like this: We see seemingly disparate pieces of data, and our job is to connect the dots and figure the underlying master pattern. Sensors don't work like that. To them, the underlying pattern is irrelevant -- maintaining the resulting structure is much more important. And they do that by upholding societal rules and processes, doing things as they always have been, because if those rules didn't work, we'd all be dead.

See the difference?

It's our inherent nature to question the status quo and push those boundaries. The razor is our process in which we do it. It is the will of the sensor to maintain the status quo. To us, it seems like society itself is constantly against us.

I wasn't trying to imply any of that, probably just how it came out when I wrote it. I brought up the extreme of the INTPs because I know in some of them they avoid developing their weaker attributes by rationalizing the crap out of everything. By connecting more on a human level I meant letting the guard down, trusting the person, not seeing the person you're interacting with as a massive computer that responds to commands, stuff like that. And I barely even know you, so I'm not going to come in here and assume how your mind works or at what level of development you're at. I just brought up that example of the extreme to highlight the difference between an INTP that's learned to work on their weaknesses and one that hasn't. Obviously you're an example of an INTP that is working on your weaknesses because you're going through emotional healing. With that comes a stronger ability to connect with others on a deeper level that you desire to do so with.

Hell I'm the polar opposite of you. I need to learn to disengage from people more. When I encounter some asshole and how badly they treat me my immediate thoughts aren't how I'm going to tear them apart, it's what made them this way and why aren't they cognizant of it? It's draining being that connected to almost every stranger you interact with on a daily basis.

Btw, I'm also an intuitive so I know where you're coming from having to deal with sensors. But after talking about unhealthy INTPs it's only fair that you are given a chance to talk about my type which is INFP. If you want to, I'm here to grow to. Lord knows I've got my fair share of weaknesses that need to be worked on in the critical thinking department.
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01-11-2017, 07:35 AM
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(01-11-2017 06:27 AM)mat422 Wrote:  I wasn't trying to imply any of that, probably just how it came out when I wrote it. I brought up the extreme of the INTPs because I know in some of them they avoid developing their weaker attributes by rationalizing the crap out of everything. By connecting more on a human level I meant letting the guard down, trusting the person, not seeing the person you're interacting with as a massive computer that responds to commands, stuff like that. And I barely even know you, so I'm not going to come in here and assume how your mind works or at what level of development you're at. I just brought up that example of the extreme to highlight the difference between an INTP that's learned to work on their weaknesses and one that hasn't. Obviously you're an example of an INTP that is working on your weaknesses because you're going through emotional healing. With that comes a stronger ability to connect with others on a deeper level that you desire to do so with.

Hell I'm the polar opposite of you. I need to learn to disengage from people more. When I encounter some asshole and how badly they treat me my immediate thoughts aren't how I'm going to tear them apart, it's what made them this way and why aren't they cognizant of it? It's draining being that connected to almost every stranger you interact with on a daily basis.

Btw, I'm also an intuitive so I know where you're coming from having to deal with sensors. But after talking about unhealthy INTPs it's only fair that you are given a chance to talk about my type which is INFP. If you want to, I'm here to grow to. Lord knows I've got my fair share of weaknesses that need to be worked on in the critical thinking department.

The point I'm trying to make is that the behavior you're describing is actually indicative of a healthy INTP. We function best as detached observers with a intense passion for what it is we're studying, and we have the means and the know-how to apply those theories to the world ourselves without outside intrusion. Shannon recently posted that he identifies as INTP-A. This is where he operates.

We function second best as mostly detached observers, picking up on deep, profound patterns and telling those patterns to a more "hands on" MBTI type to apply to the physical world. This is where I'm trying to operate. Making a number of business partners who are better than execution than I am, but I'm better at ideation, long-term vision and seeing the patterns.

We function worst when forced to "let our guard down," because it's simply not in our nature -- our very essence REQUIRES us to function as detached observers -- and "let people in." It simply doesn't work that way with us.

To me, you are indeed a massive computer that responds to various inputs. But to me, that isn't a bad thing. The way we acknowledge individuality is by understanding that, while you are a computer, your core components are much different than my core components, the commands you respond to are much different than what I'll respond to. Keeping that in mind, 100% recognize that you are a unique individual.

But you are a set of patterns, just like everyone else.

This whole concept of "working on weaknesses" is very foreign to me. My strategy is different -- I develop my weak attributes to the point of competency. In INTPs, it's how we process our feelings. Make no mistake, I can indeed connect to people emotionally. I have problems processing my OWN feelings. And because of that, I don't know how I feel about certain situations until in the heat of the moment, and I end up having a very violent reaction.

But anyway, I work on my weak attributes to the point that they can't be manipulated or abused. And then, I work on my strengths to the point that they are damn near invincible. For example, in boxing -- I'm a bit big. I have a lot of muscle and some body fat. I'm not going to be able to move my body as fast as the smaller people. However, I can punch fast as hell.

So... do I work on moving my body quicker (which means insane amounts of plyometrics so I can move massive amounts of mass around), or do I develop my hand speed, accuracy and timing so I can hit any target at will, even if they can move their body around quicker? I've chosen the latter. That, mixed with my ability to out-strategize most people, makes me quite the formidable fighter, without "focusing on my weaknesses."

In life and in business, instead of "focusing on your weaknesses," focus on your strengths and surround yourself with people that will help you with your weaknesses.

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01-11-2017, 07:46 AM
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(01-11-2017 07:35 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote:  
(01-11-2017 06:27 AM)mat422 Wrote:  I wasn't trying to imply any of that, probably just how it came out when I wrote it. I brought up the extreme of the INTPs because I know in some of them they avoid developing their weaker attributes by rationalizing the crap out of everything. By connecting more on a human level I meant letting the guard down, trusting the person, not seeing the person you're interacting with as a massive computer that responds to commands, stuff like that. And I barely even know you, so I'm not going to come in here and assume how your mind works or at what level of development you're at. I just brought up that example of the extreme to highlight the difference between an INTP that's learned to work on their weaknesses and one that hasn't. Obviously you're an example of an INTP that is working on your weaknesses because you're going through emotional healing. With that comes a stronger ability to connect with others on a deeper level that you desire to do so with.

Hell I'm the polar opposite of you. I need to learn to disengage from people more. When I encounter some asshole and how badly they treat me my immediate thoughts aren't how I'm going to tear them apart, it's what made them this way and why aren't they cognizant of it? It's draining being that connected to almost every stranger you interact with on a daily basis.

Btw, I'm also an intuitive so I know where you're coming from having to deal with sensors. But after talking about unhealthy INTPs it's only fair that you are given a chance to talk about my type which is INFP. If you want to, I'm here to grow to. Lord knows I've got my fair share of weaknesses that need to be worked on in the critical thinking department.

The point I'm trying to make is that the behavior you're describing is actually indicative of a healthy INTP. We function best as detached observers with a intense passion for what it is we're studying, and we have the means and the know-how to apply those theories to the world ourselves without outside intrusion. Shannon recently posted that he identifies as INTP-A. This is where he operates.

We function second best as mostly detached observers, picking up on deep, profound patterns and telling those patterns to a more "hands on" MBTI type to apply to the physical world. This is where I'm trying to operate. Making a number of business partners who are better than execution than I am, but I'm better at ideation, long-term vision and seeing the patterns.

We function worst when forced to "let our guard down," because it's simply not in our nature -- our very essence REQUIRES us to function as detached observers -- and "let people in." It simply doesn't work that way with us.

To me, you are indeed a massive computer that responds to various inputs. But to me, that isn't a bad thing. The way we acknowledge individuality is by understanding that, while you are a computer, your core components are much different than my core components, the commands you respond to are much different than what I'll respond to. Keeping that in mind, 100% recognize that you are a unique individual.

But you are a set of patterns, just like everyone else.

This whole concept of "working on weaknesses" is very foreign to me. My strategy is different -- I develop my weak attributes to the point of competency. In INTPs, it's how we process our feelings. Make no mistake, I can indeed connect to people emotionally. I have problems processing my OWN feelings. And because of that, I don't know how I feel about certain situations until in the heat of the moment, and I end up having a very violent reaction.

But anyway, I work on my weak attributes to the point that they can't be manipulated or abused. And then, I work on my strengths to the point that they are damn near invincible. For example, in boxing -- I'm a bit big. I have a lot of muscle and some body fat. I'm not going to be able to move my body as fast as the smaller people. However, I can punch fast as hell.

So... do I work on moving my body quicker (which means insane amounts of plyometrics so I can move massive amounts of mass around), or do I develop my hand speed, accuracy and timing so I can hit any target at will, even if they can move their body around quicker? I've chosen the latter. That, mixed with my ability to out-strategize most people, makes me quite the formidable fighter, without "focusing on my weaknesses."

In life and in business, instead of "focusing on your weaknesses," focus on your strengths and surround yourself with people that will help you with your weaknesses.

You could also focus on dropping body fat which will quicken your movement and allow you to compete in a lower weight class where you will be more effective. If you're wanting to go pro, having the ability to control your body fat at will is almost a necessity.

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01-11-2017, 07:57 AM
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(01-11-2017 07:46 AM)robstar Wrote:  You could also focus on dropping body fat which will quicken your movement and allow you to compete in a lower weight class where you will be more effective. If you're wanting to go pro, having the ability to control your body fat at will is almost a necessity.

It's not that easy.

I'll never drop enough weight to compete as a middleweight without losing a significant amount of muscle in the process. I carry body fat, but I carry A LOT of dense muscle, especially in my legs from 10 years of kickboxing.

Not to mention, middleweights and heavyweights fight DRASTICALLY, DRASTICALLY different. Changing from weight class to weight class not only means gaining (or losing) significant amounts of muscle, but also retraining your mind to fight differently.

Everyone thinks that combat sports is just getting in the ring and "slugging it out," but that's why we have so many people come to boxing, realize that it's a martial art just like anything else and drop out.

Watch a Mike Tyson fight (or any heavyweight fight for that matter), versus a Floyd Mayweather fight. Tyson is literally beating your body into submission. He's beating your arm. He's beating your chest. He's simply trying to connect his punches without getting hit himself. That's because he punches SO HARD that even when you block, you get f*cked up. Eventually, you'll start dropping your hands and he'll knock you out. Or, you'll lift your hands to guard the head and he'll destroy your body.

Mayweather, on the other hand, simply out-boxes you. You won't land any punches because he's faster, more nimble and has the reflexes of a god. He slips everything you throw, causing you to get frustrated and winded, and then starts throwing targeted, surgical punches. Most middleweight fighters fight like this. They move around, they slip, they're fast. They have some version of, "I'm gonna dodge everything you throw."

Now... being that I'm a naturally large guy with powerful punches... why would I drop down to middleweight just to have to completely relearn a brand new strategy that doesn't fit with how I think?

Again, it makes much more sense for me to lose enough body fat to look good and be a bit more quicker, but keep building punching power and muscle mass so I can take blows as well as dish 'em out.

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01-11-2017, 08:02 AM
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Very interesting discussion about the perception/(re)action modes of different personality types. Very insightful, thank you.

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01-11-2017, 09:19 AM
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(01-11-2017 07:35 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote:  
(01-11-2017 06:27 AM)mat422 Wrote:  I wasn't trying to imply any of that, probably just how it came out when I wrote it. I brought up the extreme of the INTPs because I know in some of them they avoid developing their weaker attributes by rationalizing the crap out of everything. By connecting more on a human level I meant letting the guard down, trusting the person, not seeing the person you're interacting with as a massive computer that responds to commands, stuff like that. And I barely even know you, so I'm not going to come in here and assume how your mind works or at what level of development you're at. I just brought up that example of the extreme to highlight the difference between an INTP that's learned to work on their weaknesses and one that hasn't. Obviously you're an example of an INTP that is working on your weaknesses because you're going through emotional healing. With that comes a stronger ability to connect with others on a deeper level that you desire to do so with.

Hell I'm the polar opposite of you. I need to learn to disengage from people more. When I encounter some asshole and how badly they treat me my immediate thoughts aren't how I'm going to tear them apart, it's what made them this way and why aren't they cognizant of it? It's draining being that connected to almost every stranger you interact with on a daily basis.

Btw, I'm also an intuitive so I know where you're coming from having to deal with sensors. But after talking about unhealthy INTPs it's only fair that you are given a chance to talk about my type which is INFP. If you want to, I'm here to grow to. Lord knows I've got my fair share of weaknesses that need to be worked on in the critical thinking department.

The point I'm trying to make is that the behavior you're describing is actually indicative of a healthy INTP. We function best as detached observers with a intense passion for what it is we're studying, and we have the means and the know-how to apply those theories to the world ourselves without outside intrusion. Shannon recently posted that he identifies as INTP-A. This is where he operates.

We function second best as mostly detached observers, picking up on deep, profound patterns and telling those patterns to a more "hands on" MBTI type to apply to the physical world. This is where I'm trying to operate. Making a number of business partners who are better than execution than I am, but I'm better at ideation, long-term vision and seeing the patterns.

We function worst when forced to "let our guard down," because it's simply not in our nature -- our very essence REQUIRES us to function as detached observers -- and "let people in." It simply doesn't work that way with us.

To me, you are indeed a massive computer that responds to various inputs. But to me, that isn't a bad thing. The way we acknowledge individuality is by understanding that, while you are a computer, your core components are much different than my core components, the commands you respond to are much different than what I'll respond to. Keeping that in mind, 100% recognize that you are a unique individual.

But you are a set of patterns, just like everyone else.

This whole concept of "working on weaknesses" is very foreign to me. My strategy is different -- I develop my weak attributes to the point of competency. In INTPs, it's how we process our feelings. Make no mistake, I can indeed connect to people emotionally. I have problems processing my OWN feelings. And because of that, I don't know how I feel about certain situations until in the heat of the moment, and I end up having a very violent reaction.

But anyway, I work on my weak attributes to the point that they can't be manipulated or abused. And then, I work on my strengths to the point that they are damn near invincible. For example, in boxing -- I'm a bit big. I have a lot of muscle and some body fat. I'm not going to be able to move my body as fast as the smaller people. However, I can punch fast as hell.

So... do I work on moving my body quicker (which means insane amounts of plyometrics so I can move massive amounts of mass around), or do I develop my hand speed, accuracy and timing so I can hit any target at will, even if they can move their body around quicker? I've chosen the latter. That, mixed with my ability to out-strategize most people, makes me quite the formidable fighter, without "focusing on my weaknesses."

In life and in business, instead of "focusing on your weaknesses," focus on your strengths and surround yourself with people that will help you with your weaknesses.

Ok I get what you're saying now. I think a lot of it just gets lost in text for me. I imagine it's a bit like speaking different languages for the both of us. Speaking of weaknesses, one of mine is idealism. In an effort to be perfect I have a tendency to project my own obsession with fixing every little weakness onto others. It spills out from time to time and I start seeing problems when there are none. Probably what happened with my initial post.
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01-11-2017, 05:15 PM (This post was last modified: 01-11-2017 05:25 PM by chaosvrgn.)
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That weird resistance has returned. The beyond deep, "my soul is mourning" resistance that has me questioning everything.

Oddly enough, I'm having a number of very beautiful women hit me up on OkCupid and Tinder... however, I've discovered a striking pattern that I find both odd and annoying.

The women who are also single mothers are roughly twice as beautiful as the women who are not. This leads me to believe that I may be giving off a "provider" vibe, and these women are more in the promise of the premise (money) than anything else.

Not that this is a bad thing. It is what it is. That's just the way they are. The problem is, a lot of these single moms like to play the "withhold sex" game until you commit to them. Given that I'm not interested in a monogamous relationship right now (and I'm definitely not interested in taking care of someone else's kid), it is a waste of time for me to even pursue these potentials. Though... the temptation is strong.

Here's a few samples (will expire in a day) (no, not really interested if they aren't your type):
https://s23.postimg.org/m9t4flhnf/1.png
https://s23.postimg.org/dstm4ocyj/2.png (This one is in JAMAICA. With a child. Lol. She still hit me up, though.)
https://s23.postimg.org/kxg0rg9ln/3.png (The one on the right.)
https://s23.postimg.org/9s4eomz1n/image.png (Redhead on the right. This is the only non-single parent. But she's 22! She looks 30! Lots of partying and drugs there, so I'm guessing she's a gold digger.)

Following Bookstacks's example, I'm gonna contact them all for the sake of pushing beyond boundaries. They could be true DMSI manifestations that defy conventional knowledge of how these single mothers act.

But still. Annoys me a bit that I'm either attracting potential gold diggers or my subconscious is unbelievably attracted to single mothers.

Maybe because I know they're easy? HTF do you even close a single mom? I don't bring women back to my place. How do I even get to theirs?

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01-11-2017, 05:37 PM
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Well, there's one thing that's granted with single mothers - they're fertile.

HTH.

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01-11-2017, 05:43 PM
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Oh my yes... "the one on the right"... Angel

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01-12-2017, 01:25 PM (This post was last modified: 01-12-2017 01:31 PM by chaosvrgn.)
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Quick Update:

Back into the dark night of my soul. Lots of depressive resistance. But, as I write this, I'm feeling my heart chakra open and my body is becoming VERY hot. Outside of providing Shannon with data, journaling always helps me introspect and explore my feelings.

Someone noted that it seems that I'm experiencing a rollercoaster effect -- one day, I feel like KING ALPHA, the next day I'm down in the dumps. I believe the clearing modules has purged all of the surface level crap. Now, every time it kicks in, it's trying to clean and heal the DEEP, DEEP identity level wounds. The things that are TRULY keeping me from executing the program. So, I suspect I'll be feeling like I AM THE LIVING EMBODIMENT OF THE SEX by tomorrow.

In other news, Sarge mentioned that he's experiencing very strong erections. I'm experiencing the same thing, and at RANDOM. I was literally reading the news earlier and realized that I had BLUE BALLS. That hasn't happened in almost a decade. I know all the boxing training is helping, but I know for a fact DMSI is the prime mover. Even when I was training in kickboxing REALLY HARD, I didn't have erections like this.

In fact... the last time I had erection quality like this... was before my first girlfriend cheated on me. After she cheated, I had a string of terrible relationships (because I was a super beta after having my trust shattered) and eventually, it got to the point that I had to use illegally sourced Viagra to even perform. EDIT: This is another reason why I get rage-tastic when someone suggests that my results are "placebo." I've been through a lot of SH*T and I don't need someone telling me that I'm imagining things, especially when those people come back and say crap like, I'm not reading the forums. So basically, they're telling people that their experiences and results mean nothing, then refusing to allow you to prove otherwise.

Right.

I'm guessing DMSI is not only clearing those mental traumas, but also adjusting my brain and body chemistry to increase my testosterone and other hormones so that I may reach MSI. In addition to the increased erection quality, I'm also experiencing increased healing speed. I box four days a week for at least an hour and a half. It's a very intense workout, and I'm healing at a remarkable rate. ESPECIALLY my knees, which were very weak when I started training.

I'm also noticing subtle, but deep and profound changes in my thought processes. I'm no longer content with mediocrity. The idea of becoming a multimillionaire is dominating my mind. And I'll take many (ethical) measures to get there, things I didn't consider before -- things like applying for a part-time job (and military reserve service) to cover my basic living expenses so that I can dedicate my business profits to business expansion.

I am becoming a living embodiment of my mission. It's no longer some abstract idea in my head. I AM that mission.

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01-12-2017, 01:38 PM
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RE: F*CKIN' DMSI!!!! (a DMSI v3.0.1b Tale)
(01-12-2017 01:25 PM)chaosvrgn Wrote:  I am becoming a living embodiment of my mission. It's no longer some abstract idea in my head. I AM that mission.

This reminds me of an idea I've been having going around my head the last couple of days: when it comes to the issues I may be facing in the process of achieving MSI, there is but one actual and true solution: the end goal. The end goal is the solution. There is no other way around it.

And the end goal is not a definitive, self-contained thing/end in and of itself, it's a highly-focused process set to particular parameters.

The fact that it's a paradox makes me believe I may be onto something. Your input in particular would be most welcome in this case.
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01-14-2017, 08:08 AM
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RE: F*CKIN' DMSI!!!! (a DMSI v3.0.1b Tale)
(01-12-2017 01:38 PM)Have at ye Wrote:  
(01-12-2017 01:25 PM)chaosvrgn Wrote:  I am becoming a living embodiment of my mission. It's no longer some abstract idea in my head. I AM that mission.

This reminds me of an idea I've been having going around my head the last couple of days: when it comes to the issues I may be facing in the process of achieving MSI, there is but one actual and true solution: the end goal. The end goal is the solution. There is no other way around it.

And the end goal is not a definitive, self-contained thing/end in and of itself, it's a highly-focused process set to particular parameters.

The fact that it's a paradox makes me believe I may be onto something. Your input in particular would be most welcome in this case.

While I think we're in mental alignment, it's tough for me to opine on the topic because I haven't quite figured it out myself, haha. For me, I'm going to stop looking at "my mission" as the completion or mastery of some single "one thing." I want to master multiple things and do great things as a whole. Thus, the only way to accomplish that is if I make MYSELF the mission -- if that makes any sense.

When I figure it out, I'll let everyone know, lol.

IN OTHER NEWS -- DMSI is enhancing my senses. I don't know if this is being caused by the removal of limiting beliefs, the body chemistry balancer, the side effect of MSI, or none / all of the above. All that I know is that all of the five concrete senses as being enhanced, as well as the ones that science hasn't quite determined a "sense" yet.

My spacial awareness, for example, or an intuitive knowing of the locations of objects around me, has skyrocketed. In boxing last night, we were doing this footwork, spatial awareness drill. It's kinda hard to explain, but basically the Coach down a punch of cones at random and within a tightly defined area. Then, he would roll and toss a number of tennis balls through that area. Our job was to shadowbox through and around the cones without knocking any of them over and while avoiding the tennis balls.

Everyone else was knocking the cones over, stumbling around, getting frustrated. I was like DAREDEVIL up in that mothaf*cka. I just KNEW where everything was and seamlessly skipped, hopped and step through the obstacle course. The Coach asked me if I had done the drill before. I told him that I might've. He said that wasn't possible because he just made it up a few days ago.

I'm also noticing that my sense of timing has skyrocketed and also my ability to watch and anticipate my opponents hand movements. I suspect Shannon has put something in DMSI for good f*ckin, and it's greatly enhancing my fighting / boxing ability.

The sniper is starting snipe more women also. At first, I was only feeling the sniper once or twice a month. Now, it's every time I go out. I sniped the living F*CK out of this pretty blonde in Sheetz. I mean, I'm usually not attracted to that body type, but there was something about her that absolutely drove me crazy. She was tall and slender, had that L.A. model body type, if you know what i mean. Think KENDALL JENNER. She took one look at me, broke into a huge smile, turned red and took off. I would've pursued, but... unfortunately... she had a kid but I ain't about that single mom life.

Also, I thought the sexual tension between me and the coach's daughter had started to calm down. No... it's still there... it's just... different. It feels deeper. As if it's not some novel thing anymore. There's just a deep lust that we both have but know we can't really act on.

I'm considering taking time off until v3.1 comes out. MHS isn't out yet, so I can't run that. Might just take a break from all the healing, let the DMSI code settle in.

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01-14-2017, 08:13 AM (This post was last modified: 01-14-2017 08:14 AM by RisingSon.)
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RE: F*CKIN' DMSI!!!! (a DMSI v3.0.1b Tale)
That's great to see it's increasing body/spacial awareness and ESP. I was thinking of how useful a sub to increase psychic hearing would be to me.
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01-14-2017, 01:16 PM
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Something about what Have At Ye wrote and your response to it resonated with me. I'm thinking that indeed it's not about mastery of "one thing" but instead mastery (or at the very least competency) of "a process" or even better "a system" (aka a reproducible process). It reminded me of a part in The Millionaire Fastlane where he talks about true success being a process instead of an event like "most people" would think.

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01-14-2017, 02:13 PM (This post was last modified: 01-14-2017 02:15 PM by Have at ye.)
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(01-14-2017 01:16 PM)apollolux Wrote:  Something about what Have At Ye wrote and your response to it resonated with me. I'm thinking that indeed it's not about mastery of "one thing" but instead mastery (or at the very least competency) of "a process" or even better "a system" (aka a reproducible process). It reminded me of a part in The Millionaire Fastlane where he talks about true success being a process instead of an event like "most people" would think.

Hmm. We're essentially in agreement, although I never really liked the term "system". Systematic - or, rather, systemic - thinking is, I believe, a way of sheltering oneself from potential dangers/anything that might induce a fear-based reaction in the nervous system; a false sense of comfort, one might say.

Love the term "reproducible process", though. Hell, why not make it a "self-reproducible process" while we're at it!

I think systems have a tendency towards limitation, while what we're working with here is an infinite or nigh-infinite, possibly ever-expanding "structure", for the lack of a better word. I find myself wanting to call it "The Process of Thought and Life" for now.

For some reason, I can't stop thinking of the good 'ol phrase "controlled chaos" to contain what I'm gradually arriving at.
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01-14-2017, 06:36 PM (This post was last modified: 01-14-2017 06:37 PM by chaosvrgn.)
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RE: F*CKIN' DMSI!!!! (a DMSI v3.0.1b Tale)
Just finished my v3a loops. Will most likely be my last until v3.1. I'd like to go completely sub-free, but I'm definitely copping MHS when it comes out and running it until v3.1 drops. How fitting that the sub urged me to play the hybrid at the LOUDEST VOLUME POSSIBLE today. I know that was extremely dangerous, but it's like my subconscious knew I'd be off DMSI for awhile and used this opportunity to drill through this bit of resistance that I'm experiencing today.

Gotta say, it's been quite a ride. I've experienced some very interesting blatant changes, and TONS of subtle changes that I still can't quite put my finger on. It did some major "under the hood" clearing.

Interestingly enough, despite the power of this version, it's also been the version that I had the LEAST amount of sexual activity on, despite the fact that it was manifesting beautiful women left and right -- almost to the point of exhaustion, where I wanted to just turned off my online dating profiles and hide. The clearing sent me into a hyper-introverted state where I had little to no interest in meeting women.

For the lurkers, potential buyers -- DO NOT LET THAT DETER YOU. As my time with v3a winds down, I realize exactly what was going on.

Up until this point, my life has been defined by neediness driven by an inability to let go of the past and embrace the future.

v3a is ripping every bit of neediness (the most unattractive thing to women) and fear (the second most unattractive) from my very core. I'm a very independent person. I take orders from no one unless I know it'll benefit me (that's how I can deal with military service -- if it's my job to just take orders, whatever. Just pay me.) So imagine my surprise when I realize just how much neediness and fear actually exists within me. And not just from women. Thanks to DMSI, I realize that I also possess a deep need for validation from others. In one month, I've experience almost a complete turnaround, doing my own thing with little to no need to even talk to another person about my plans.

About a month ago, I wrote about a terrible darkness that existed deep within my psyche that was holding me back. After performing a number of mental alchemy exercises, I can safely say that v3a has eradicated much of it, with the rest going "into hiding" (best way I can explain it). I've battled with this thing my entire life. It has prevented me from achieving great things. I know that I have the potential to be something absolutely amazing if I could just defeat this darkness.

But thanks to v3a, I realize that this darkness was never anything more than a psychovisual projection of my worst enemy:

Myself.

Something else to blame for my failures other than MYSELF. Interestingly enough, I suspect that it's the personal responsibility module that eradicated this thing, as "personal responsibility" has become a major theme in my life. I'm starting to realize that no one -- NOTHING -- can stop me from success as long as I keep pushing forward.

I've found myself spending many nights alone, just dwelling on everything from --as HaveAtYe mentioned -- the nature of the universe and how it seems aggressively push for maximum optimization and growth. And that manifests within us as self-development. And I realize that I have been fighting against that universal urge, yearning for those carefree past days before I become "chaosvrgn."

But, that time is gone. It'll never return. I can't "unsee" what I've seen and experienced, but I don't have to let those things completely define my future. I can take what I have learned and use the knowledge to actively SHAPE what I want to become.

I realize that this was the mistake one of my favorite literary heroes. That he built his future based upon a lust for a past that was LONG gone and could never return. And I'll leave it to F. Scott Fitzgerald himself to explain it better than I could:

"And as I sat there brooding on the old, unknown world, I thought of Gatsby’s wonder when he first picked out the green light at the end of Daisy’s dock. He had come a long way to this blue lawn, and his dream must have seemed so close that he could hardly fail to grasp it. He did not know that it was already behind him, somewhere back in that vast obscurity beyond the city, where the dark fields of the republic rolled on under the night.

Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future that year by year recedes before us. It eluded us then, but that’s no matter—tomorrow we will run faster, stretch our arms further... And one fine morning—

So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past."


This is chaosvrgn, signing off on v3a.

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