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10-25-2014, 04:22 AM (This post was last modified: 03-13-2016 12:48 AM by Benjamin.)
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Alpha Intensity (Ben's AM6 Journal)
Welcome fellow adventurers!

I was debating what time to take off, but Shannon said in my other journal..

Quote:Your personality type is such that you should not take a long break from subs that include fear destruction until you are well and truly free of it. So I recommend that if you stop WL, that you start AM6 immediately.

So cool, I took 1 night off which shouldn't harm anything and will start Stage 1 tonight.

My pre-Alpha journal got pretty big, I thought i'd start fresh as now i'll actually be using AM6. I haven't fully decided yet whether to keep doing PSTEC during it or not.

It's time to take my new body and continue the developent and transformation at the same level in my Confidence, Dominance, Alphaness, Power, Masculinity so that it matches how i'm starting to look. Physical development is important to me, but I can definately see how my old persona as the quiet kind of guy holds me back and probably gives conflicting signals especially to girls.

The positive is after losing all the weight i'm in a MUCH better position than when I did 2011 and 5.0 as the issues around my weight were holding me back in a big way.

I'll write some other stuff tomorrow, for now i'm going to see some friends.

Videos -
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Stage 1 Start - Saturday 25/10/14.
Finish Stage 1 and onto Stage 2 - Wednesday 26/11/14

Stage 2 Start - Wednesday 26/11/14.
Finish Stage 2 and onto Stage 3 - Sunday 28/12/14

Stage 3 Start - Sunday 28/12/14.
Finish Stage 3 and onto Stage 4 - Thursday 29/1/15

Stage 4 Start - Thursday 29/1/15.
Finish Stage 4 and onto Stage 5 - Monday 2/3/15

Stage 5 Start - Monday 2/3/15.
Finish Stage 5 and onto Stage 6 - Friday 3/4/15

Stage 6 Start - Friday 3/4/15.
Finish Program - Tuesday 5/5/15

At end 1 week off then start from Stage 1 again.

*First run complete - Tuesday 5/5/15!*

-Ben
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10-25-2014, 05:17 AM
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Doing great Ben! Great luck with the AM 6.0!

You're awesome!
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10-25-2014, 07:59 AM
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Good luck buddy
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10-25-2014, 10:39 AM
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Good luck Ben

what do you mean by "9000"?

where attention goes energy flows and result show
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10-25-2014, 02:37 PM
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(10-25-2014 10:39 AM)MJ1 Wrote:  Good luck Ben

what do you mean by "9000"?

I asked myself that, too. I hope AM6 does for you what you want.
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10-25-2014, 03:01 PM
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RE: Alpha Intensity (Ben's AM6 Journal)
Hey Ben you should look into taking Spirulina. It gives a massive boost in energy and has some properties that aid in fat loss as well.
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10-25-2014, 03:14 PM
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SiMHTK15Pik

Alpha Male 5.0 Journal / Sex Magnet 3.0 Journal
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10-25-2014, 03:26 PM (This post was last modified: 10-25-2014 03:38 PM by Benjamin.)
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Thanks guys Smile

Hahaha, it's a reference to a video that was going around a while ago. Originally it's from Dragonballz.





But then this guy brought out this video that I found pretty funny. I know Shannon and Andrew found it funny too.





And all the nice people of the internet made it more legit haha.





EDIT: Oh I guess you posted the video as I was writing this post Dan.

-Ben
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10-25-2014, 03:52 PM (This post was last modified: 10-25-2014 03:58 PM by Benjamin.)
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I'm tired from going to bed late and I guess the new input of AM6.

A few subtle things. I noticed my dreams had a different distinct quality. I know I had several but can't remember much of them. Only part I remember is that somebody infected me with some disease and I had to pass it onto somebody else to get rid of it but I refused to just give it to a random person. So I went looking for people I hate and I guy i've been in a few fights with come to mind and I went looking for him.

Then I had a group of people I hate keep coming past and trying to run into me like they were trying to start trouble.

I woke up thinking about certain things from my past and how I deserve more and some other subtle changes in my thinking that I can't remember now i'm typing it up. The other interesting thing is that nearly every day I read returnofkings or manosphere.com and today i'm like "no.. it's a negative influence and just fuels any hate I have towards women and feminism" because it's full of negative guys who are way too extreme.

I'm struggling not to go and read some articles there as it's a habit but i've got a bit of an urge to read something positive around masculinity and i'm sure that will develop more.

I also have woken up today and with a message back from a woman off POF i've been talking to a fair bit, but today i've lost alot of interest in her because she seems to have that stupid 'empowered woman' attitude and said sometimes her job is like a primarly school teacher because she has 4 men working under her. I don't even feel like dignifying it with a reply and it massively turned me off her.

I'm a little unsure how much i'll listen, because Stage 1 is 60 minutes and the others are 80 it's more difficult to match up the listening when I get to Stage 2. It matches at 11 hours so I may stick at that.. now I don't want to be sitting there all day just to listen a huge amount of hours like I have been with other programs, one of my goals is to go and do other stuff and socialize more.

-Ben
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10-25-2014, 07:28 PM
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Quote:Hey Ben you should look into taking Spirulina. It gives a massive boost in energy and has some properties that aid in fat loss as well.

Just seen this post. I've been taking it a few months, I started with the powder but it tasted HORRIBLE so I now have tablets, not sure if there's much difference in effectiveness or not. I'm not sure i've really notice more energy from it.

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10-25-2014, 08:32 PM (This post was last modified: 10-25-2014 08:38 PM by Benjamin.)
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Thanks Zyggy. Smile

I deleted the poll because I didn't like the look of having it say 'poll' in the heading. It was just a bit of fun anyway.

I just realized that I can easily match up my listening after Stage 1. I kept thinking Stage 2+ was 90 minutes, it's 80 but that was just me rounding it up. Taking the half an hour off it equals 12 hours of listening so my plan is to do 12 hours each day. 8 at night and 4 during the day, more during the day on weekends to match since I sleep less.

I just went to the supermarket to get money out as i'm having tea at a restaurant for my friends birthday tonight. I thought instead of waiting to get it tonight i'll go down the street and see if I notice any differences because sitting at home I just pretty much feel the same.

And wow.. I felt the most centered and stable in myself than I have in a very long time. I can't even remember feeling so centered.

As opposed to the pumped up confidence when i've had to work myself up, which is a high energy and unsustainable thing.. I much prefer this centered state without feeling the need to perform or do anything special.

I didn't come across many cute girls to notice reactions.. but strangely all these guys were looking at me, like my presence had increased. Though the girl on the checkout avoided eye contact and acknowledging me.. as soon as I talked to her she was happy to talk to me and smiling.

Of course it's day 1.. but it was a distinct difference. If this way of being was my baseline that would be ***** awesome.

I also noticed a bit of nice swagger in how I was walking and feeling more upright. Smile

I replied to the woman on POF and said "I'm not sure we will get along if you think men are like primary school children.. cos i'm worse.. i'm like a kindergartener. Wink".

**** it.. i'll exaggerate her stupid assumption. Cos it says alot about her attitude towards men. At this point I really don't care about her which is a great shift from a few days ago.

-Ben
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10-26-2014, 03:52 PM (This post was last modified: 10-26-2014 03:54 PM by Benjamin.)
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Had tea for my friends birthday last night. I know it will take longer for any changes to reflect in my friendship group since the way I am is so established.

A few of them went and I was waiting for 1 at his house while he was getting changed and I was getting annoyed he was taking so long, usually I would just stand there and be annoyed but say nothing, this time I kept saying "are you ready.. i'm hungry" and was getting pissed off and not just accepting it and being quiet and it made him hurry up which was good. But then I got there and they didn't even have a table and were waiting for a few other guys, as soon as they come i'm like "lets get a table.. i'm hungry" and everyone got up and followed, that isn't something I usually do so it was good.

It's annoying in situations like this doing intermittent fasting as I finished eating around 8:30pm and can't eat until 12:30pm today.

I felt like some of my insecurities and feeling like people were ignoring me were magnified but only in my friendship group, it seemed other people out of that were treating me better than usual.

One of my friends was giving me crap about having 32gb of ram in my pc, for some reason he really hates it. And a few others joined in, like I was projecting something slightly different and they had to try to bring it down.

Sitting at the table, there was a group of girls and a couple of guys across from us, there was 1 girl who I felt kept looking over and making eye contact and I kept looking at her too. It seemed more obvious to me people making eye contact.

After tea I went to pay as I was going to the supermarket to get some yoghurt. And the waitress started talking to me heaps, I didn't plan to talk to her but she kept talking and asking me stuff. When she found out I work online she said something about a friend of hers who made money online with a porn site and talked about that a bit.. women don't bring that up if they don't want you thinking in that way. But then she also said she is pregnant WTF. Which threw me for a loop and I decided not to go for her number or anything. Eventually she said she has to get back to work as she got told off or something.

I went to the supermarket, a few people who work there talked to me for a while and said they barely recognized me since I lost so much weight Smile I hadn't been there for a while due to some bs, and then they said the girl who caused it caused alot of trouble in the store.. so obviously they realized I wasn't the dodgy one.

Went back and tried to talk to the waitress a bit more but now all of a sudden she was weird and standoffish. She was acting kind of like I went out of my way to hit on her before when it was her who kept talking to me and was just weird.. i'm not sure why.

One interesting thing is that 3 guys there had their girlfriends there, and each one of them seemed visibly pissed off at my presence near them. I couldn't read if it was intimidated or pissed of but they were acting weird. At one point I come and put my chair at the end of the table and sat down and one of them gave me a massive smile when I did that.. so I guess it was just intimidation. I didn't even try to talk to them or anything except for one who's been around for a while. I usually ignore them because I feel attracted to them and want to flirt, so I just don't do anything most of the time instead.

Anyway, dreams last night were more like me running into dangerous mystery situations and then getting lost in a maze trying to save my sister. I can't remember the others. So far it seems different from the past Alpha dreams where in the first few stages I was running away from everything.

-Ben
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10-27-2014, 01:12 AM (This post was last modified: 10-27-2014 01:14 AM by Benjamin.)
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RE: Alpha Intensity (Ben's AM6 Journal)
I noticed today I went and talked to my dad more where I usually do little, it's like a habit and even more than my friends the changes I start seeing are much harder to come through with my parents.

I went to the gym and something small but impactful. A woman who is there alot of the time when I am who has never acknowledged me come out the door as I was walking in. I've wanted to talk to her a few times but never had the chance as she seems closed off and doesn't rest much between her exercises if at all. But she come out and started and gave me a massive smile.. and I said "hows it going" and she said something back and seemed happy to talk to me.

It was impactful seeing she has never acknowledged me or had any hint of a smile towards me the whole time i've seen her at the gym until now.

I've also ended up in like 3 or 4 conversations in the last 2 days about losing weight, how I did it and wanting to help other people do so.. a guy in the gym who is studying to be a personal trainer said he has overweight people asking him and doesn't really know how to help them and asked if it's okay to tell them to come and talk to me, and I said "yeah that would be good".

Maybe it's time to actually start working on this.. I hadn't done much on it as I had my own doubts. But 2 days on AM6 and i'm feeling more like I can do it.

It will be doing FasterEFT with people, but I can just direct them through it without tapping myself so it won't effect my programming with AM6 or my decision to do it without clearing methods.

The last thing is something I wish I could let go of, and that's too much expectation. Like i'll go out wanting to see every little result and after i'm feeling good i'll just want to hold onto it.. today I started off feeling good but after the gym I felt more like what i'm used to and it seemed to have disappeared.. atleast it's a good taste of what's to come. But I think my expectations may affect this, I want to be able to just let go and let it do it's work, but I can't seem to.

I hate girls messaging me every day, but the girl i've been sleeping with hasn't for 2 days and it is unusual. The conflict is that I want higher quality girls but still want her approval so I start wondering what is wrong.

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10-27-2014, 02:41 AM (This post was last modified: 10-27-2014 02:41 AM by Benjamin.)
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Hmm interesting.

Some of you who read my pre-journal will remember the girl I slept with off tinder. I tried to meet up with her a few times after it and she was standoffish and the last time my message was a bit suggestive and she was just like "nah i'm right" which pissed me off and I deleted her number.

I just went on facebook and got a message from her "hey hey how are you Smile".

It's funny that when I gave up caring.. and I commented on a few of her facebook statuses just because I found them entertaining but didn't expect anything from it.. and now she's messaging me.

She can wait until tomorrow for a reply and prove to me why she deserves another chance.

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10-27-2014, 04:13 PM (This post was last modified: 03-13-2016 12:48 AM by Benjamin.)
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I replied to her before and said "I haven't had a coffee yet, message me one".

And she said "We should go out for coffee and catch up when i'm back in town".

And I was just like "Hmm maybe" hahaha.

Interestingly when I was chasing her and insecure she would take like a day to reply, today she is replying almost instantly. And writing more than me. And she's now asking ME to meet where a few months ago I kept trying and she was acting cold.

It's quite a good shift where a few months ago I wanted her so bad and then I let it go and deleted her number and I don't really care and she is chasing me.

I already see Stage 1 working in making me care less about girls, because i'm just like "whatever.. i'm gonna let her do the work" where before I was happy to drive like an hour to see her and move everything around now there's no way i'd do that. It's quite a distinct shift especially with this girl!

She said something in one message that she is just awesome like that and i'm like "I dunno.. there's more to awesome than just that". Smile

Anyway, I got around to recording my Stage 1 video. It was only short so didn't take long to download, i'll try to keep them short because my upload is slow.

It will be good to see the changes in the videos and also to have you guys be able to point out differences you notice in future videos because as we know so well the person doing the program alot of the time doesn't notice their own changes.





EDIT: Oh wow, I just thought i'd have a look at the video I made in august to compare and I notice a big difference in how lean and fit I look now. Smile

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10-27-2014, 04:44 PM
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Looking good!

Btw, nice voice. Did you do some special voice exercises?
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10-27-2014, 06:00 PM (This post was last modified: 10-27-2014 06:02 PM by Benjamin.)
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Thanks man Smile Nah I haven't done any voice exercises for ages, I tried 'finding your irresistible voice' years ago but I stopped when I realized I hated the guys voice on the cd.

Funny you mention my voice, because i've always hated it.. but today when I watched the video back I realized that all of a sudden I liked my voice! I wonder if it's a shift from AM6. I looked at the august video to see if my voice was different but i'm not sure. But I remember when I made that video I even hated my voice then. Hmm..

I messaged the girl back and at the end said "let me know when you're around, I might let you buy me a coffee".

And she said "haha I think you got that the wrong way around". And I just replied "I had it right Wink".

It's just a little thing, but it's getting her to work for me and build compliance. I fully expect her to buy me a coffee and if she refuses I probably won't go and meet her haha.

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10-27-2014, 07:26 PM
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Ben!!!

I'm so glad you're doing AM6 now too. I'm on Stage 1, Day 12. We can change together man, looking forward to reading everything and watching you change forever before my very eyes haha! Smile
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10-27-2014, 09:25 PM (This post was last modified: 10-27-2014 09:35 PM by Benjamin.)
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Thanks man, good luck Smile

Doing this the last few days brings home a realization I was starting to have a few weeks ago.

Some of you are interpreting the 'negative' emotions wrong in some cases. Of course sometimes the extreme ones can be it conflicting with something (what you call resistance) but not necessarily so.

If you are like I was and every negative emotion that comes up you're like "oh shit I need to use FasterEFT/PSTEC/Whatever you could be doing yourself a disservice, and I realize this more doing the subliminal alone the last few days.

The last 2 hours of listening to the subliminal today was hell as I didn't want to sit there any more, feeling restless, a bit anxious, frustrated. Usually that would be the trigger to do PSTEC after it because frustration is coming up.

No.. the frustration was there because I was sitting at home and it was pushing me to go out and do stuff. It made me want to get outside and socialize, if I had cleared that I would have felt a little better, but it is more like I was numbing myself to it and then i'd be more 'content' sitting at home. I finally understand how these emotions are pushing you to make changes.

I went out, got a maccas coffee.. talked to a girl I know working there for a bit then walked around. Looked at some shirts and flirted with the girl in the clothes shop... and started to notice the increased presence from AM6.

I went into the clothes shop and said hi, she was over the top happy.. way more than the whole 'I work here so I have to be nice'. I seen a batman shirt and said to her "I have to tell you a secret".. "what".

"I'm batman".

Everything I was saying she was giggling full on and smiling, a distinct difference to usual. Sure i'm getting better reactions since losing weight but not usually to this level. And I wasn't really acting any different.

There was just something subtle that is different and causing reactions like this. A guy who I talked to a minute out the front whose phone rang tried to talk crap when he left "don't flirt with girls too much" and I asked her what he said.. if it made me uncomfortable it would have ruined it but I just said to her "I have to.. it's my job as batman so I know if I need to save the world".

I left thinking I should have talked to her and got her number, last I remember she had a boyfriend but she is obviously attracted.

The other thing I noticed today is my voice was noticeably louder, clearer and deeper even to me.

My main point is that if I had simply interpreted the feelings as resistance and sat at home and cleared it I wouldn't have had these interactions and seen the subtle changes happening.

I also need to learn to deal with emotions better instead of instantly clearing them.

EDIT: There was something I wanted to clarify too, talking to somebody earlier I realized that me saying this stuff about clearing methods may seem like i'm just trying to get people to stop doing other stuff and just use subliminals because I work for IML. That's not the case, I am all for improved and faster changes which is why I used FasterEFT and PSTEC so much myself hoping for that.. and after reading a few posts I thought why not try it without and see what I can learn and these are my realizations.

-Ben
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10-28-2014, 09:00 PM (This post was last modified: 10-28-2014 09:05 PM by Benjamin.)
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A few little things that show my presence is improving.

-Talked to a girl at the gym who's been there for ages and has never really acknowledged me, and when I asked her how she was going she gave me a big smile and actually stopped her stretching to talk briefly, and later on she walked past and gave me another smile.

-A women cleaning when I was using self serve checkouts when I said hi to her she come right over, and stopped what she was doing and stood right next to me and talked.

-The last one is i'm noticing when I see a group of dodgy people I don't get uncomfortable and uptight as I normally do or worried something might happen. It's more just comfortable and this feeling of "they won't do anything to me" and that I just won't attract it to me.

The last thing was a realization of how the suggestions in the program may work and be stifled (e.g resisted) by me.

After the supermarket I got into my car and a girl walked past and instantly I got that 'wow' feeling that I only get occasionally then 'I have to approach her'. It's like something in the program was suggesting it, but my fear won out. I was to much of a pussy to approach her so I made the excuse i'd just goto the chemist first and then go back and approach her even though I knew she would be gone. (Radical honesty about my excuses from Swinggcats Masculine Polarity course i've started listening to).

Anyway what I realized is that when I went to the chemist all of a sudden the confidence I was feeling seemed to disappear and I felt insecure. So my intuition come up suggesting that action of approaching, and I suppressed it because of fear so my mind was kind of like "oh he didn't act on it so it must not be important" and then got rid of it temporarily atleast. I guess also as the new programming takes over more it will get stronger and stronger, but it showed how in that moment I stifled that new urge/suggestion and resisted it.

This is quite a fresh realization to me, it will be interesting to see what you think Shannon.. am I onto something here? I see this new awareness as being able to help me go with these new urges and intuitions that come up.

Of course I may have read something similar from you or another post and i'm only now understanding it myself.

-Ben
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