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12-10-2016, 08:44 PM
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Really looking forward to seeing how 3.0.1 affects you. Smile

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12-10-2016, 08:55 PM
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Funny you should say that. I am too.LOL

Just wish more women would test it.

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12-12-2016, 03:57 PM
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Day 3

Nothing happened got some studying done.Finally

I started to accept looking at porn. It's just the natural order of things.

Got a another 3 month supply of birth control.

I'm starting to relax about what to do career wise.



Day 4 Interrupted

Yes I interrupted the sub got hungry around bed time so I got up to eat. Stomach was just growling to loud for me to sleep.lol

The aura isn't as strong today but I did walk in to work thinking that I'm too high value for this job. I'm pretty sure that when I listen again tonight that feeling will only get stronger. It will probably be enough to quit right then and there. I did feel relaxed though. Working at my own pace not giving a rats ass about how work needed to be done. It will get done but I'm not stressing over it. Not worth my time.

Felt horny during the morning but that subsided after a couple of hours. I haven't noticed anything different at work with the guy's there. Sitting in my bed typing this and I feel like my bed needs to be broken in.lol

Having an incredibly strong feeling that I need to go to a toastmasters meeting. Which makes sense. Also I want to take a break fro college which doesn't make sense.

I want to start creating the life that I want for once and not what others think I should do. I know I'm going to upset some people. I'm not sure how to handle that yet.

The idea for making more money is right at the tip of my tongue so close. It literally feels like it's right in front face. Come out already and stop teasing me.

Not bothered by women too much. If they want to be more masculine then more power to them and much respect. There is no point in letting that get under my skin. I can only only work on me.

P.S I ordered lots of Chinese so no interruptions tonight.Big Grin

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12-12-2016, 10:21 PM
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(12-12-2016 03:57 PM)Why So Serious? Wrote:  Not bothered by women too much. If they want to be more masculine then more power to them and much respect. There is no point in letting that get under my skin. I can only only work on me.

Can you elaborate on what you meant here? What do you mean by "if they want to be more masculine"? Women want to be masculine?[/i]
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12-15-2016, 05:28 PM (This post was last modified: 12-15-2016 05:43 PM by Why So Serious?.)
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Finals are over with. Finally!

I assumed that most women do but that may not be the case. I need to be more understanding and patient when it comes to this. Society has made this the norm so it may be a case of just not knowing any better.
It's possible that I don't understand this fully either. If you want I can type out some of what I know next post. Find some common ground on this issue.

I figured out that one of the speakers is going out, and won't be getting a new set until Saturday. For now I have been using my cellphone for now.

You'd think nothing would happen since I'm listening to the sub on the cell but it's been downright strange at the job. I got into the office. Long story short got told they are looking out for me and gave me lots of praise.Huh I did make a pretty big mistake but they brushed it off.

Now coworker is starting to be a pain to deal with. They don't know what happened in the office. I knew it was going to happen at one point because of the sub just didn't know when. I'm bracing myself for more of that in future just from different women. Maybe guy's but for some odd reason it's the women (in my experience) that give me the most grief.

I have a strange feeling that my boss may be um.....thinking about me. That could be why I got praise?

That's all for now.

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12-15-2016, 07:11 PM
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Society definitely tries to make women take on more masculinity while at the same time making men sacrifice some. This twisted idea on how masculinity is best for all scenarios is screwing both genders over. Allowing both genders to empower themselves through their "default" energies would be sweet. Would also be crazy sexy hawt!
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12-16-2016, 11:22 AM
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(12-15-2016 05:28 PM)Why So Serious? Wrote:  I'm bracing myself for more of that in future just from different women. Maybe guy's but for some odd reason it's the women (in my experience) that give me the most grief.

Looks like your female co-worker don't like competition Big Grin

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01-09-2017, 07:40 PM (This post was last modified: 01-09-2017 08:33 PM by Why So Serious?.)
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@Nox
I agree that it would be nice to go back to default energies but that isn't going to happen for a very long time. If it ever happens

@Mr. Anderson
No she doesn't.

I have been avoiding posting for reasons. Maybe Shannon can find something useful here not sure.

I am starting to be more ...myself. That's sort of a good thing. I didn't think it would be possible to become even more nerdy than I am. Well it is and slowly starting to show.

I'm starting to like that I'm an introvert. Operative word starting.

Stuff I'm not comfortable posting begins here
I did have some weird stuff happen over the year week. In the middle of the week I started fantasizing about women no stop. Usually not a big deal because I can counter act that by thinking about men. This time was not that easy. That's what had me worried. A thought popped in my head a few hours later that I should focus on women more than men. Then I started to feel good, real good.(Just realized that it might have that euphoria everybody is talking about) It kind of snow-balled from there over the next few days. Went from focusing on women, to having an open relationship with just men while having a girlfriend, then it became both men and women, and it stopped it having both a boyfriend and girlfriend. Boyfriend isn't the right word because it means it would be serious. Can't think of the word right now so I'll leave it that.
I seriously had a lot of energy. A few people were noticing I was in better mood.I could get less sleep with the sub and not feel exhausted. I started feeling on top of the world. Like I owned it. I was checking more women out and sometimes men. It felt awesome. I was just in the flow. Everything felt possible.
Money wasn't going to be a problem because I could focus on computers. I could see it all in minds eye. Felt kind of like a vision. I also really like working with computers in that vision thing as well.

It just sucked that New Years Eve I woke up with a migraine. For once I wanted to socialize and that wasn't happening. Even riding in a car brought on motion sickness when I felt a little better . I have never had that ever. Hey I tried:/

Fast forward a few days and I'm very upset now. I don't feel like it was supposed to happen like this. I mean yes I am attracted to women I just didn't think I was that attracted. How depressing.

Why can't I have all that energy any other time.

Now that I think about it. I think the sub really kicked in with a woman that used to work at the job. It felt like getting punched in the face. My vision blurred a little and then the heat started kicking in. Of course I swept it under the rug and pretended like nothing ever happened. Never had the aura kick in like that before. It's usually just a little heat.

As you can tell I don't want to socialize that much. Kind of hoping that this is temporary and I can move on and live a somewhat normal life. It might not be a big deal something that will pass.

Yep that's all. Back to learning some programming

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01-09-2017, 09:01 PM
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I know quite a few same sex couples and whenever people frown upon their relationship. I speak up and say, "At least they are happy together!!"

Isn't that what matters??

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01-11-2017, 10:12 AM
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I had a realization that I really did not like during A, as well. I ended up coming to terms with it, but the realization meant a lot of what I held near and dear had to be discarded in favor of this new realization.

The process isn't necessarily "awesome", but the resulting freedom certainly is. Which I hope for you is sooner than later, as the depressive feeling on dimsee sucks -_-

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01-11-2017, 05:23 PM (This post was last modified: 01-11-2017 05:26 PM by Why So Serious?.)
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@4Kingdoms
I'd guess.

@Eternity
Welp lets hope I can come to terms with this.Confused Just wondering how long that's going to take.

Seems like if I focus a little on getting women then I do start getting horny for guy's. As long as I acknowledge that women will be the main focus there isn't a problem.

If it's the other way around well nothing happens in regards to men. I still keep attracting men but I don't have any interest right now.

It feels like the is what it's going to be and I can't turn back. Even though I try. Technically I should feel better after this so I guess I shouldn't feel to bad.

Now that I think about it the emotional shielding is working because these would feel a lot worse than this. and it should feel a lot worse.

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01-12-2017, 12:04 AM
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RE: (Insert Clever Title) DMSI 2.5->3.0
Oh, coming to terms with one's sexuality is one of the best things that DMSI does.

F. in., while I was still using 2.5, I realized a couple of things, one of the most important one's being that I'm what in BDSM-related terminology would be called a "switch". It really felt good to come to terms with that, although a bit harrowing at the same time, and it's only really sunk in during my initial month with 3.0.1 A. Coming to terms with my submissive side brought up a lot of ***** fears, as it is often socially considered as "unmanly".

Hang in there. Smile
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01-15-2017, 08:01 PM
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@Have at ye
Still hanging. Congrats on coming to terms with being a switch.

There may be some hope for me after all. I'm starting to come to terms with this. There is still that fear of what will some people think about it. However thinking about how others are going to feel is starting to get old.

Even though I don't see a whole lot of external results I do feel like the vibe or aura has changed. Feels like I'm giving off vibes to attract more women. It's strange but it feels like the aura made a switch somewhere.

I'm a little worried because I think people might be picking up on that somehow. I might be getting paranoid over nothing.

I'm considering listening to b later on this week to see what happens.

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01-16-2017, 11:25 AM
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You think it might actually be the celebrity effect making you more popular rather than making you more attractive to women?

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01-19-2017, 04:36 PM
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^To me it feels like it might be adjusting more for women. I'm not sure if the celebrity effect is working for me or not.



Start listening to B yesterday. I felt pretty neutral yesterday just kept thinking is this it? I did want to cry a couple of times but that was it. I don't think I would have felt bad about it either which is strange because usually I would. College started again. I'm not liking it so far but whatever just there to get it over with. Did find some a couple of attractive guy's but no heat from the auraSad

I had to deal with so job stupidity but don't want to get into that. Today I was moody but feel happier and talkative now that it's the end of the day. Two things that don't happen to me often. I'm already starting to make plans for things to do later on in the year. I don't do that either. Stuff that I would actually enjoy seeing. WWWWHHHHAAAATTTTTT! MAdness I tell you. I usually put stuff like this off because I know nobody else is interested in stuff I like but I think it's time to do something I like for once.

I went to the dentist and got a little "discount" for the cleaning.

Other than that nothing special. I'll just listen to B until the end of the week then I'll take a break. If Shannon releases the sub on time I'll start it a week late.

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01-29-2017, 08:11 PM
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Just been observing my behavior lately.

I am noticing that the more I listen to the sub the less attraction I feel for men. Deep down thinking about it makes me extremely happy but of course I'm still not quite sure how to take that. 'shrugs'

I keep looking in the mirror thinking I look gay. I have no clue how that can happen because I literally didn't change anything about me. At first it scared the crap out of me the first time but it has gotten easier to look in the mirror everyday. Could just be me seeing things too.

My body language has changed. I can't pinpoint where the changes were made they are there I can feel them.

With all this happening still doesn't stop men. Yesterday went and ran some arr ends and the 3 men were going out their way to help me (even with their girlfriends around). Then there was that one guy stumbling all over himself. Now I'm guessing I should be flattered but it really annoys me when that happens.

I'm taking some interest in another female coworker. Once again she isn't my type body wise but she is cute in her own way I guess. (God I need to get out more.) lol

Starting to notice that if that I don't my emotions get in the way I actually start to enjoy my interactions with people. I start to care more about people as well. Seems cold-hearted but it works for me. Now just figuring out how to keep it up.

Well I'll be starting version A tonight because obviously I need more healing. I started listening to B Tuesday again since I Shannon said it would be better to keep listening.

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02-02-2017, 10:42 AM
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It is so refreshing to read a woman`s DMSI journal. And yours is quite interesting and will be even more interesting to see how everything works out for you. Keep it up Smile
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02-20-2017, 07:27 PM
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(02-02-2017 10:42 AM)cataleya Wrote:  It is so refreshing to read a woman`s DMSI journal. And yours is quite interesting and will be even more interesting to see how everything works out for you. Keep it up Smile

Thanks! I'm wondering how it's going to work out for me too.

It's been pretty depressing lately. Yesterday I finally accepted that I am gay.(For some odd reason it got really hot after I typed that. "shrugs shoulders":-/) Cuz you know I'm tired of fighting myself on that issue. I'm hoping that I don't anymore flashbacks. It feels like the universe is rubbing it my face saying I told you so.Dodgy My pride and feelz hurt from all that too.

Today woke up feeling sick to my stomach. Later had more symptoms that turned out to be migraine. I took half the day off and realized that I felt guilty and couldn't rest or relax. Had class today too. I'm wondering what the hell happened to me. I wasn't this worried about stuff like this. I should take time off if not feeling well. So frustrating. If I don't feel any better than I'm taking the whole day off tomorrow. I hoping the guilt won't back.

I have been having trouble concentrating at work anyway. Way to horny for some odd reason it's not that bad in class.

A couple of weeks ago my other co-worker was about to leave and almost blurted out that she loved me.Huh I just chalked that up to her being sick but she called me "My love" a couple of days later. She causes to much drama and I think she's trying to get me fired anyway(tbh I don't mind) so that's a definite HELL NO.

Just been doing a whole lot of inner work lately. A couple of key points that I learned is to relax(well still trying to figure that out) and to figure out how to do things my own way and go easy on myself(what motivates one person won't necessarily motivate me). I think figuring out what works for me is the big one right there and helped me accept all this. I'm still trying to figure out what works and what doesn't. TBH I don't think I ever tried so this is going to interesting.

That's all.

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(02-20-2017 07:27 PM)Why So Serious? Wrote:  
(02-02-2017 10:42 AM)cataleya Wrote:  It is so refreshing to read a woman`s DMSI journal. And yours is quite interesting and will be even more interesting to see how everything works out for you. Keep it up Smile

Thanks! I'm wondering how it's going to work out for me too.

It's been pretty depressing lately. Yesterday I finally accepted that I am gay.(For some odd reason it got really hot after I typed that. "shrugs shoulders":-/) Cuz you know I'm tired of fighting myself on that issue. I'm hoping that I don't anymore flashbacks. It feels like the universe is rubbing it my face saying I told you so.Dodgy My pride and feelz hurt from all that too.

Today woke up feeling sick to my stomach. Later had more symptoms that turned out to be migraine. I took half the day off and realized that I felt guilty and couldn't rest or relax. Had class today too. I'm wondering what the hell happened to me. I wasn't this worried about stuff like this. I should take time off if not feeling well. So frustrating. If I don't feel any better than I'm taking the whole day off tomorrow. I hoping the guilt won't back.

I have been having trouble concentrating at work anyway. Way to horny for some odd reason it's not that bad in class.

A couple of weeks ago my other co-worker was about to leave and almost blurted out that she loved me.Huh I just chalked that up to her being sick but she called me "My love" a couple of days later. She causes to much drama and I think she's trying to get me fired anyway(tbh I don't mind) so that's a definite HELL NO.

Just been doing a whole lot of inner work lately. A couple of key points that I learned is to relax(well still trying to figure that out) and to figure out how to do things my own way and go easy on myself(what motivates one person won't necessarily motivate me). I think figuring out what works for me is the big one right there and helped me accept all this. I'm still trying to figure out what works and what doesn't. TBH I don't think I ever tried so this is going to interesting.

That's all.

Couple of months on DMSI and you are coming terms to your sexuality, that`s impressive. From reading your journal I thought maybe you were bisexual. Hope you are feeling ok Undecided How old are you if you don`t mind me asking?
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Why So Serious is gay. Penises worldwide are sad and droopy as vaginas are jumping for joy and celebrating their victory.
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